[passionfruit3]

I don't. See the point in life and dont know how much i want to stay here besides the fact that the planets gonna end anyway and burn us alive probably. my friends Have all abandoned me my family is basically non existant. Theyve all left me to it was for the best but it still sucks to have no one cant talk to my boyfriend cause hes autistic and weve been dating but its never gone anywere cause he just doesn't. Take anything i say seriously weve never even had an actual conversation.i have people and family who care its just not enough to make me want to live.no one can help me at this point but god.

[MtnTime2896]

I was thinking this way, too. It's why I started going to church again after so many years of avoiding them like the plague. Maybe he can help while you're still alive. Is there a church group you think you'd like to try? When I was younger, it was like therapy for me to go to group. Always made me feel like I wasn't alone and that everything would eventually get better.

[passionfruit3]

Im stuck with the freaking mormons and i don't hate em i just lost intrest and when your not very assertive going up against someone whose very forceful in wanting you to stay its hard to leave to another church

[passionfruit3]

So theres not much hope holding out for me there either

[MtnTime2896]

What about here? You still have us.

Finding people we can have real conversations with is so important. I am sorry you don't have that. You say you don't know if you want to stay. Perhaps this is what needs to be explored more. Making changes to our lives is not easy. I am sorry you are in such a dark place.
I am not Mormon, but during part of my youth, our family lived in a Mormon community. I remember the pressure the young people in the church felt. One boy (just an acquaintence) at my high school visited our school after going on his mission. At the time (he was older than us), he expressed to our gaggle of friends how he wished that he had not been pressured to go. I always thought that the Mormon activities I participated in had a strange vibe. There were always some Mormons who complied in public settings only but then acted a totally different way behind closed doors. I know this happens in all churches but it was different in this community because the Mormons were in charge of everything--the elementary school, social gatherings, etc. You were isolated if you did not mingle. I liked many Mormons personally but the church seemed to "loom large" over everything. So I totally understand why it is hard for you to leave.

[passionfruit3]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

What about here? You still have us.

I know i can always count on you guys for advice and friendship.i come here pretty much every day and try and help if I can and in hope that I can be helped I will keep coming here till I can't. I just wish in my teen years there was an intervention sooner. I was supposed to go to a nice residential place at 17 but I was declined cause my birthday was a few months away.i feel like if only a year before I'd been placed in could have been helped now presently I'm depressed suicidal lonely no job ever no college and I feel like I don't have much time to change things cause if either of my parents pass away were sunk cause right now there's no money to afford anything alone which is why there not divorced and I'll probably end up in a care facility if I'm stuck with my dad cause I'm disabled and he can't afford a nurse to help me with personal stuff when I need it so I don't know were I'd go or what I'd do unfortunately also not to many people have messaged me wanting to be friends so I'm not sure but thanks

[Misterpain]

God gave us free will,and hopes when the chips are down you will exercise it and make a change, you sound like someone who needs a geographical cure,not a care facility, this is your life, live it,and as far as we know it's a short hard ride ,no disabled person thrives and enjoys any part of life in a care facility,I went from being a career in public service and donating my time to anyone who needs it, to compassionate disability and a higher function tetrapilegic in few short years ,now I do alot of electronic " interventions" to pass along and pay forward the few breaks I got in this world before I pass on to the grave, if your interested in finding out about independent living with a care aide to do anything you can't do yourself ,PM me let's talk, please.don't give up before you know your possible options for a better life, interesting screen name you got, be passionate about your life and we'll being , the fruit is living and doing well in spite of being a person with a disability.

Misterpain

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry you feel like this.. We're with you.

[Fuzzybear]