Suicide

I have nothing and just want to go now. I feel I’m in pain every day. Nothing gets better. I’m hurting

Matt, read the sign on your entry: Nothing is permanent, not even our troubles. That is true Matt. I speak as one who has been where you are many times. You can get through this allbeit an hour at a time if that what it takes. What can you do to get yourself through the next hour? It doesn't even have to be your best idea or something novel. How about setting a small goal to complete in the next hour?

I truly understand and I lost my younger brother (by one year) and there's so much information about this issue on the web.

I think about it every time, all the time and regardless of the advice I get, I always feel the same way as you.

At this particular point of reaching out for help, I do believe having the right medication is ...well, a life saver.

Please keep posting, I've been told to do the same thing and it does help, even if we all don't see eye to eye on everything..

However, when I get "bad" I contact the hospital. For some reason, when we are down, logic doesn't compute.

We love you

2Ais'right. Just keep posting. Just let it free flow, a sentence at a time if you want. I'm not good at this but know I care. When I'm down your posts mean a lot to me.

Hang in there brother. Just an hour at a time, a day at a time. Sending out great amounts of positive energy to you.

Thank you all very much.

It’s evening now. Just don’t want a new day coming.
Not sure I can face the therapy tomorrow. Just the same talking over and over going nowhere..

Thanks for the support.

We're all with you. Don't give up. I understand where you're at like so many here. One more minute, 5 more minutes, half an hour, an hour...you can get through this...you can. You can do it. Gentle hugs.

Matt, tell your therapist what you need to talk about tomorrow. Ask for what you need.

Yes, that's right MattBell^ As you know, the therapists are very accepting in many ways, so explain to the therapist that you feel as if you're just going around in circles, that you feel hopeless and suicidal, that you need them to tell you directly what to do, how to overcome these thoughts and feelings. I've been in a similar situation and so I know what that's like, yes.

Stay very strong in your spirit MattBell and as soon as those negative thoughts begin to appear, try to let them go. Tell yourself, 'bleh, there's no point even thinking it' or something like that, and then focus on something you like doing. Let the thoughts go. I'm sorry, that's my only advice, but I believe you can push through this. Big power hug to you.

Yes tell the therapist life has changed and it needs to be addressed. Say all the stuff you are feeling. your therapist may be receptive and helpful!

tel:1-800-273-8255

Thank you all for the concern.

I ended up writing to my therapist that I couldn’t manage to meet with her. She became very concerned. So two policemen came by my door this morning to make sure I was okay and they drove me to her.

I’ve never had that happen before. I feel a bit ashamed and shocked by the experience. I know they all mean well and want to protect me. Still it’s a bit embarrassing. I hope no one in my neighborhood saw.

keep posting here if it helps you.

(((((hugs)))

Hang in there. You are not alone. Your existence is part of a network of people. Please don't think your life is meaningless. We all are valuable. Nobody comes in this world alone. I feel your pain and loneliness. I am glad you had the opportunity to meet your therapist. May peace be with you and happiness come into your life again. Best wishes! And, please keep us posted.