How to handle overwhelming suicidal thoughts?

Like Patagonia said, the outlet will only jolt you a little. I've done it before (non intentionally) and all I felt was a jolt strong enough to make my fingers go numb for a few seconds.

Trust me, I do understand. I was there a few years ago. I did the smart thing and called a hotline, and they in turn did the smart thing and asked if I wanted mobile counseling. I said yes, that I was a danger to myself and they rushed a police officer right over while the mobile counselor was in transit. The mobile counselor did the smart thing and said I needed to go to the local Psych hospital for an evaluation, and then I was driven there by my mom.

It was a bit scary, sitting there and looking at the different patients and their varying levels of mentality, but it was what was needed. Thankfully, the evaluation went smoothly and the on site doctor prescribed me a new med, I was given a list of things I needed to do in order not to go in patient any time soon, and I followed through.

I know you're hurting but the Psych ward can deal with suicidal folks. It's what they specialize in. It's the smart thing to do.

You know what else they do? They put you in adult daycare where you sleep for 8 hours, have 2 1 hour classes where everything they talk about it found on the Internet. The other 14 hours is spent doing nothing. They don't care about you. They only care about your money. If you have good health insurance they will keep you as long as possible. Oh did I mention the part about where your private information is anything but private? Yeah I know all of this by 1st hand experience. This happened to me at 2 of the best mental hospitals in my city. I went and visted a friend at one of the worse ones in the city and just visiting really F'd me up good. So please stop telling me a mental hospital is where I need to be. It may work for you where you are but it does not work for me. I have tried.

But it kept you alive, did it not?

In fact the 2nd one almost killed me. I was only mildly suicidal maybe a 3 or 4, and then they held me hostage. If I were not so royally pissed of at them I would have killed myself. I immediately skyrocketed to a solid 8. That was the last time I sought any professional help. I now avoid doctors at all cost until I can't anymore. So would you say it was worth the cost? I would say no. It did more harm and no good.

Look, I'm not saying go in patient here, I'm just saying that you need help. Talk about how your feeling to as many people as possible. Get it out to the world. The more people you tell, the less your burden will be.

I think Artchic528 has some very valid points that need to be viewed & I do agree with.
And I'm not here to argue but just to write my point of view.

If you call a hotline & they send law enforcement people who carry guns & it's not their job, who then transport you to a facility against your will to "talk" to someone who's most likely going to prescribe a drug that may or may not work...is this really the correct way to handle this situation. I know it's the norm & what we know & according to our medical system it's what most likely works.

For me, it's not what I need when I'm in crisis. I've had police in my house twice now. They are not equipped to deal with such a situation so a crisis counselor comes in & basically tells you you're wrong, your thinking is wrong & possibly sick.

But am I really sick???

Now if I had an emergency in my house I'd like to have law enforcement there & if my body was shutting down & needed to be physically saved I'd want to see a doctor, but....a crisis of my brain, well we still don't know how to handle that issue w/o medical assistance.
Here lies the problem that I see with MH is that it's treated differently than the rest of the body.

Funny how a 3.5 lb organ in our body that is just as important as our heart is such a mystery in our advanced times.
I'm not disagreeing with what saves lives, please don't get me wrong, but there's fundamental issues here that are not addressed.

When I went to my PC physician last yr I told her I had a lump in my breast. I then had 2 more appts with "specialists" & several mammograms followed by biopsies, surgery & follow up care.
I was fine.
In February I wento the same dr & said I'm having trouble with depression again. I have a pretty bad history! It's in my records!
I was given a question checklist so "gauge" how I was feeling.
Then I was given a script.
That's it.
I really think this is lopsided. They wanto save my breast & kept calling me to make these appts (now!) but a problem with my brain?? Well this drug company "says" this might work.

I didn't take the med.

Being locked up.. no.

And it would have the "opposite of their "intended" effect"

I get it

I am have constant suicidal thoughts. I have attempted suicide both in and out of the hospital and have come very close a few of the times. Now I am proactive and do ETC twice a month to help keep the suicidal thoughts manageable. It seems to work with no memory loss. I wish you the best of luck it is not fun to have to deal with those thoughts.