today it has been snowing all day- and it's been really nice (I love the snow)

I've been having some greif with my alexa and that's been making a little depressed/ angry (actually I want some stuff I can't have because I don't have a phone that supports the alexa app).
I struggle with that, because for me when it comes to owning something, it's using it for all it's intended purposes, or nothing at all
I had takeout pizza today which was nice (even though it was filling, too filling for me)

no sleep last night. partly because of the imsomnia but also it was too hot. heating was turned up way too loud.

seems this weather has 1 drawback

you either are too cold or too hot

their's no in between

[Deilla]

Hopeful, grateful, a little less tired than usual.

It was a fairly busy day. I got little "shots in the arm" of encouragement today. When I got home I felt depressed. Tried to take a nap but it was noisy at my place. I got a message on my home phone from a guy who was interested in buying a house. I don't know how he got my phone number?

Tonight has been OK so far. Nothing exciting for the weekend. It's supposed to rain from late tonight until Wednesday. Going to be a very dull and lonely weekend.

I feel mainly blah.

so I ate, so what. I came on the forum so what, I listened to music, so what

everything is just "so what"

I don't really care about anything today

[Deilla]

Got a new FitBit. Lost 10 lbs since the last time I logged in. Doing a step challenge. Enjoying my weekend so far. Nice weather today.

[Rose76]

I'm in decent spirits. I have to organize a bunch of paperwork for some interviews coming up, so my bf retains various benefits. Since childhood, dealing with paperwork has been my greatest challenge in life. I hoard useless paperwork and, then, can't find the important stuff. I do realize that people have worse problems.

[mote.of.soul]

Going okay. Plodding along a day at a time. Had a very uplifting visit from two old friends I hadn't seen in many years [one of them tracked me down December last year] and it really is amazing how re-energizing and uplifting a visit from someone who genuinely cares, can be. So, we're rekindling our old friendship and I'll begin to branch out a bit more to re-establish some other friendships from my youth, thanks to this particular friend who I've know since we were 8 :-) 2019 is going well so far.

A little bit of a busy day today. Cleaning and shopping. Nothing much since the early afternoon. Having some heavy rain now and it's going to last a while. No bike riding, in which I have not done in quite a while. I took a nap earlier and couldn't sleep because of the heavy winds and windows rattling. Now after the nap, the winds have calmed down. I don't feel like a nap now!

I got an email from someone whom I contacted about looking at a place. I was surprised because, as I mentioned earlier, I went on a search with a web site that was going nowhere. I contacted the person back by email saying that I was interested in looking. I haven't heard anything back.

It's going to be a dull weekend as I'm just cooped up inside because of the heavy rains and it's supposed to last all weekend.

[Monticello]

I feel terrible. I have been fighting my depression narrative all week and today it has been hard. You know - I'm stupid, ugly, say the wrong things, etc. I have been unable to do a lot of my go to strategies to help with this because I am still stuck on the couch after surgery. I did go to the dog park for about 15 minutes this afternoon.

all the snow's melted today.

I must say, I am a little disappointed, because I was hoping it would last a little longer (I love the snow)

it feels like a summer day today with all the sun and the briteness. I don't like it.

not really anything that needs doing today so guess I'm just going to chill

still feel about as blah as yesterday

[LifelongLoner]

I can't seem to motivate myself. All I do is procrastinate. I don't want to do anything. I don't like being me. I don't like being gay. It's not for me.

I got up this morning at 7. It had been pretty nice and sunny with a few clouds until about 9. Then the clouds started to roll in. I went to an area to look at trailer homes to see if I want to live there. I didn't see anyone outside that I could talk to. Plus, I felt like I had to urinate badly and there was no place to "relieve" myself. It's not a real nice day to be outdoors.

I just got back home and got a message about looking a place. That was from yesterday. I was told that I can look at that place at 4:30 some day this week. I wish I could do it today instead. It's supposed to rain this afternoon. The road at where I would go bike riding is a real mess with pieces of trees on the road.

[Deilla]

Sad, lonely, in pain and tired.

I ended up going for a little more than a two-hour bike ride today. The weather cleared up and it turned out to be a nice day. I feel so much better now that I did it.

At the area near home on my bike, I was thinking about how nice it would be to be out of my place, live in a private house with no one close by (like not cramped), retired from my job, and able to afford all of that. Maybe someday soon!

[mountainstream]

Anxious and depressed.

[downandlonely]

Depression is ok, but these allergies are kicking my butt. Don't know how to get rid of all this mucous. I bought Mucinex. Hope it will help.

[88Butterfly88]

Sad, sad, sad. None of the groups I looked into will take me. Guess I'm unwanted.

I've have litirally felt void of emotion all day

feel so low that the word "low" doesn't cut it

[Rose76]

My mood is fine, but I better stop being apathetic and lazy. I'm letting the apartment get disorderly. I keep putting off paperwork I need to tend to.

[Monticello]

I was angry earlier this morning. Now I am depressed which always happens after I get angry because I can never express it. I just stuff it and turn it towards myself.

[Deilla]

Blah, worn down, bored and sad.

[Mountaindewed]

I thought I wasn’t depressed. But then I realized today I haven’t been happy in days. I am not really looking forward to anything. So maybe I am pretty depressed.

[Rose76]

I'm not doing so good. Not really depressed, but no motivation to tackle things I have to get done. I've got a toothache. And I'm tired, short of sleep. Those 2 things alone are enough to put me off my game.

I can't seem to even sit down and go through mail. Stuff like that has to be kept up with. This is some kind of depression. My bf is doing pretty good today. That can - and does - turn on a dime. We barely get through one health crisis, when another one starts. There's hardly any in between "normal" time. He rides these things out all right. I get stressed. Off the top of my head I couldn't even say how many times he's been admitted to a hospital in the last 2 years. I've lost count. 7, 8, 9 - I don't know anymore.

Not trying to sound like a martyr. I just have to get a grip.

A so-so day today. The evening is not so good as it's raining and no going to the pool area. And even worse is that there's no hot water in my place. It's been that way for two days now. There's some kind of malfunction with the water heater at my complex. It seemed like this happened before not so long ago. And yet I can hear someone in another unit taking a shower. How can they take a cold shower on a cold, damp night?

[LifelongLoner]

I have insomnia. Again. Having nightmares and can't sleep - a symptom of my C-PTSD. Part of it is that I am being treated badly on the job. Part of it is that I am hungry. I'm overweight and am trying to eat less but can't sleep if I'm hungry. Finally, I broke down and ate something. I need more sleep but am not sleepy. This is not good.