what am I?

Does anyone else know what I mean by "not knowing what I am"?
I feel so lost and alone. I have trouble connecting with people, so everything is bottled up inside where it manifests as an inner dialog constantly questioning everything I do.

I feel...

...like someone lied to me about who I am.
As if my family is hiding something from me. I just feel...

...broken.

Hi nikki

Welcome to PC
I may be wrong, but I'm kind of reading it as a feeling of not "fitting in" anywhere.......or a feeling of blankness/a gap where there should be something........or a feeling of self doubt..........or a feeling a lack of personal meaning.........or a feeling of futility.........or feeling there's nothing to "drive" you.........or a feeling of something being missing...........
But I know that there will be people on here who can/will identify with at least some of what you're going through, and that can be just a start of connecting with people, of feeling less alone..........
So please try not to bottle up the way you're feeling on here, there really are a lot of very empathetic and supportive people on here.........and it can sometimes help to share with people.........

And.......again..........welcome to PC

Alison

I feel the same way..

I'm not sure if it's similar to what you are experiencing, but this reminds of my family, especially when I was younger and used to live with my parents. There was virtually no communication in my family related to emotions - just basic feelings. So it was like I had no idea who I was because I never experienced my emotions mirrored back to me.
So I also felt/ feel like I don't know who I am and I'd been constantly becoming someone my family wanted to see me as.
It's hard for me as well to be open with people and especially my parents. It's like I'm always playing a role.

And I'm sorry you're going through this

I feel that way often. I'm adopted and I love my family dearly but I kind of felt like a giraffe raised by zebras. Sometimes I don't quite know who I am. I'm sorry you're having a rough time.