Fireworks? Bah, humbug!

Did anyone else feel this way. My family packed up to go watch fireworks last night. There we were, waiting. And waiting. All these people, young and old, were milling about, talking, laughing, and having fun waiting for IT to start.

I thought to myself, actually I said out loud to my family, "I hate fireworks. It's the same every year. Why does everyone still make such a big deal like it's something new." I only went because of my kids. Of course, we have to leave before the big finale cause husband hates to wait in lines to leave. So we always leave first.

Life can be like that for me sometime, like what's the big deal. Same old, same old. Anyone else feel the same?

At least it's over now again for this year, eh?

Hugs for (((((((((((((((((lonelyone))))))))))))))))...

Fondly, Peanut

<font color=blue>HI FROM PEANUT</font color=blue>

Well, it sounds like you are a real trooper for sticking with it and going even though you didn't want to. I went and saw the fireworks this year, I've only seen them 2 times before at a one of those showings, so i thought it was kinda cool. I agree though, watching all those people have a good time is kiinda depressing. Some times i wish i was a kid enjoying all that stuff, but if i was a kid, i would be at home on the fourth of July. OH well

Lonely one -- I feel that way, too. Sometimes, even when I am not in cllinical depression but feeling what would be "pretty good" for me, I have trouble relating to positive experiences. I can't imagine, for example, jumping up and down or screaming on a game show because I'd won something.

I have been reading a lot about depression -- Dr. Tucker's book on this site recommends it -- and it seems that depression just sucks our ability to enjoy life right out of us.

Someone on another thread mentioned wouldn't it be great if we could pull the tapes with their negative messages out of our minds.

I say aye to that. I wish there was a brain or emotion implant -- not so that I would never feel pain or grieve or fear. This is part of the human experience. But so that I could feel peaks of joy as great as the depths of depression and depair. And I'm really not sure that I ever do experience those mountaintops.

So lonelyone, you are not alone in having this experience. But I think it is great that you went anyway, for you as well as to let the kids enjoy themselves.,