Really down

I just wanted to check in. I'm supposed to let people know when I don't feel good because it keeps me from pretending I'm fine when I'm not.

I'm depressed. I'm sad and tired all the time. It's been like this for a couple of months. There's just so much in life I have to do. I'm trying to take care of myself and hold down a job and everything. It's really hard when I don't feel good.

But how do I know if this is a problem? My doctor doesn't want me to call unless it's a problem because I can handle things on my own now. SO maybe this is just a phase or the stars just aren't aligned right, and it will pass. I haven't hurt myself, so I guess I'm ok, right?

IDK. I'm just tired and sad and confused. Thanks for letting me spill!

Your checking in is noted! Do you have a therapist?

((((kendyll)))))

I hear you, I'm feeling crappy today too. When you feel like you are on the edge you have to do something. I hate leaving the house but it helps me to go somewhere.....what can you do? belle

Thanks everybody!
I saw my pdoc yesterday, and we're going to try another med on top of what I'm already taking. That's cool, I don't mind. Meds don't bother me as much as the thought that's it's "just me".

I got to go visit a buddy and help him sort out some of his dad's fishing gear. That was good. I like seeing friends, if it's the ones who don't mind when I'm down. Some people don't want to deal with it, so I just don't bother them. some people are really good friends, and I can hang out even when I don't feel good.

My T thinks some of this is meds (therefore, the pdoc) and some of it is "situational" 'cause I've got a lot going on right now - lots of life crap. I wish I were better at all that life stuff. Sometimes I'm OK, just not all the time, and not too much at once.

it helps to remember that I'm better than I was. I used to be really bad off, and now I'm mostly stable, kinda. I'm glad I can come here and talk to you guys and read about everybody else, and then I don't feel so bad.
Thanks!