going through them otions today.

don't feel particularly good, or particularly bad (I suppose the latter is a good thing).

[88Butterfly88]

Moderately depressed, just feeling stuck in a rut.

[Mountaindewed]

I don’t necessarily feel depressed. I am however, in my “I wish it was summer. I miss the warm sun” kind of mood. So I’m probably feeling something.

Went to work today, even though it's an official Federal holiday. A lot of people were out and not much activity. But it was an OK day at work emotionally.

I'm feeling discouraged because I feel like I want to leave where I live but feeling like it's not going to happen. I can't seem to find somewhere else that I think I'm going to like just as much. And I feel clueless as to know how to go about it. I'm feeling very much like 88Butterfly88 above me, who's words were just perfect for the way I feel.

On the way home (and it was a very easy drive home since the traffic was extremely light) I checked out a gym very close to where I live. I inquired as to what they have and what kind of plan I could sign up for. They were very nice to me. The place was alright, but it's not what I want. I'm still feeling grieved over the request from my neighbor to not workout anymore at home.

I don’t know how to do anything. I need help but it’s too late. I was all alone as a child. I fear my life will end in suicide, sometime down the road.

There is no justice. That man has ruined my life and that of close associates. He thinks I'm not aware. Or, maybe he knows I'm aware and continues out of spite. Out of pure VINDICTIVENESS. He is a very jealous person with a bad temper. Extremely vindictive but has fooled so many he gets away with it. One day he will be held accountable. If not this life, the next. I hope it's this life and is soon.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay this morning. Maybe a little tired. Not sure if I'm sad. I'm trying to find something to do. I have an idea. We'll see how it goes. Perhaps I need more sleep. But I went to bed at 4 pm last night.

I have barely got through today (well today still isn't over)

but anxiety, and voices and low mood- it all adds up to a blah day

I do hate the days when I'm barely getting by.

depression really does suck when you don't want it.

[Deilla]

I'm exhausted. I tried to cancel my physical therapy appointment for tomorrow. They wouldn't let me. They kept asking me questions and talking to me until they convinced to keep the appointment. Now I'm angry at myself. They told me this is what the doctor ordered. I'm a mess. I can't handle all this. I need to rest. Yesterday wore me out and today is a really hard day.

[Rose76]

I'm doing pretty good, as long as I don't stay on my phone too long. I just went over my limit for today, so I better go do something constructive.

I found out what the problem was with the Federal Withholding on my W-2. I had posted about that problem on here last Sunday. I called the payroll dept. at work and the woman I spoke with explained it to me. It was very simple to find where the problem was. It turned out that a box had a checkmark authorizing me to get a total exemption from Federal Withholding. Which means that nothing was withheld from the Federal and that I would have pay come tax time. I don't know how in the life of me did I authorize something like that? I had been fine for years on how the withholdings went and I never wanted a change. Because I would always get a fairly good refund back. And I was counting on it. I wonder if there was some kind of computer error or even if I had been hacked? Well, it turns out I will have to pay $1500. That's a pretty big blow to me!

Other than that, it was busier at work today than yesterday. Nothing much else to report about.

[Rose76]

I got a toothache and ankle tendonitis. Neither is horrible, but I feel hobbled. It doesn't take much to knock the wind out of my sails.

[mote.of.soul]

Stuck between a rock and a hard place in my life. Between the devil and the deep blue sea, which doesn't bring happy feelings. Maybe I can't progress further? I'll keep my options open, though - whatever those options are, as I have no clue.

[Deilla]

Lots of anxiety this morning. I can't go to physical therapy today. I don't care if they threatened me. I just can't do it. I don't feel mentally capable of going to an appointment to day. I'm worn out and last night I was at an all time low emotionally. I need to take care of my mental health.

[Rose76]

Doing pretty good. I'm getting stuff done around the house. Repaired a few things. That always gives me a sense if achievement.

[Deilla]

Not doing well this evening. My online T triggered me. She asked a question that got me very upset. Sometimes I think online therapy is the worst. I don't see how asking these questions helps me. Now I have to ground myself and work on closure and improving my mood.

[88Butterfly88]

Feeling down and stuck. I fear nothing will ever get better. I guess it will but I still worry sometimes that I'll be this miserable forever.

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

Feeling down and stuck. I fear nothing will ever get better. I guess it will but I still worry sometimes that I'll be this miserable forever.

I think that you and I must be identical twins. Because that's exactly how I feel. I am feeling down and stuck because of the place I live at. I have moving out on my mind but I can't seem to make time to "plant the seeds" for it. And I'm clueless as to where I could go or what to do.

I got talking to a couple at work. I told them that I was late getting to work because of the heavy traffic. The woman said that she noticed the same thing. And then the guy said that the area is overpopulated. I keep dreaming that I would like to have a small house out in an area where I wouldn't have to worry about bothering anyone else; and vice-versa. It would seem like a very hard reality to come by. Well, if that's what I want, then I have to try harder to make it happen.

[Deilla]

It's early Friday morning. I feel Okay. Later I have physical therapy. I feel alright about that. Just want it over with so I can relax for the day. I don't really feel like going but it's supposed to help me. I'm trying to have a better attitude about it.

[Rose76]

I'm in the E.R. with my boyfriend. But he's asleep and I'm okay.

I am not doing anything today.

I took a shower and that's my limit.

takes it out of you.. what with all the pain issues.

probably just going to watch bizardvark and try to feel greatful I made it through another week

[Deilla]

My appointment today ruined my entire day. All morning long was spent getting ready and stressing out. Then the appointment was hard. After the appointment I was wiped out and slept for hours. My whole day is just wasted. I have to do this twice a week. I refuse. I don't care what they say.

[Mountaindewed]

It was a high of 3 today but my SAD wasn’t terrible. I have these really warm North Face gloves which help. Being off work and going shopping helped. I really want to wear shorts and my Birkenstock’s though. We decided tonight that we might take a trip to Graceland in the fall. So that might be why the depression isn’t terrible.

[mote.of.soul]

I had a bad situation two days ago that would normally have plummeted my spirit into a very dark place but I seem to be handling it quite well, which I'm glad about. I seem to do okay as long as I keep to myself :/