Life Is Something You Do Before You Die

I'm really discouraged about my continuing depression and struggle with finding any joy or pleasure in life. I've finally decided that life is just something you have to do before you die. I'm so tired of hoping for improvement only to find myself in a dark hole again and having to fight my way our. I've come to the conclusion that I might just be better off if I just give up on any hope and just accept my plight as it is...depressed. If I make it I make if I don't I don't. I see no joy ahead of my, no pleasure in this thing called life and wish I could just give up and die sometimes. Will it ever end or will the rest of my life be spent in this timeless struggle to feel good about myself and my life. Sometimes I look at the future and think to myself I just can't do this forever if this is the way things are going to be. I think I would like for life to just come to a quiet end and then my suffering would be overwith for good. But, I have to keep on putting one foot in front of the other because I can't kill myself though I wish I were dead most of the time. Maybe I am weak or something but the fight has just gone out of me. I give up!

i don't know all the grief steps littlemouse but i know acceptance falls in line somewhere... along with anger and others... it is a part of the process... love yourself everyday...

What happened?

life is something that comes before death, but in the same way, life is something that comes before death. Is the glass half empty or half full , kinda is what I'm saying. I'm not sure all the time what really to live for. So many things are lost to me, as well. Each person is different but look around you and see all the smiling faces... not all of them are truly happy, and I'm sure many of them are feigning happiness at times, but if those people can have some enjoyment in life, there's something in life to enjoy, even for you, you just have to find it and fight for it. That can and will be hard. But in the end, the harder you work at something the more sense of achievement you can have once you have finished the struggle

and you're not weak, it can be so hard sometimes

Don't give up

and, how long has this been going on for you, if you want to talk about it?