[akekaomen]

My anxiety has become so great it's causing me to be more depressed. Or it's the other way around my depression is so great I'm anxious all the time. I can't tell.

Hoping to just cope. Got to work today, but didn't yesterday. May be a tough time of it as a result.

[Hide the Sky]

I understand akekaomen. I went to work about two weeks ago and I showed my boss (whom I love, she's like a sister to me) my hand, which was shaking violently. I've been trying to talk to my doctor/psychiatrist about trying me out on an anxiety med to see if it will help. But given that my anxiety/depression right now is being caused by someone at work, it's really hard to be there. Sometimes it is really hard to tell if I'm panicking because I'm so depressed and it hurts that badly or if I'm just straight up going into panic mode because I'm that scared/stressed out.

[akekaomen]

Fortunately I had some anti-anxiety meds today, but i'm out now. My pharmacy wants a special code to go with the prescription, which is delaying them filling it. I might have to suffer tomorrow.

I guess i need some wins or good news to help me manage. I'm doing the right things though, which are committed action - to do what I don't feel like doing. That's what I learn when I go to the partial hospital. I had thoughts about going back, but I don't think I can manage being away from work that long - will create more anxiety.

[Fuzzybear]

[Misery Business]

I am so sorry you are struggling so much with anxiety and depression. Sometimes it is so hard to distinguish between which one is bringing on the other. They seem to work together all the time. I don't really really know your situation fully so I can't tell you which is which for you, but for me it seems that my anxiety makes my depression much stronger. If I seem to get my anxiety under control then my depression seems to follow. I really think this is something you will have to realize and work through and maybe with the help of therapy figure it out. I wish you all the luck in the world because I know how hard it is dealing with both anxiety and depression.

[akekaomen]

thanks. I think right now the anxiety is leading to the depression. I am less confident in myself, which makes me feel like a loser. But I feel less confident because I'm always anxious about things going bad. I'm trying to surround myself with some easy wins to build confidence, but it's hard because I'm expected to do complex stuff that I can't easily "succeed" at right now.

But I made it into work, so that's a win.