Yay. Why do I ****ing bother :(

Please forgive me for my honesty

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I don't recall any one of my PUs ONCE saying "I'm proud of you" apart from the paternal unit saying it in his wedding speech (it was his wedding right, not mine...mmmmm he was a Narcissist)

Maybe if I had been the "terrible" person the step maternal unit and a few other apparently perceived me as I would have received some decent therapy

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Although my all knowing PUs (parental units) believed I "should" be punished by isolation from the whole "family" (amongst other things). They were Narcissists and Sociopaths

But I'm so "weak" and a "failure" ... I know it and surely "should" be "ashamed"

Please forgive my honest anger.

Is suicide "better"?

I've tried to obtain "treatment" on the NHS many times but I don't fit neatly into the criteria and I don't trust them at all it's literally impossible now for me to open up at all. I have good reason not to trust them

No disrespect to anyone here

I don't think you need to be asking for forgiveness. In my view you haven't done or saidanything wrong. You have a right to feel this anger.

I wish there was some support out there that would work for you. The NHS is so hit and miss. It's a shame... maybe one day it will be much better when it comes to mental health...

Which medic am I supposed to believe..

I'm a "normal intelligent woman with severe anxiety" and it's "not my fault" (but therapy hasn't helped any of this medics patients )

Or... too bs to repeat that ugliness and lies medic heal yourself, I only hope you treated others with less hate and more respect but frankly I think this is not likely (not about anyone on pc)

(((((((Fuzzybear)))))))

Over the past couple of years I've had a physical medical oddity.

One doctor said with confidence, "Oh, this is an x."
Another doctor looked at the same and said with confidence, "Oh, this is a y."
And a third doctor looked at the same and said with confidence, "Oh, this is a z."

I am amused.

If three trained medical doctors can examine the same physical symptom and reach three different conclusions, how confident can we be in the judgements of those attempting to examine the immaterial?

((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))

Ok. So as nobody else has said this..

(I feel somewhat ignored, clearly I don't express myself well...)

Fuzzybear, you are courageous and strong. You're a fighter and have not given in to the Beast of Depression and all the other things you "cope" with.

You've survived abuse at the hands of "doctors" and just because you don't list all your perceived "failings" it doesn't mean your pain isn't valid.

It takes strength to fight constant SI without "medication" ........ or with medication for that matter.

Respectful regards!

PS I encourage others reading this to try writing yourself a supportive message, it might help counter some of the poison of Depression.

Thanks,
Fuzzybear

Thank you ((((((((( Rohag )))))))))

I agree, thank you for your kindness and insight

(do you think I "should" ......... (edited )

Wouldn't the best revenge be to make a wonderful new creation out of the mess they made? I know it's easier said than done, but you are a survivor and there is a reason you are still fighting.