Split personality

I don't have much specific to post... I've just been so anxious and depressed and felt I should stay in contact with some people at least.

I have definitately been feeling better but at the same time feeling worse. It's like before I was so depressed that I was mostly numb, and now the feeling is coming back in my fingers and toes, which is definitely great... but I'm also anxious and very sad about many of the things that are still going on in my life... I've been working hard to accept some things, like being alone and the arthritis, but they are still a huge issue, and even moreso now in some ways.

Every day now I just wish I had someone special in my life to share things with and everything contridicts that. The anxiety over money, bills, finances etc is making things much worse as well.

Support group tomorrow and I can't wait.

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Fuzzy

{{dex}} I'm glad you have the support group, sounds like it helps (since you can't wait to go )



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(((((Dave)))))...

I just had to do a system recovery on my computor so I don't have a cute pic to post to you....; just hugs and postitive energy for now.

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Sending tons of positive energy your way. You are so wonderful to everyone here.....let us help you too ok?

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Heather

Know how you feel. Yes it is very hard to accept things, especially if they're long-term or even permenant.

Hope the group session goes well. Please keep posting. Remember - people here do care about you.

(((((((Dave))))))

I hope that your support group went well.

I have been having similiar feelings on wanting someone in my life to share with. I think my problem is that I really do not know how to go about finding anyone. Then part of me seems to push people away all the while longing for someone in my life.

I too am accepting that I am alone, and this just isn't easy. Meeting the type of person in my city is really next to impossible. Mostly I guess the Culture of my life is so much different than that of the typical ways of my the ways of the prioritys and protocal of common lifestyle of most of the culture.

I guess for me it is that as I get older I realize that when I have a horrible day or time away, when I come home, there is no one there to share it with. Feelings of just wanting to be able to pick up the phone and call someone special and share how I have just had the shopping trip from hell.....

I guess it is hope that keeps us going and that something good has got to come along. Anyway hope your weekend goes well- Just wanted to let you know you are not alone in these feelings. Take Care, Chris

Best Wishes-
~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

Thanks Kris. Although the topics I brought up in the meeting ended up in a lot of misunderstanding (not hurt feelings... just people contributing all sorts of advice that had little to do with the feelings I was trying to express) it was overall good to get out an be there. I still feel very isolated even in that group... I noticed it in my own body language and attitude, but there were some moments that I was able to force myself to break through and talk to some people during the break.

As of last night my brain has really turned up the anxiety level concerning money. Its getting so bad as to effect my sleep again, and I had been sleeping well for quite some time now. I need to take action while the anxiety is crippling my ability to go out or communicate.

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How long have you been going to the support group? Sometimes it takes awhile to be more comfortable. Do you have social phobia? Just wondering because I used to be in a 'program' for 12 weeks (Mon - Fri) and even on the last day, I was only half comfy with the group. My shrink suggested a support group 1 day week but I nixed it cuz it's at night and in another city. Plus i have social phobia.

Often I think of how it would be different if I had someone at home to share with...

but then I am confronted with the facts: a recent survey showed the number one complaint of MARRIED ppl is they are LONELY!

seems it's an inside job.

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>>seems it's an inside job.



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