[MtnTime2896]

I'm really not doing so good this week, to say the least.

I don't want to be here anymore. I'm tired of fighting when there's no point. What the hell am I even fighting? Who am I fighting and why can't I just put my gloves down for once?

They were all right about me. No sense in trying to deny who I really am. I'm just a piece of **** like they always knew I was.

[guiltier65]

I understand the thoughts... I'm fighting them tonight myself.... but the battle is worth fighting, if only to prevent the enemy from winning. If you were as worthless as you feel, would so many people (myself included) seek your knowledge, wisdom and compassion?
The battle sucks and the enemy is devious and knows our weakness well. it is so hard to fight the lies that we have been told and told ourselves for so long.
I have no great words of wisdom, my friend. only a virtual hug and hopefully, the knowledge that you are not fighting alone.

[Fuzzybear]

The enemy, the lies we've been told for so long, and told ourselves, wants us to believe there's no point. I've never seen any evidence that you're anything but wise, intelligent and compassionate. Unlike those bastards who hurt you. We're here with you even though some of us are on opposite sides of the globe.

[ABC1357]

Sending big virtual hug to you
We want you to be here

[MtnTime2896]

Thanks guys. Like I said, it's just been a really hard week. I'm sure I'll be back to normal in a day or two. Thanks for being here tonight.

[Artchic528]

I know that thinking negatively just makes things worse and you wind up in an ever more depressing downward spiral. I try and nip the negative self talk in the bud before it has a chance to envelope me and I wind up wallowing in a huge cesspool of my own self pity. Maybe you can practice recognizing negative self thinking and stopping it before it consumes you?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Artchic528

I know that thinking negatively just makes things worse and you wind up in an ever more depressing downward spiral. I try and nip the negative self talk in the bud before it has a chance to envelope me and I wind up wallowing in a huge cesspool of my own self pity. Maybe you can practice recognizing negative self thinking and stopping it before it consumes you?

I wish I could do that! I've tried it and it doesn't work for me
(I don't think this is about self pity)

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Artchic528

I know that thinking negatively just makes things worse and you wind up in an ever more depressing downward spiral. I try and nip the negative self talk in the bud before it has a chance to envelope me and I wind up wallowing in a huge cesspool of my own self pity. Maybe you can practice recognizing negative self thinking and stopping it before it consumes you?

I appreciate it and I'd be lying if I said I don't already do that. Honestly, it wasn't my own mind that brought this on, this time. While my mind's vicious, it's not to only culprit this evening. My own father told me a fair share of insults this week. Apparently, I'm just nothing to him; right up until he needs me for something: help with his house, help with my little brother, a show pony for his friends so that he looks really good. Other than that, I'm meaningless. This ****'s all I'm good for.

[MommaD]

The terrible things those people told you are lies So leigheas. They are not the truth of what you are. The truth of who and what you are shines through on the pages of this forum--kind, compassionate, articulate, funny, smart.
Take a magic marker and write KCAFS on the back of your hand where you can see it throughout the day and maybe those letters for kind/compassionate/articulate/funny/smart will help remind you of the truth when others try to make you into something you're not
Sending you hugs and hopes that the darkness fades for you soon

I've always felt that you are very valuable on here; at least I enjoy reading your posts and you had said some nice things to me when I felt low.

There are times when I feel worthless myself. I've had people say that I'm a great guy and I just can't believe them! Some people, like me, have negative self images. And it can be surprising from those who like you that they can't believe you would feel that way. I read in a book that a writer said that he had been amazed at very talented people who have such a poor image of themselves.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I'm really not doing so good this week, to say the least.

I don't want to be here anymore. I'm tired of fighting when there's no point. What the hell am I even fighting? Who am I fighting and why can't I just put my gloves down for once?

They were all right about me. No sense in trying to deny who I really am. I'm just a piece of **** like they always knew I was.

I completely understand where you're coming from. You know that better than anyone on here. I agree sometimes you just want so badly to set the gloves down and say I'm done. Selfishly I don't want you to do that. If you do (I hope you don't) I won't blame you one bit.

However I completely and 100% disagree that you're a piece of ****. I have met people that are pieces of **** and you are not one of them. If anyone tells you that you are tell them to shut the hell up and walk away.

I'm always here if you want to talk.