[puzzclar]

I'm not doing well. I see my T in 90 minutes. And I don't want to tell him that I have had some sui thoughts. If things continue like this it will affect my grade. I need more time and I don't have that. I have a paper for school due on Sunday at 10:59 pm. and I have NOTHING done. I have researched but that is it.

I need support. I"m in a relapse. and heading to disaster soon if things continue.

I know what I may need but don't want that sort of help. I prefer to do this all outpatient. But I wonder if it is needed to go inpatient or intensive outpatient.

Help

[Fuzzybear]

Thinking of you...

[MickeyCheeky]

Please do consider going inpatient if you're feeling so bad, @puzzclar! There's ABSOLUTELY NO SHAME in doing that! I am here if you need me and if you need advice and support OF ANY KIND! So are many others such as Fuzzybear and MANY, MANY, MANY, MANY OTHERS, I AM SURE OF THAT BECUASE IT IS ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AND I AM SURE YOU KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! Please be kind to yourself! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @puzzclar, your family, your friends, your Pdoc and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you're GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS and that you're HURTING AND STRUGGLING SO BADLY! PLEASE NEVER GIVE UP HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! YOU ARE THE BEST AND THAT'S ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AND I AM SURE YOU KNOW THAT'S ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY TRUE AS WELL EVEN IF IT'S DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU!

[puzzclar]

The problem is my job won't allow the time off. I'd be fired. Yet it's bad for business and ethical considerations. There's nothing I can do about the job. Right now I'm trying to just get by. It's hard. I did go into the ER and didn't want to wait in the ER for a bed in an inpatient program. I came home to not getting time off to deal with everything. Now my T needs to call but I'll miss the call if he doesn't call after 90 minutes or so.

Everyone but me feels like I can get past this. I feel like this will never end. But that is black and white thinking. And I'm having a hard time focusing on my studies...