Failure me

Fuzzybear · Jul 11, 2019, 01:08 PM

I made papa bear choke on his meal.

No anger, just misunderstanding

It should have been me who choked and couldn’t eat my meal

Failure me

This Depression and anxiety... life feels so endless

Fuzzybear · Jul 11, 2019, 01:22 PM

No wonder I don’t “fit” well with everyone on a Depression forum. As in I’m not the same as everyone, I also have CPTSD

I’m pretty sure my depression/anxiety wouldn’t be helped much by even good CBT

I guess I could be wrong, I often am

Fuzzybear · Jul 11, 2019, 01:26 PM

My personal opinion... everyone who shares from the heart here is brave, and is doing the best they can

Maybe especially if we’ve been silenced too many times by abusers

Mopey · Jul 11, 2019, 01:41 PM

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FUZZY

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Rohag · Jul 11, 2019, 01:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I made papa bear choke on his meal. No anger, just misunderstanding

Not too many people could have appreciated it was a misunderstanding that brought on the choking. It's stating the obvious, but you had to become keenly aware of social "nuances" in order to survive your family of origin.

"It's not your fault, dear Fuzzybear." I believe that to be true. I can post those words; you can read them. I have little confidence, however, they can get through a depressive cloud as thick and persistent as the one surrounding you.

Still, I post the words with silent hopes they may have some unseen effect.

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

This Depression and anxiety... life feels so endless

I would not be surprised if in the future researchers were to find depression-anxiety affects the experience of time.

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I’m not the same as everyone, I also have CPTSD

True. The conceptual shorthand imposed by medical bureaucracy falls tragically short of the depression world's vast diversity.

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I’m pretty sure my depression/anxiety wouldn’t be helped much by even good CBT

If you had the psychological equivalent of a simple cold, then good CBT might help some. I've been haunting these forums long enough to realise you do not have the psychological equivalent of a simple cold.

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

Fuzzybear · Jul 11, 2019, 02:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Mopey

(((((((

FUZZY

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Thank you (((((((( Mopey )))))))))

Fuzzybear · Jul 11, 2019, 02:04 PM

Thank you ((((((((( Rohag ))))))))

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Originally Posted by Rohag

(((((((

)))))))

Not too many people could have appreciated it was a misunderstanding that brought on the choking. It's stating the obvious, but you had to become keenly aware of social "nuances" in order to survive your family of origin.

"It's not your fault, dear Fuzzybear." I believe that to be true. I can post those words; you can read them. I have little confidence, however, they can get through a depressive cloud as thick and persistent as the one surrounding you.

Still, I post the words with silent hopes they may have some unseen effect.

I would not be surprised if in the future researchers were to find depression-anxiety affects the experience of time.

True. The conceptual shorthand imposed by medical bureaucracy falls tragically short of the depression world's vast diversity.

If you had the psychological equivalent of a simple cold, then good CBT might help some. I've been haunting these forums long enough to realise you do not have the psychological equivalent of a simple cold.

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

Misery Business · Jul 11, 2019, 02:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

My personal opinion... everyone who shares from the heart here is brave, and is doing the best they can

Maybe especially if we’ve been silenced too many times by abusers

Everyone who shares from the heart Fuzzybear like myself in my opinion might be a little brave, but really what they are being is honest. That my friend I believe is the true meaning of sharing from the heart.

In my 15 months of hell I was silenced by my abusers and even forced to act in ways that were ways that were not even me at all. So now I do live by this 100% and maybe it might be brave because I might get backlash from people, but in the end it is honesty and that makes me feel good.

As for you failing for being misunderstood, No, No , No this is not your fault. It is exactly what you said it was, "A Misunderstanding of words" that led to alarming someone that led to him choking on food. You cannot control someone misunderstanding something or misinterpreting something you said. People have words that come out of there mouths all the time that are misunderstood every single day. Gosh, this even goes on with misinterpretation of scriptures of the Bible all the time between different denominations and that has been going on for ages with many consequences involved. So I guess what I am trying to say is Misunderstanding happen all the time and they will happen again, but it isn't your fault that this happened.

Fuzzybear · Jul 11, 2019, 02:29 PM

Thank you Misery Business, good post

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Originally Posted by Misery Business

Everyone who shares from the heart Fuzzybear like myself in my opinion might be a little brave, but really what they are being is honest. That my friend I believe is the true meaning of sharing from the heart.

In my 15 months of hell I was silenced by my abusers and even forced to act in ways that were ways that were not even me at all. So now I do live by this 100% and maybe it might be brave because I might get backlash from people, but in the end it is honesty and that makes me feel good.

As for you failing for being misunderstood, No, No , No this is not your fault. It is exactly what you said it was, "A Misunderstanding of words" that led to alarming someone that led to him choking on food. You cannot control someone misunderstanding something or misinterpreting something you said. People have words that come out of there mouths all the time that are misunderstood every single day. Gosh, this even goes on with misinterpretation of scriptures of the Bible all the time between different denominations and that has been going on for ages with many consequences involved. So I guess what I am trying to say is Misunderstanding happen all the time and they will happen again, but it isn't your fault that this happened.