confessions of little turtle with love

It hurts me that I was born for being disabled, yet extremely ambitious and talented and hardworking.

You haven’t harmed, little turtle

I personally agree with what you say about the psych drugs

I’m on a “new” med now, (the only med other than benzos I’m not allergic to........) I don’t know if it’s helping, maybe a bit.

And I’ve been reading about the hell many people go through with withdrawals (and other stuff )

You have helped us a lot little turtle.
Now about my meds....I have been eating healthy but I need to get back to exercising and try to move myself a bit around the house and not stay in bed the whole day. Also my anti-anxiety med is sedating me a lot...I need to reduce the dosage...maybe the one I take at noon...to 5mg from 10mg. Sadly I can't do without my anti-psychotic bc else I get irrirable and agitated. Can't do w/o my 20mg prozac either, else I'll not be able to get out of bed and do basic things like brush my teeth and take shower.

I hope it helps you fuzzy ...maybe a bit...that sounds good

I just finished a discussion with my wife...
we talked about our relationship...very important...
I am very happy that I did not blow up with anger..
she said some things that mad me furious...but I did not attack..
I understand better about what goes on...that will help me..
but it will probably not change anything..
I just have a better understanding...

I am interested in prevention......
I am interested living in a natural way...
I am not interested in taking drugs...
I am interested in curing medical problems..
I want to find ways to handle depression without using drugs..
I am sick of this modern world with a god being $$$$$$$$$$$$

Drugs are sometimes the best way to handle problems. Antibiotics come to my mind, along with life-saving chemotherapy for cancer as well as slowing down the progress of ALS.

I like marijuana. By far my favorite.

how about psych drugs....I am interested in the truth/evidence not bs

I cant stand being on celexa 5 mg each day..i want off....I just have not been able to stop it...since I retired I don't need it...on the web I am finding that it is hard to get off the ssri antidepressants...especially if you have taken them for a long time...and that is me...and I have tapered very slowly...

I’m sick of being fed bs by people irl (uk) who call themselves doctors and therapists f*** them and their lack of respect

DO NO HARM

Thanks for helping us here little turtle and not feeding us abuse and lies

little turtle, drugs do help sometimes, that's why they are in the market still, but sometimes they don't. As much as I wish for people to respect doctors, deep down inside, I know that they don't care. It's because they have too many of us in their lives, I guess.

Little turtle, thank you for being one of the few people on this ****ed up planet who actually cares

little turtle, due to today's events, I have become physically ill. The region below my Adam's apple is wet no matter how many times I swallow it. What can be really, really done? I tried calling cops but dad cancelled my request during their journey towards our home.

I don't know...maybe someone here has an idea...

I've asked everybody -- now that somewhat includes police officers -- and nobody has a solution for me.

I hope I die due to hypothyroidism.

You better see an endocrinologist. He may ask you to get some blood tests done like tsh. I have hypothyroidism too but now it's under control - I take thyroxine 75mg.

lonelychemist-----I am thinking about what might help...
starting today you could start #1 eating healthy and
#2 healthy physical activity....that is my best advice now...
I would like to see you feel better and be able to get around..
I hope I have not been too forward...

Little turtle, I m trying to follow your advice as well.

Thanks everyone. I am on the verge of dying and my mother's psychosis has reached its peak. She thinks my dad is having affair with the neighbor next door and she has successfully led my father to break doors in our house. Just now she yelled at the neighbors that "she" (I don't know her name, but that woman supposedly has an affair with my dad) "must come here whenever we [my dad and my mom] go outside."

My mom is really getting on everyone's nerve. My dad has sleep disorders. So she stresses him so he can die early (my theory) because marriage with him supposedly took her government job out of her hands. She made me disabled, she's making my sister disabled, she's trying to kill dad (who has his own list of neuroses) and she lies to everyone in our family, to get a better impression of herself in front of them.

I called my aunt today (I am alone at home) whose husband is a police officer. She told me she's coming. I hope things improve...

Little turtle, I would have ate healthy if my mother didn't overcook food. And I would have been physically fit if it weren't for my parents' psychosis. They -- I don't know why and how -- believe not sending children (I am gonna turn 18....) outside of college will somehow prevent them from "doing bad things", like hitting on girls and going outside with friends. So they expect me to crack every exam I give, not to mention be a class one officer despite my malformed brain.... how is that possible? As I have already told you need friends and outside contact to even stay alive... how am I going to be an independent adult, by writing answers on a piece of paper and attending lectures? My brain is far too malformed. I have given up the dream to be a doctor, it's simply not worth it anymore. I don't feel much pain now, I am just ill. I have sore throat and raspy voice.


Desiree2006, I am going to my internist tomorrow if my parents do not send me to college forcibly. I don't know why I, the victim, have more words of wisdom than the perpetrators.... India should criminalize marriage between relatives.... Child marriage has ended, people like my mom won't be born anymore -- unless satan himself intervenes -- but I don't think I'll ever see the same passion I have for medicine and saving lives in an even AIIMS doctor's eyes....

It's very hard to live like this you know. Not even by police relatives are doing anything except telling me to wait.

thanks for letting us know lonelychemist....

little turtle, I don't want to cause any pain and suffering but I have done that all my life. My peers suffered (some of them deserved it), my sister suffered, my dad suffered..... all because of a marriage between two crazy relatives. I don't know... all I can do is pass time. But that's not a solution to problem.

It's like I am married to suffering and sickness.
"Till death do us part."

I was even thinking about becoming religious. But I find the Bible's idea very... cold to say at least. How could I sin before I was born? And it's not that I chose to inherit Adam's and Eve's sin... so according to the Bible, no matter how much I suffer, and no matter how much good I do, I will suffer for eternity, unless I believe in Jesus.... I sort of do, but I don't believe a perfect God could do something like this.

lonely chemist---I am sorry that I ever recommended healthy eating plus healthy physical activity...I should have asked you----what is working for you...is there anything...