Feeling Empty and Zoning Out Often

This is something that has been ocuriing to me very recently. I usually call them 'episodes' or 'moods'. I start feeling extremely down, or I feel numb or oblivious to everything. Recently, I've been zoning out often, mainly in school, and I haven't got much of an appetite anymore. A few days ago, all I ate was cereal for breakfast and two small mac n' cheese cups with quick, and then I felt full. These symptoms usually are also joined with sucidal thoughts, mainly just before going to bed. I haven't told anyone except one o my closest friends, and I know if I told my parents, they'd just send me off to therapy where I'd just get 'help' when I know that's not what I want; Other than that, I know that my little sister by 15 months will try and say that all o this has been happening to her too, only for attention.
-Sorry for ranting, it's just that I feel that sometimes nobody truly listens to me.
-I don't deserve to be heard.

Seeing a therapist sounds like a great idea. Why is getting help not what you want?

in me this is called depression. my suggestion is contact your treatment providers, they can look at your health issues, meds and other things and tell you what this is in you.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling so much. Toggling between feeling numb and feeling down is exhausting. Despite what the negative voices may be telling you, you do deserve to feel heard and understood, not to mention being helped.

I get the sense that you may feel that therapy won't give you what you need. I apologize if that's not what you meant, but I can relate to that feeling. I'm wondering what you path you may want to take to try and relieve some of the distress you are in. It's okay to not know. Sometimes trying to tease out what we might find helpful can help us get closer to asking for what we need from those in our lives.

I think it's good that you had the courage to reach out on here. I hope you find it to be helpful.

Seems to be an early sign of depressive state, my friend; I think getting professional help would be useful.


I've been told by professionals that I've psychopathic tendencies so feeling 'numb' is quite normal for me. I don't really feel a lot of emotions, however, I've been like this as long as I can recall but your state seems to be developing. Hence, it may be treatable. I hope you feel better.

I'm so sorry you're struggling, Caracalxaos It sounds like you may have depression. Are you sure you don't want to see a therapist? I feel like that may help. I hope you'll feel better soon. Please stay safe and take care of yourself. Don't give up, you have so much more to give to this world. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this