[mishatoe]

I'm about to start grade twelve in September. When I graduate I have no life. I'm nothinh and I'll never have anything.
First of all, I'm awful at everything. I'm not being dramatic when I say it either. I'm horrendus at everything I do. I literally have zero skills so I'm useless.
I don't want to go to college or university. I have good grades in high school, but I know there is absolutely nothing I want to do in college. Anyway, I just know I'll fail or drop out after a few days.
My life in general is going to be worthless. I don't want a /traditional/ life with marriage and kids (makes me want to hurl). I'll also never make friends or get a job.
At this point, I don't see a point in living. I just want to die before I watch my life turn into garbage.

[Teddy Bear]

Find a hobby that you enjoy

[PsychohcysP]

As I understand your situation very well, I'd rather wait and see what kind of garbage is that, and maybe it will be something you can put up with, maybe better, maybe as bad as now so something stable and acceptable. Life sometimes is hard, sometimes harder, but there are some moments that are worth it.

[sodacoke]

Hi there i hope you heal well and graduate and go to a great university. High school can definitely be stressful and wish you the best.

[mountainstream]

[MickeyCheeky]

I feel the same way. But please, don't give up.. you can't know how your life is gonna turn out. Give it a try, try your best.. you might surprise yourself.

[Fuzzybear]

[avlady]

yes a hobby would be a start! i find once i get into one i am more relaxed and creative than i thought i could be. sometimes although i find them too difficult so i start a new one and keep trying to find the one i like. Even working on here is for me a hobby type thing and helps me connect with others who appreciate me as i can be as open or not as i want. i say stay here a while and you'll find alot of people who could use your advice and support.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

You seem to articulate yourself well. So that's one thing you do well and I have never even communicated with you before now. You don't need to know what you want to do in life right now. In fact, it's best if you don't because if you think you do you will focus on that one thing and then later most likely find it's not what you thought it was and need to look for something else or just always be dissatisfied. It's been that way ever since my parents were your age and maybe even before, I don't know. Honestly though, in today's time, a lot of people never get to use their college degree anymore. At least, that's what the younger people I know have told me. (I am 43, and no longer work due to disability so rely on others for info regarding things like that.) Later, you may find you want the marriage and children or maybe not. It's ok either way. Nobody can direct your life other than you. When you get out of high school, you can go for a "general studies" diploma in college or go to a community college or trade school or just find a job that doesn't need further schooling til you are ready to return to school. You can even go to school online or get employed online. There are so many choices now don't let the idea of not knowing what you want of what you are good at stop you. Experiment around. Find out. That's what young adulthood is all about!

*hugs*

Originally Posted by mishatoe

I don't want a /traditional/ life with marriage and kids (makes me want to hurl).

What would you want instead? I also don't want marriage and kids...

Honestly, I felt very similar to you in 12th grade. I honestly thought I was going to kill myself by the time I was 20, and only applied to colleges because it was expected of me and my peers. Then I did disastrously bad my first two years of college. Let me tell you--it's not the end of the world. Very few things mean the end of the world. I'm a few years older than you, and still struggle with finding meaning, or a reason. But sometimes it's okay to just go through the motions, while realizing that we don't know what we want, to just keep going while we find something we do want. Hang in there. I am sure there is space in the world for what you want even if it's not traditional.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. You're just at the beginning of your journey. The world is your oyster. Reach out to it.