Last thread had reached over 100 pages so here is a brand new one

[Fuzzybear]

Hi Lavender, I was just thinking of you

(Btw I’m so glad you’re a mod, you so deserve it I couldn’t do that job though .. I’m not patient enough Well maybe I could be. But I don’t have time . Too much crap in my life.

I think that jerk who labelled me as Avoidant was wrong. I wouldn’t be saying all this if I was ... but anyway.

[Fuzzybear]

Hello room. Have I closed this thread down with my big teeth? LMFBO

Joke..

Hugs to anyone who wants or accepts them

A little bit better day today than yesterday. Slow at work again. I worked out and it went well. Went to the pool area and the Duck Dynasty clan were there. They are alright but I would have rather them not be there. So hard to find someone somewhat compatible for me at where I live. I really hate it.

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Hello room. Have I closed this thread down with my big teeth? LMFBO

Joke..

Hugs to anyone who wants or accepts them

Hugs fuzzy.

[smallbluefish]

am feeling overwhelmed with work, but am also feeling a little better today as it wasn't as hot as the other day. a friend emailed me a nice poem they found and scanned, too.

[Yzen]

I can't sleep this morning. My mind won't stop ruminating and churning over 'problems'.

[regretful]

Depression looms large, making it difficult even to get the smallest of things done...I'm still fighting it, but it's tiring. House problems - major disrepair, cannot find required paperwork to get repairs started, business is struggling, mood is lower than it's been in a while...still exercising...

[PsychNitrous]

I'm worried now. I've been feeling really good for a while now. Actually happy again. But there are red flags. All I want to do is sleep. I'm not showering daily like I usually do. I'm not keeping up on my emails. Work is constantly giving me anxiety. I feel like a depression is coming on, and I'm afraid.

[Rose76]

I am so tired . . . just not getting enough sleep. I feel like I just can't keep up with everything. Plus I'm so sore so often. At times I can't hardly put weight on my left foot.

[besmith818]

I am feeling numb tonight. And exhausted from all the emotions I have been dealing with. I think I'm overloaded and maybe the circuit blew. I am trying to stay positive about a doctors appointment I have Tuesday, but this weekend is going to be lonely and hard. Trying to keep a good outlook, but struggling.

Another slow day at work. Some interesting action, but not much. I decided to pick up my bike from the shop after work. I took a bike ride but was disappointed that it doesn't ride quite as good as I had hoped. So I'll have to take it back in again. Tonight I went to the pool area and decided not to go in because the people didn't look good to me. Lately I've been having regrets that I had decided to stay at where I live instead of selling and moving out. I'm really not liking where I live now.

Felt down later in the day because of the bike and the pool area. Sometimes it's just more than one thing going wrong that happens.

Originally Posted by regretful

Depression looms large, making it difficult even to get the smallest of things done...I'm still fighting it, but it's tiring. House problems - major disrepair, cannot find required paperwork to get repairs started, business is struggling, mood is lower than it's been in a while...still exercising...

My depression also looms large, making it difficult even to get the smallest of things done...but I'm not even fighting it any more, it's tiring and I feel kind of numb and I guess I m giving in...I am not even exercising.

I guess I have to push myself again to do things like a little bit of housework, go out and exercise.

Well I don't know....hope things will be better again.

Originally Posted by PsychNitrous

I'm worried now. I've been feeling really good for a while now. Actually happy again. But there are red flags. All I want to do is sleep. I'm not showering daily like I usually do. I'm not keeping up on my emails. Work is constantly giving me anxiety. I feel like a depression is coming on, and I'm afraid.

Nice to hear from you after a long time.
Hugs (((((PsychNitrous)))))
All I want to do is sleep as well. I m showering every day but I don't work and Im not exercising.

You're working and that's a good thing. You'll be okay.

Originally Posted by Rose76

I am so tired . . . just not getting enough sleep. I feel like I just can't keep up with everything. Plus I'm so sore so often. At times I can't hardly put weight on my left foot.

Hugs Rose (((((Rose76)))))
Is your ritalin helping you a little bit?

not been feeling too bad today.

showered and then just mainly listened to music

[Rose76]

I didn't take the Ritalin yesterday or today. So I haven't given this new med a real try. When I took it a few days ago it rev'd up my mind in a way that was not productive. I was just ruminating away.

I have to get organized. The house is a mess. It's hard to even start.

[Randle McMurphy]

just trying to keep a brave face while I feel like I am falling apart inside.

[Yzen]

Work is overwhelming me at the moment. I try to keep a detached attitude, but it is difficult not to feel down and emotional when asked to meet impossible deadlines.

[MatBell]

It’s been awhile since I felt lonely on a friday night.. but tonight I feel it. Damn.

[Rose76]

I can't find the will to get going. I showered my bf and gave him something to eat. The house is a mess. I'm just lying on the couch.

[pixiedust72]

I really don't know what to do. I've been depressed for so long and have ideation. I've been thinking of going to the hospital for maybe five months but am too afraid to go. I just feel like I won't be taken seriously. I don't think I'll get admitted and I doubt my insurance will see outpatient as medically necessary. And I mean, if I haven't done it for five months what's the issue? But I'm just scared of what the future holds knowing that this ideation is not a phase and is just a part of my life now.

It was a pretty nice for me last night. I worked out and went to the pool area. I had it to myself. It was the first time I had it to myself in a while. Later on before leaving, a man came down, and I had not seen him in a long time. It was nice having him to talk to. He's my age and was by himself.

Today will not be a typical Saturday for me. Later in the morning I plan to go to a meeting. There will be a speaker and the title is "Will My Cancer Come Back?" This is from the Prostate Cancer Support Group. As some of you may know, I had prostate cancer surgery three years ago. There's a man that I would call whenever I had questions or concerns. He's really nice, but I never met him in person. Perhaps I will meet him today.

[Rose76]

I'm better than the mess I was yesterday. It's a relief.

[lotusblossom19]

Trying not to succumb to thoughts that have continued to revolve around my mind for days and days. Wounded emotionally and it's a struggle every day to not feel pointless and hopeless. My whole life it seems it's really only been me truly in my corner. People telling me I should get through and over the bad days but giving me no clue as to how to go about that. Nothing helps. No one helps.