[sinking]

Im so SO tired.

I want to stop, quit. Not a break. Forever.

[Wild Coyote]

I am sorry you are feeling so down. It can be overwhelming, for sure. We all have our spells of feeling overwhelmed.

What helps? Anything? Anyone?

I hope you feel better soon!
Keep posting; it may help.


WC

[MickeyCheeky]

[sinking]

Yes im overwhelmed and only meds help but then i end up abusing them so.i dont want to take them... and end up at the clinic again....

[mote.of.soul]

Hi sinking. Sorry you're struggling at present and struggling to continue on. I know those feelings too. But what I'd like to say is, if your meds are the only things helping you, then I wonder if you should talk to your doctor about trying a different medication - one that would be difficult to abuse? There are such meds. Or really focus on trying to break the meds abusing pattern? I know, the whole thing is a big pain in the a.ss, a merry-go-round which doesn't seem to lead very far - yet, it would be best to keep trying.

Keep yourself as safe as you can sinking, try to put the darker thoughts into the back of your mind and don't give up please.

[sinking]

Talking with my T would help too but she is on vacation this week. i'll see her next wed. its just hard to fight each and every minute of the day.

i think its this job…. im too weak to do it and keep it, but im too stubborn to give up and say im too weak to have a normal full time job...

[mote.of.soul]

Yes, I hear you. Watch out that your approach doesn't cause burnout though - in fact maybe that's what's happening? Keep pushing forward to next Wednesday and talk about your job situation with your T, sinking. You're obviously a hard worker too, so no one can say you're weak. You can iron this out - perseverance.

[sinking]

Thanks. i think what makes it hard is having nothing to look forward, nothing to enjoy, love, have a passion for, and nothing making my efforts (at living) worth it.

[Wild Coyote]

Can you find/schedule some things to look forward to?

I have struggled with this, too.

I try to find things to look forward to. This year, I have been pushing myself to attend area concerts/performances -- both local groups and ones stopping in just to give a performance. Many of these events have been free.

You may feel like you don't enjoy anything right now. Can you recall some things you used to enjoy and try some of those activities?

I know trying to commit to events/activities is very tough when so depressed.
Wanted to share with you.

Please don't give up.


WC

[sinking]

The only thing i spontaneously look forward to is food. but im trying to lose so thats another punch in the stomach. i also look forward days when i can sleep a lot but even though i feel better after i sleep around 12 hours, you understand its not something very helpful if i want to find something to live for or to be happy about.

and i cant think of anything else i really loof forward to.
everything else, like hanging out with my friend, family, having dinner out, learning about mental health, or even planning a travel etc. are not enough to make me happy. just a way to use time in a bette way. but i could well do without it all… and i do!

what i REALLY want is to lose consciousness and avoid everything.

[Fuzzybear]