I have to go shopping today for my food for next week. honestly, the way today's going (dark and depressing), I really cant be bothered- and I've all ready put it off (I was meant to go this morning)

litirally the only thing motivating me to go is that I'm out of soda

when it comes to soda shortage it's totally worth the hassle. can't stand having none in the house

[Deilla]

I didn't go to my appointment. I didn't feel well. I slept all day. I was so tired. It's been a depressing day.

I don't even know how to describe what I'm feeling. Definitely not content. Need a new home for myself and my son. Nothing is affordable.

The morning started off pretty bad. Just as I got into my car to go to work, my downstairs neighbor told me that he would prefer for me to not workout anymore. He said that the walls and windows next to his bed rattles. That guy is in bed all day and night because he has a bad back. That got me in a bad attitude at work today. Those two downstairs get on my nerves, too, with their fighting and yelling that they do. They even do it at night.

Work was fairly busy today. I would have felt better being at work if it were not for what happened this morning. A woman tried to help me but I felt like she did a very poor job of it. I try not bring my problems from home to work.

I felt like I couldn't workout today anyways because I've been having leg pain around the knee area. I have been working out with the pain and it's not easy to deal with. Another thing that's heavy on me is my desire to move out of my place. I know I have been complaining about it for a good while, but it seems like things are getting worse instead of better. It seems like a clear sign that I should leave where I live very soon. It's heartbreaking. It feels like a divorce.

[Deilla]

I think my muscle relaxer made me so tired today. I'm going to quit taking it. I felt so bad all day that I missed my appointment. It will be two weeks before I can try again.

The narcissist needs to be forced to SEE THE LIGHT!! There must be a way to do it.

[mote.of.soul]

Awful day yesterday. The kind of day where you question why you're even here. But slept a few hours, it's now predawn, 5:30 AM, nice and peaceful outside my window. Just trying to focus on the positives.

Woke up feeling very down this morning. It had rained around 4AM and continued until about 6. Cloudy outside but not cold. It's almost 10AM now and I haven't done a stitch of housework yet! I went shopping after breakfast, washing up, taking care of my teeth, and coffee. I got up a bit later than usual.

My friend said that he would like to come and visit me today. I don't know if he will because the weather is questionable. My leg is feeling better, but now I strained my back just by putting socks on while sitting in bed.

Also I felt bad about myself because I had posted on another discussion board about what has been going on with me living at my place. I felt like my problem had been "topped" by someone else who said that her rent was going up $400 a month and she does not know what to do.

There are repercussions to causing harm to others. Life is too short to be hurting other people. Some don't see it that way. They LIVE to hurt others (me being one of them). Some actions are inexcusable. Gutter material. They would rather profit from someone else's demise then do the right thing. They have plenty of money but want more. Doesn't matter at whose expense they get it.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m not feeling too depressed today.

[DP_2017]

Tired of living. Tired of trying to find reasons to. I am exhausted with life. It's too much

[mote.of.soul]

Finally, after two days, I'm reaching a more comfortable mental/emotional baseline. Until next time I suppose. But still...

[LifelongLoner]

I have a life that I don't want. I have never liked being me. Everything seems to go wrong. Therapy never made my life better. I am very depressed. I hate being alive.

Worried about a doctor's appt. tomorrow. He doesn't seem to address serious issues I have. Hopefully he will, finally.

[bornunderabadsign]

I've been away for a little over a year. Things have gotten better and things have gotten worse. I'm older and that scares me because I have less time now than I did. I'm trying to get a job now so at the very least I feel good enough about my life that I think I can make some progress towards something. I don't know what yet but progress is progress, right?

His weakness is his BIG MOUTH!! He can't stop bragging to his friends
how he is the BIG man on campus. He was given power that he never deserved. He never earned his way. He just lied to get what he wants. His ego is massive. MASSIVE!! I feel sorry for whoever has to put up with him.

[Deilla]

I have a medical appointment this morning. I don't feel all that well. But I'm going. I have to get it done. Hopefully it will be quick and I can come home and sleep.

[Buffy01]

I feel really down because I am being cyber-bullied on YouTube and cyberstalk. They tell me triggering things. It cause bad anxiety attack.

It was pretty slow at work today, but an OK day there. I was not in a good mood today. It was raining all day today and very gloomy. I still feel very bummed about my downstairs neighbor telling me not to workout at home because it bothers him. I feel a sense of grief and loss. I know it seems ridiculous feeling that way about not working out, but I can't help it.

hoping someone will find this helpful

[Deilla]

I have physical therapy this morning. I'm not looking forward to it. I just want it over. These appointments ruin my day. I end up coming home and sleeping I'm so tired. I blame myself for being in this position. I should show myself some compassion but all I have is anger.

[mote.of.soul]

Always down in the dumps, never wanting to socialize. That's me. But, hey - I have my internet :/

[mikimostar]

Hello everybody,

I am new to this. I found this thread interesting. I hope you will be able to find joy in life and enjoy small things.

Originally Posted by regretful

Depression looms large, making it difficult even to get the smallest of things done...I'm still fighting it, but it's tiring. House problems - major disrepair, cannot find required paperwork to get repairs started, business is struggling, mood is lower than it's been in a while...still exercising...

Do you have a counselor that you can see soon? Talk therapy helps sometimes.

Just another day for me. It was very slow at work. In fact it may have broken a record for the least amount of deliveries today (at 0). I had a performance review today and it went very well. That was the only feel good thing happen to me today.

It's still rainy outside, all day. And I still feel bad about not working out because of my downstairs neighbor doesn't want me to. But my leg has been bothering me anyways. And I feel discouraged because I have been looking online for another place to live and nothing seems appealing to me. So I feel stuck and nothing's ever going to change.