Daily Check-In Thread: Ups & Downs #25

Jul 26, 2018, 10:58 PM

I've been feeling rather depressed lately. I'm feeling like maybe my whole life needs an overhaul - changing everything over. I would be too afraid to leave my job. Lately my job has been boring. A lot more "famine" than "feast". But the pay is pretty good and the working conditions are excellent. The people are fairly good and the job has been, and up to now, the best thing going for me. I'm getting sick of the place I live at. People tell me that it's an ideal location and place to live. I agree with that, but the neighbors depress me a whole lot. I feel depression a lot because of the neighbors.

I was expecting a check from the HOA because two weeks ago I spoke to a woman who is a manager and she told me that I was going to get a check. I have waited two weeks and nothing. An inner voice told me to call the HOA and ask what's happened. Good thing I did because I was told that the manager I spoke to no longer works at that company. The new manager was unaware of the incident of the water leak (which happened two and a half months ago!). I spoke to the new manager and she said that she will check (excuse the pun!) on it. Have to have a little sense of humor sometimes!

Rose76 · Jul 27, 2018, 02:54 PM

Couldn't fall asleep last night . . . not till 6 a.m. this morning. Lazy now.

smallbluefish · Jul 27, 2018, 06:43 PM

(cn: food mention)

feeling moody about being moody... I've been stress-eating a bunch too.

Jul 28, 2018, 10:25 AM

The day is just starting. It's nice and cool outside early this morning. I get the feeling the heat will come in a couple of hours or so. My friend said that we could get together today. We'll meet at a place where I do my shopping and have lunch. I feel like I'm not that crazy about him. He depresses me lots of times. I hang on to him because he's all that I have. He's is so limited to what he can do.

We'll see how the day will unfold.

88Butterfly88 · Jul 28, 2018, 02:25 PM

Today has been so-so depression wise, have little interest in doing things yet I don't feel too terrible.

Rose76 · Jul 28, 2018, 03:54 PM

Just watching TV all day and reading on the Internet. If that made me feel good, I wouldn't be sorry. But it doesn't make me feel good. I have chores to get to.

Jul 28, 2018, 06:08 PM

My favorite day of the week is about over and I feel like I squandered it. My friend and I are going to split up. We were supposed to meet for lunch, which was next door to where I shop. By the time I was ready to go, I called him and he told me that lunch place had closed, much to our surprise. He told me to have lunch at home and he'd have lunch where he is. After a half hour (in which I told him I would call) I called him and he said that he was heading home. I thought that he would wait for me, go shopping together, and then take him to my place. I told him last night that I wanted to do it that way and he said that he didn't want to come to my place. So I just got fed up and told him that I don't want to be friends with him anymore. It seems like we have these squabbles all of the time. It's not just that, but other reasons. Mostly he does not understand my depression and makes light of my feelings.

Nothing much else for the rest of the day. Another time just being alone. I just hate it when that happens on the weekends.

Jul 29, 2018, 08:12 AM

boring but stable sunday

doubt the boring partt's going to change, and not sure how long the stability will last, but hmm

for now mood is good

Rose76 · Jul 29, 2018, 01:35 PM

It's going to take pushing myself to use the day in a way that will make me feel better about myself and my ability to cope with what I've taken on. I'm just starting to think about getting out of my pajamas. What motivates me is that I don't want to end this day as disgusted with myself as I was last night, when I felt I wasted a day.

I waste a lot of time. It's my biggest fault. And I know there is a price for that.

Fuzzybear · Jul 29, 2018, 02:51 PM

Love to all

Jul 29, 2018, 03:31 PM

The day is a little more than half over now. I'm going to gear up and get going on my bike pretty soon. Though it's kind of hot and humid outside. I don't feel like going because of the weather, but I want to get some exercise and be outside.

It looks like it's over between my friend and I. I feel very bad about this. It's so hard because he's all that I have going for me as a friend locally. It's very difficult to be all alone. But also it's even harder to be with someone who drags me down. He and I have been though this before. He apologizes and I take him back. And then the shenanigans makes a comeback in no time.

My sister called and he had a pretty good talk. First time I had heard from her in three weeks. It was nice talking to her, but it's annoying when she sounds like she's about to fall asleep when we talk. Also, I have been making my spaghetti sauce this morning. I make a batch of four servings and the sauce slow-simmers for a few hours.

Fuzzybear · Jul 29, 2018, 04:35 PM

Thirty shades · Jul 30, 2018, 06:42 AM

Wow, had a tiring weekend.

I feel so on edge today. If only my mind would be quiet and let me rest. It's that tired but wired feeling again. Yikes.

Rose76 · Jul 30, 2018, 02:51 PM

Tackling the mess on top of the bed today. Yesterday was quite okay.

I've got to start and keep going.

Ritalin has helped.

Sunflower123 · Jul 30, 2018, 08:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Rose76

Tackling the mess on top of the bed today. Yesterday was quite okay.

I've got to start and keep going.

Ritalin has helped.

Ritalin is a big help to me as well. Good luck getting started.

Sunflower123 · Jul 30, 2018, 08:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Jul 30, 2018, 11:05 PM

Fairly busy today at work. It's been hot and humid lately and I'm not crazy about it. Felt irritable today at work. I had a project of setting up the auditorium for a class tomorrow. So I set it up and then a few hours later the instructor saw how it was set up and it was all wrong. So I had to rearrange the set up. He didn't make it very clear to me on how he wanted to have it set up.

I've had a headache all day and still having one now. The headache went away late this afternoon and early evening. Now it's back again.

Sunflower123 · Jul 31, 2018, 08:11 AM

I think I’m dealing with the transition of my daughter leaving pretty good during the day but I’m not sleeping well at night and it’s catching up with me. It’s like I have the emotional flu if that makes sense...irritable, depressed, anxious, negative and don’t want to be talked to or bother with anything. Disheartening.

Sending hugs to those that are struggling.

twistypringle98 · Jul 31, 2018, 09:19 PM

I haven't been over here in a while. On PC much, I mean.

Things feel more normal than usual than they have in years. I was depressed, then turned manic for a while, and now I feel fine. I really don't feel very delusional anymore either. Things are just lifting off my shoulders because I admit...I prayed for myself. Things just happened to work out.

Aug 01, 2018, 08:23 AM

I'm feeling okay.

yesterday was a little difficult for me.. I had a lot of flashbacks, dinner didn't turn out well- and I didn't sleep (that one's a given)

but today I am making a concious effert to avoid a certain soap opera that triggered me yesterday, which will hopefully help with the flashbacks

and to also eat something decent- think I'm going to go for pizza