confessions of little turtle with love

It makes me sick. I’m tired of their bull ****

psychiatry sucks and I am a psychiatrist...that causes me depression...

You don’t suck little turtle

Even psychiatry doesn’t suck

Fuzzy bear sucks. The experts told me so

This ****ed up world causes me depression

psychiatry has big psych meds problem..
after reading ANATOMY OF AN EPIDEMIC by whitaker
I am totally not knowing what to believe...

fuzzy bear does not suck

Erti can't stop jitters

erti---what kind of jitters

I think I'm on too much medicine. That or I need to be on cogentin.

oh be careful erti

Thanks for your concern. I will be careful. I may talk to my doctor.

I am sick and tired of this ****ed up world too. People are so vicious, so evil....
But there are good people too...like here in PC...I find a lot of peace here

They say those people who are on ads have their brains altered like their dopamine increased or serotonin decreased but I think why did they get depressed in the first place?...do genes,society,environment alter a person's brain in the first place? If they do...then meds...not too much just the appropriate amount...if the person can tolerate them...won't worsen what's already altered in the brain.

But I am not sure about schizophrenia...even I think meds don't help that much. Meds may only get you calmer or less aggressive...that's all. It may be true that being on disability has decreased the number of people who suffer from schizophrenia...bc they don't have to force themselves to work...to interact with lots of people or adjust to a challenging environment....

There was an article in the journal sciencedaily a long time back....it said....schizophrenia is a scientific delusion....

People are so vicious...when people forcibly picked me up from my home to take me to that psych hospital...I was taken in a van...I was lying down in the van...they held my hand forcibly and one of them sat on my legs...it was almost akin to molestation and yet I couldn't do anything. I was beaten up at home by my parents(its true that I was breaking things, but do you get kicked or your hair torn off for that?! Moreover my pdoc was at fault..he refused to stop the seroquel or the lithium though they were causing irritability) yet it was I who was locked up in the hospital and given injections and aps that gave me side-effects like akathasia....Well....

And there are other things like the society....people are so evil...there is so much hate....but I can't say more, I better shut my mouth up like you...or else I'll be labelled as a schizo

My last anti-psychotic amisulpride not only gave me akathasia but got me lactating and stopped my periods. I can't tolerate APs except olanzapine that too not beyond 5mg. Mood stabilizers don't suit me too...only lamotrigine doesn't cause any harmful effects...though I don't know if it helps me or not....my pdoc says it has AD properties as well..But some anxiolytics(like buspar) and ADs(like prozac)have helped me, though SNRIs get me manic.

erti and desiree and fuzzy ---I hope you will feel better soon...

there is a tiny hope out there for us....
SOMEWHERE---a time and place for us...
there are tiny spots of hope and kindness...
we just need to find them for us...somewhere..
right here is one place with love from little turtle

Thanks little turtle. Love to you too.

Thank you little turtle. I’m sending love to you too

I’m really tired of all the vicious, cruel and even
evil people too

I agree, there are good people too, like here on pc

Thank you little turtle

i am exhausted this morning...and scared...nervous
frightened...FEAR...I am going to read my PANIC ATTACK WORKBOOK..

I was worried for you...you came in here later than usual

Little turtle I m getting panic attacks like you used to get...seems like I m being electrocuted...I know the feeling bc once I had touched a live wire twice and got the two greatest electric shocks of my life. These are not that acute but they are happening throughout the day. At times I m getting paralysed too from neck downwards. Only my heart, lungs, forearms, fingers and toes seem to function at that time...the rest of the body feels numb and immobile....

i am very tired...and nervous...
i am walking as usual and it is harder today..
and i need to check my eating...
when i was on my trip i ate horribly with sugar..
and after the trip my road washed out...
so i am trying not to think about what pills to take..
even tho i would love a VALIUM...right now..

i hate these PANIC ATTACKS...they are awful...they really took me down...
desiree are you sure some of this isn't due to the Prozac...

I was worried about you today. I have a lot of anxiety too (usually )

Panic attack workbook?

They were there before I was on prozac...in fact they were more severe...but the feeling of being paralysed is new.