[giddykitty]

I'm scared. Watching a scary show and it was pretty disturbing to me. It is kinda interesting though to see where my limits are. Some stuff that others think as scary don't scare me as much. Weird huh?

The morning started off kind of rough. When I first took off for work I had forgotten my key for the front gate at where I live. I realized that I had put that key in my sweat pants pocket when I took a bike ride yesterday and then I forgot to put that key back with the other keys. And then shortly when I got into work, the IT guy called me from his home and had me to get a power plug in his office. I didn't know where it was and couldn't find it. Once in a while he does that to me and I can't stand it.

Well later in the day, some better things happened for me. I checked on my State Income Tax that I did a month ago and thought that I would have to pay about $110. I caught an error that I did (I did it by pencil, rough draft) and now I will get a little bit of money back! And then, when I got home, I was able to call a woman neighbor of mine and she let me in the gate. She's such a nice woman. Not because she let me in, but because she's always so pleasant.

Worked out after work today and my dinner turned out very well.

[Yzen]

I am feeling a little better this weekend. I hope today turns out better for all of you.

Not much of a day other than cleaning and shopping. Felt pretty depressed today, that's about it.

[3rd rock]

I was feeling good earlier today, but now I feel sad for no reason. I got some work done on my current projects today. I have very high cholesterol, which my GP warns will lead to heart disease in 20 years if left unchecked. However, I'm not worried, because my worsened cardiovascular health over the past year has been the result of being off work for nine months. Now that I've returned to my physically demanding job, I expect my health to improve significantly. Not only am I getting good exercise daily, I'm eating less due to being at work where I can't and don't eat much all day.

[Rose76]

Sluggish. Lazy. Got nothing done today.

[MissCrazy]

Everything is so dark.
I feel so lethargic and isolate in my room.
I just want to sleep.

[Rose76]

I'm depressed.

I guess this was bound to happen. I have to remember that this can pass.

My car may need maintenance. The engine light went on. I don’t really know what to do. I may just bring it to the dealership even though it is very expensive. It’s the easiest fix. I tightened the gas cap Friday night and hope that solves it. It gives me a lot of anxiety.

I will be “grabbing dinner” with a girl who I met at work. Not a coworker. She is my age. I like her but don’t really know her. She reached out to me. I am nervous but I need friends. I hope everything works out. We have the day set up and the approximate time. I wonder if I should hammer out more details, like where we should go to eat? Or would that freak her out? I’ve been feeling like something about me repels people.

I have pole tonight. I feel like a whale. My teacher was shouting “so sexy” and “beautiful”. I appreciate her positivity but it is just absurd to hear that as I struggle around the pole. It made me laugh. I hope it gives you a funny mental picture too!

Just a typical weekend. Nothing much happened. Felt sad at times for feeling alone. It seems like my neighbors are doing well socially and I'm not. I guess they wouldn't need me.

Just went on a bike ride today and that's it. At least it felt nice being out in the brisk air and bright sunshine.

[3rd rock]

I'm coming down with a cold, but I can't call in sick because I've only just returned to work on a part-time schedule and it would be very bad form for me to call in sick already. I've just got to tough it out the next couple of days, I guess.

[Buffy01]

I feel so down today.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by the walls

I’m so tired.

I understand. I am physically and mentally exhausted myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

My current project will be finished by the end of November. My next project will be started on at that time.

Congratulations on your project being finished.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 2daffodils

I haven't been this beaten by life in a long time.

I feel like this myself all the time.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Turtle_Rider

It's been awful for the last couple week. I failed to get a bigger job. Next, our division got into a big trouble because one member carelessly responded to a spam email. It seems like we're going to lose everything and have to start all over again. And now, I just heard that a good coworker will be fired soon.

Home is worse. I got into more arguments with my parents, from a very small matter to big one. The fight worsens every day.

I wish I could run away somewhere.

I understand I am going through the same thing with my family who cost me my job.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Some feelings of depression and dissociation. Some feelings of not wanting to be here. Mostly just trying to get distracted and not be hard on myself. Kind of bored today too. Tomorrow should be a busy day at work though.

I feel the same way myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I'm really starting to like this current book I'm writing. I think it will be worth reading. I will have it done by the end of the year, as I'm deliberately writing it much shorter than my previous works.

congratulations on your book. I have writer block.

[Buffy01]

:

Originally Posted by puzzclar

DO I ask for an incomplete?? I don't know what will get me out of this funk. I'm trying but nothing is working.

I understand. I been feeling like this myself. I wish that I knew how to get out of my depression.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Feeling pretty good this morning. I didn't sleep much. I stayed up and played games mostly. I'll go to bed fairly soon here. Maybe I will sleep until 9 am.

I wish that I could say I feel good. I been up all night last night.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Feeling sort of okay. Kind of feeling depressed and anxious. Tried to give myself enough time to get things done at work today by coming in early. I'm hoping that it works out okay. I have T tonight and I am kind of stressed about that. HUGS to all, Kit

I understand about feeling stress.I been feeling like this myself.

I got up for work this morning and it was dark outside. I didn't feel like getting out of bed. That darn time change! Also I was having dreaded feelings. I was thinking about the tests and appointments that I have coming up in a couple of weeks. Also a real weird day as far as the news goes - with the coronavirus, stocks dropping, and oil companies slumping.

It went fairly well at work today. It wasn't slow this time, so that made it nice. Worked out after work. It feels weird that it looks like afternoon when I'm having dinner. I miss it when it was dark and having a bright candle glow while preparing dinner.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing ok, even though things could be better.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I took a big step towards making a repair to my house that I have ignored for too long. I hope it goes well.

Congratulations

I feel very depressed and dumb. I feel like a very strange and odd person no one wants to include.

Everything is ****** and there is no point. I am ready to numb out!