Attempts to reach out result in disappointment. Momentary words of sympathy, but is that what I should expect?

Is there more?

I am not doing well again. I need to speak, yet cannot because of these disappointments.

They are only people, after all...I suppose.

I doesn't matter. I expect too much, I guess. I simply expect too much.

Do not show any kindness to me, for I will suck the life out of you if you do. It is dangerous with me.

[whisperingskye]

I don't think that you expect too much. There should be more than just some sympathy. It doesn't achieve much. I guess it's hard for others to know what to do that will be helpful though.

I don't really reach out irl...and when I do I tend to regret it. I'm never sure what I expect but reality never quite matches it.

I think in future I will talk only to professionals, and even that is not guaranteed. I guess they are in more of a position to be able to offer things that could help though.

Sorry you aren't doing well.

[Anxious Minds]

Yeah I know what you mean about disappointment. I think I've come to realize that many people are already fighting battles within themselves, ones that we don't know about. People can't give you the answers they are looking for because they don't have them. I know how maddening that can be. But I've also found that if I keep looking, I will eventually find what I need, sometimes in myself...sometimes it comes from an outside source that says just the right thing. It's like putting together a puzzle...so maddening sometimes when you can't find that one piece...but then you do and it triggers a bunch of pieces to fall into place quickly.

[Rose76]

To want someone to help, but feel like you can't be helped, is awful.

[Bill3]

[Fuzzybear]

I try my best to take my time and put my feelings in words, even if it will sound distorted.
Besides that, I just sit with myself, with my mind and heart, being compassionate to my depression.

What about here? I don't have anyone to talk to, so I write my feelings here, and I feel some people listen to me.

[MtnTime2896]

It's not wrong to need more. You're not a vampire, either. My life is still very much intact after I speak with you.

I can't answer your question unfortunately, as I suffer the same problem with little insight towards a solution.

I am here to try and help, though.

You have never "sucked the life out of me". Instead, we have shared enough about each other lives that I feel a bit of comradery with you. I know that you have a lot of stress in your life and maybe not enough fun. Doesn't it seem like fun is harder to find when you get older? Since I recently made up with my H, the best fun I have is when he is flirtng with me. We are on a serious budget so we have to find joy in the little things as much as we can. But it can be hard when we do the same thing day after day and are isolated. Today is the first day of Spring and I bet it is beautiful where you live. Do you walk much in the sunshine? Sunshine helps me combat depression.....(hugs)