[mick07]

Do you ever get so tired trying to hold it all together? Going to work every day- smiling, making small talk even though you feel like you are dying inside? Of sitting in a group of "family and friends" and feeling so alone.
Somedays it just seems so hard to go through the motions-- What do you do when you feel like this?
What helps you feel better?
I really need to try some new ideas-- I 've got to do something different cuz what I'm doing isn't working that well for me

[nowheretorun]

hey mick07

Mostly, hang in there. Whatever takes your mind off the pain, frustration, anger is a good thing (well, almost anything that is )

I found nature was great because it just is what it is. No pretenses. You can see beauty or pain. The same is true of our thoughts, beauty or pain. The choice is always ours and it is always there to be chosen. Try, just try, and if you're tired, give yourself a break a awhile, it's not easy, but love yourself all the way. Hope this helps....

[debbie_tabor]

Have you tried therapy? Somewhere where you can actually talk to someone about dying inside, and where you don't have to hold it all together or put on a front. It's a relief to let these things out of your head.

[altonwoodsdrphil]

hey mick, sounds to me like you're needing to find some meaning and purpouse in your life. It certainly can put our lives into perspective when we see where we belong and what it is we're here to do. The lack of these things almost always leaves people "clueless" as to where to find the elusive thing called "happiness". perhaps,if there's a thing you have'nt tried it's time to think about it...be well

[mick07]

Thanks- I took the day off from work and spent most of it sitting at the lake. It did help take the edge off- feel more relaxed and better able to cope
THANKS

[jacq10]

(((((((((((mick07)))))))))))))
Boy do i know that feeling all too well unfortunately. I know how hard it can be to be faking the smile, participating in the small talk, and even just being around other people sometimes. And i wish i knew the answers, but i just really think its important to take some "you" time. As much as you think you need. Yes you may feel antisocial or feel like you are missing out on things, but just think of it this way; if you don't have this time to yourself then you're not going to be able to enjoy yourself when comes the time to be around people.
Try and do some things that you enjoy doing, whether that be the nature thing, or reading, art, music, whatever. it doesn't matter. just do your thing, and eventually the rest will fall into place.
If this continues though, i'd recommend talking to someone about it. It doesn't necessarily have to be therapy if you're not into that, but just someone that you can trust. Sometimes these things just need a little extra "push" if you will, just by talking it out with someone.
Hang in there, things will get better.
Jacq