Burned out and depressed.

Thank you , Tunedout.

I thought they would be warmer toward me. They never have been.

I am so very sorry for your loss and dealing with his family doesn’t help. Hugs

Those jerks, Rose. (Meaning his family) With all you did for their kinsman.

I booked my flight for tomorrow. I'll fly on the planes that carry my loved one's body . . . all the way to Newark - 2000 miles. I had thought to go to my bf's son's home. I don't want him having the hassle of coming fown to Newark from Rockland Co. Nor has he offered to pick me up. I wonder what shuttle service might be in that area. I'ld like to see if there is any affection in that family for me.

I'm sorry you have to go through this. You did so much for him. They are very ungrateful to you and are showing their true colors.

I would think the funeral home might be providing the transportation for the loved one from the airport to the funeral home. Can you check on that? Did you say you have family in that area of the country? Are they expecting you? Things dont sound good with his family.

The funeral home will send a hearse or, more likely, a non-descript station wagon to pick up the container holding the deceased body. I doubt they allow a living family member to hitch a ride (which probably violates their insurance rules,) but I have every intention of asking and offering a tip.

Yesterday, I got sick of his kids making life harder. Because we weren't clients of a hospice provider, the body had to be taken to the Medical Examiner's facility pending getting the death certificate signed. Then the daughter held off signing permission for the funeral home to retrieve the body because she wanted to negotiate lower rates. (Rates are published in price lists, closely monitored by regulatory agencies.) So my friend's body languished in the city morgue, while his daughter tried to beat down some prices. This delays the body getting the special care that should be started soon as possible.

A year ago, I got my guy's best suits dry cleaned. I wanted to ship them out to the daughter. She told me no. She wanted to get stuff she'ld pick out. Yesterday she calls wanting me to send a box of clothes. I said it was so unfair to ask me to do that now, while I'm frantically getting reddy to travel. By late eve, we were really mad at each other. Her husband gets on the phone and tells me never to call his wife again.

I think I just show up at the service in the funersl home. Thrn get the heck away from this family.

I am so sorry I didn't see this sooner. I only get to come to PC when I am at work and we've been closed because of curfew here from the riots/protests.

Rose I am so sorry for your loss. I hope everything goes well at the funeral home. I think his daughter was very ungrateful. You taking the time to send her what you had ALREADY offered to send and she said no then flip flops at the last second and inconveniences you. How are you the bad guy in that scenario? I know she has to be grieving but you are too and she wants to add to your plate! That is inexcusable. Just keep your head up and know that you did nothing wrong. You have been more than gracious.

I have no idea if I am that depressed, to have depression. Yet I feel sort of similar my dude. I seem to loathe in my depressed feelings daily. This just doesn't stop for me. I feel that I've gone so far in the deep end with depressed sort of feelings and such, that I've gone so negative that now I feel quite apathetic. People don't seem so lovely to me no more. I don't want to be in a relationship. I just want to chill and get high all day doing nothing with my life. I have schizophrenia and I can control that quite well and I am good with that for some reason, as I got better like many others may not ever. So yea I feel you man, maybe i do have depression, it's kind of hard to get rid of the thought that I really would love to live depressed for the rest of my days. I miss my old life. This ain't right, I had this thought days ago that I was going to buy some morphine pills, down em once, kill myself. Though I have no idea if that's the case now, I'm a little on a downhill slope here. No one's there for me, no one will help me, there's no feelings left in my heart I swear. I'm not the same as I used to be.

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and hope you are doing ok in your time of grief