[msft1230]

I recently lost my beautiful baby girl whom was only 16 months old.I am in counseling and see a doctor and take the medications but all hope is failing i am losing the will to go on in life i dont want to live without her. all i do is cry and sleep dont want to eat and i am so lost and at the end of a road i cant go on walking alone. my counseler seems to think if i join a group maybe it will help ease the pain but how..without my baby i am nothing.

i am so sorry for your loss.......what you feel now is to be expected.......there are folks here who understand your pain and will try to help you........keep posting.....i care......

[msft1230]

its just so hard to even think that she is gone..and with even hubby being a trucker and gone for weeks leaves me alone in the dark and noone to turn to.i need her back more than anything and i just feel as though there is no way out but to go to the other side.

[wickedwings]

(((((msft)))))) i understand your pain. so sorry for your loss. you're not alone. we're here for you.

[msft1230]

thank you so much .I just wish i would wake up and this all had been a bad dream

[wickedwings]

i know. i've lost my beautiful cats before. they were my pride and joy, just as your daughter has been. i know cats are not human, but it hurt just the same.

[msft1230]

she was just 16 months old. I am so angry at god and pray every night he takes me so i can again be with my beautiful daughter

[Fuzzybear]

I'm so sorry!! I think your feelings are very understandable (although I haven't experienced the same loss) My heart goes out to you and please know many people here really do care ((((((((((((( hugs ))))))))))))))

[msft1230]

thank you so much i need all the people i can get to keep me going in life.

[darkeyes]

So very sorry to hear of your loss, my heart goes out to you.

((((((((((((( DE )))))))))))))))))))

[Soidhonia]

Hello and welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry for your loss, and I hope you get some comfort soon. It si good to have you here at Psych Central, and I agree with your Dr that a support group may help you be around others that understandyour pain and hopelessness that you feel at this time. Volunteering may help as well to help you feel less alone and help to fill up your time. Volunteermatch is a good site to check out when you feel better in thedlike to chat with others in person. PM anytime. You do not have to go through all of this alone. Take care. Soidhonia

[SeptemberMorn]

I am so sorry! I understand your pain. I lost my daughter a few years back, although it wasn't to death. She's still out there somewhere... and so are the two grandsons that I was so very close to.

I also lost my mother to death 22 yrs ago. I checked out mentally and emotionaly then. Went into a deep depression and anxiety.

Just the other night I was speaking to my mother. Today, I heard a song that reminded me of my daughter. It still hurts. I still cry. But God didn't call me home when I wanted Him to. So... I knew that I had to keep on living.

It may not feel like it to you at this moment, but you still have a whole life ahead of you. You are still YOU. The only thing that will change is that you'll be a better person for having gone through this terrible time.

You are not alone. Joining a support group of parents who have also lost a child would help you tremendously. Go. Join... with no expectations. Just go even if it's on "automatic pilot."

Your little angel was here for whatever God wanted her to do in your life. Don't waste that experience. When you do some healing, you may be able to see things more clearly.

One foot in front of the other... baby steps... but keep going. It will all be worth it. I promise.

[sidony]

((((( msft1230 )))))

I am so sorry to read about your loss. What a tragedy. Yes, definitely try out a group. It helps to have a safe place to talk -- especially when you see the people regularly but they aren't in your day-to-day home life if you see what I mean. It feels safer somehow. And if you don't like it, remember you can always walk away!

I can only imagine what pain you must be in. I am so very sorry. I hope you can find the strength to go through it. Sometimes life is so tragic and cruel. But there will be beautiful moments again too.

I am thinking about you.

Sidony

My heart absolutely breaks for you. I am so sorry.

Parents are not supposed to bury their children.

Please continue to post here. We might not have a solution but we are good listeners and we care very much.

((((( HUGS )))))

I am so so sorry for your loss. There is not much I can say but I do care.

Sending you strenght and love.

[ECHOES]

I'm so sorry you lost your beautiful little baby girl. Of course you are suffering horrible heartache after such a tragedy. I can't imagine what it must be to have to endure that. I can imagine what a huge empty place is left behind. It's something that's going to take time until you can feel better. Accept for now that you are mourning and in deep pain, and it's alright to feel that way, to let it happen because it has to for you to get through it.

Have you tried the group idea suggested by your counselor? It sounds like he/she has a grief support group in mind where you would be with others feeling similar to how you are feeling as well as some who are a little further down the road and can give you hope and tell you about their experiences too. I think it sounds like a wonderful idea. I hope you will consider letting yourself try it out.

gentle hugs to you, your husband, and family

[msft1230]

I want to thank everyone for keeping my spirits up although i wish the pain would subside but i don't belive it ever will until i am reunited with my precious baby girl. But thank you to all for caring.

i just want to tell you that i went to your myspace page and oh my goodness........your baby girl was so so precious.........and no...the pain will never subside but it will lessen in time............we're here for you..........

[OliviaC]

((((((((((msft))))))))))

I am so very sorry about your baby girl. She was beautiful.
My heart goes out to you in your suffering. Know we are here for you.

[msft1230]

Thank you so much please feel free to add yourself to my page and keep in touch it really helps. thank you.

[stefano]

Being in great distress myself, I see I can't imagine what the depth of your pain must be.

i posted a picture of bubba for emmily.......

[msft1230]

where at?

on your myspace page.....hope you like him...i know he would lick emmily's face all over! lol

[msft1230]

thank you so much he is adorable and she sure would have liked him she had a golden retriever me and daddy got her to grow up with. thank you again