This is major depressive disorder - Am I right?

Hello, I have some symptoms that I think are signs of major depressive disorder.

So they are: apathy, hopelessness, irritability, lost of interest in everything (including sex (or in my case masturbation and pornography)), insomnia by night, excessive sleep by day, increased appetite and weight gain, suicidal thoughts...

Maybe I forgot some other minor, but I mentioned all I have problem with. Apathy and loss of interest and sleep problems being the most bothersome!

So am I in major depressive disorder or what? I cry, sometimes... But really not that often. I do not feel sad per se, but rather hopeless and suicidal. Like life isn't worth living or life is so boring that nothing can be interested to me.

I am currently on Fluvoxamine 150mg daily. But I think it doesn't do anything at all to me. It doesn't help. I will talk to my psychiatrist next time about all this, but change of medication is inevitable. Although I lost most of interest in pornography and in that way I relaxed, I still wouldn't like to take antidepressant which destroys it again (I posted topic on sexual health where I took finasteride and now just recovered from it, so I do not want to go in same direction again). Now, I guess my psychiatrist will insist on SSRIs. I tried some time Paxil and it just made orgasm impossible to achieve. I was still sometimes "hungry" for porn, but when I wanted to have it as way of relaxing I couldn't. It didn't remove sexual thoughts like finasteride did. That medicine really wiped out all sexual in me. If one AD could do same to me, I would gladly take it, cause I would improve other fields I am really bad in. Apathy, insomnia, hypersomnia, loss of interest in hobbies, suicidal thoughts... I wouldn't care if my sex life is obliterated then. But I don't want to have anorgasmia but still want to "relax" sometimes.

So, what works for you might not work for me. Wellbutrin looks like great AD, but it actually increases sex drive and since I am basically zero to none chance to have real sex it would be a burden too. But I would like to hear what would maybe be the best option for me to switch to? Fluvoxamine doesn't do anything at all to me. I wouldn't want something which increases weight, since I already have over 200lbs.

Thank you for your advice and hope to solve this out soon. I am really torturing every day. Cannot sleep by night than whole day I sleep.

I have major depressive disorder moderate. It sounds like you have it. But I'm no doctor. Best to bring it up with your doctor. Haven't really found a med that works really well. But maybe try Rexulti.

You seem to fit it.. but check out a doctor, I think it's necessary. You can also get help

Good luck

Only a doctor and some kinds of therapists can diagnose you. We can't and you can't. However you can tell a doctor your suspicions.

As others have said, consult a doctor. Good luck

Certainly sounds like MDD but like others have said you do need to talk to your doctor. Sometimes it takes a lot of tries to get the right meds with side effects you can live with. Keep trying until you find the right combo. You might also look into therapy in addition to the meds--that might be the combination that helps you feel better again

I am sick and tired of psychiatrists and medicine that doesn't work. I will try alternative in the form of CBD oil. Yes, it is expensive. But weighing the benefits of it and horrible sides of psychotropic medicine I would rather stay on CBD oil all my life. Some say that it cannot replace real meds. I say fuc* it! If I feel better in one month test trail (whilst not taking any prescription meds to mix with CBD oil) I will have a word with psychiatrist. If she still insist I take poisons such as Zoloft or Paxil or Lexapro I will change her for a new psych who will support me.

What do you think? I first heard of benefits for psychosis/depression/insomnia from CBD from my friend who got testicle cancer. So if he tried... So will I.

The only real med I had a problem with (erectile dysfunction) was Lexapro. I was on Wellbutrin (prescribed by my gp) for awhile with no problems. I actually quit smoking while on it. The psych arnp switched me to cymbalta, because he was worried about the potential for seizures. I have epilepsy.

No problem with the cymbalta. Right now it's my brain that's causing the problems. As my mood lifts (it's slowly happening), things should get somewhat back to normal working order.

And from what you're describing, I'd say yes that it's major. I'm not a doctor though. Best to discuss with yours'.

Destroyedlife, if you try CBD oil, would you be willing to share your experience with the rest of us? I'm always reasearching somehhing that might help, but there's a lot of junk in the internet and it's hard to weed out the hype from the truth.

Yeah, I will share for sure. Honestly I doubt it will do even noticeable change. But I will give trail period of one month. If really hard stuff doesn't help me, I am not so sure this will. My friend was propagating it so strongly, but he said just as possible thing I should check in my long fight with finding the right stuff that work. My sleep is total chaos and mess. If I sort it out somehow, things will get better. Except for my sex drive. Since taking (stupid) 2 pills of finasteride 2 months ago... It all changed. Maybe for better as now I could chase some of my life hobbies and pastimes. But depression is now in the way.

Anyway, I will share my experience in the following month, so don't worry

Hope stuff helps. At least with sleep and some motivation and uplifting energy.

Edit: Did anyone try Modafinil? It's my next experiment after CBD. It's just for staying awake so I don't sleep at daytime and stay focused and motivated, not for depression. But if anyone tried pls share with me...