[Breaking Dawn]

God bless you, @3rd rock! And thank you for sharing such a tender part of yourself. We all need to do that sometimes.

[Fuzzybear]

Hello

[Rose76]

I got way down in a miserable pit today. Sleepy and nauseated all day. I feel like I'm not fit for this life. Like I can accomplish nothing.

I feel very fortunate to have my job to go to. And I feel so guilty that there's nothing much to do. I'm scared for the future. This morning I went for two tests out of three to see what's going on with me medically. So far I got one result (a chest X ray) and that turned out to be fine. So one down and two to go.

This is really a hard time for everyone. Just this alone is beyond overly difficult enough as it is. But when you have depression, anxiety, other matters, and problems along with this Coronavirus thing - WOW!

[puzzclar]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I got way down in a miserable pit today. Sleepy and nauseated all day. I feel like I'm not fit for this life. Like I can accomplish nothing.

Rose, I thought that I was nothing, that I didn't matter. Sick from all the self hatred. Yesterday was a day that I didn't accomplish much. I was sad and anxious all day. I woke up and meditated then asked myself questions. By the end of the day I feel excited for life. Now to put this in perspective. I have had depression for 15 years or more. I was emotionally neglected by my father. I have spent lots of time understanding myself and today it finally clicked!
I put lots of work into understanding myself, and wanting to help others. I thought that majoring in Psychology would help. It didn't. I tried to work and that became hard. I reduced hours, and saw improvement. Then I started a mental health counseling program. I had a rough time two terms ago, and landed in the psych ward. After 6 months of work on a development plan, I see a bigger change.

Why do I tell you this? I am sharing principles that worked for me. Those being, never giving up, dedication, and non-stop effort. What do you need to apply for your own changes to happen.

We are not just our genes, we are also our environment. Don't just let something happens to you. Influence a part and one may gain more than expected!

I wanted to give hope to all those who are struggling.

[Sunflower123]

I’m feeling depressed today. I’m putting some structure and goals into my day to overcome this. I just feel so down right now.

[Fuzzybear]

Hanging onto some Rope (Zorah’s rope..) somewhere ...

Anxiety...(my anxiety) grrrrrr

[Yzen]

Half the time I feel depressed and anxious. Half the time I manage to gain some positivity and hope. I don't know how I feel...it's a mix of emotions in all directions.

I did the housecleaning and shopping like always on Saturdays. When I went shopping, people had to line up outside and the stores let "X" amount of people in at a time. It was not much of a wait. Once I got in there were not a lot of people in with me and the shelves were stocked. Except for paper items, cleaners, and sanitizers.

We are supposed to isolate during this crisis. Well, for what is being asked to do, it doesn't make much of a difference for me. My social life hasn't been much, so this is not a significant drop.

honestly I would feel a whole lot better once I know what's happening with this meeting

I can not survive for much longer in this situation

also in the UK today is mothers day

and I don't have a mom who cares, so this day always sucks

[Sunflower123]

Super down tonight. Going to bed early to reset. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I was busy today with domestic stuff. Went bike riding and one area that I go to was closed off. That was a surprise. My sister called and I had not heard from her in a while. She only talked for three minutes. It's unusual for her to not talk much when she calls. She wanted to know how I was doing but didn't seem comfortable to talk about herself. That's unusual, too. Maybe something's up!

It’s probably time to get a therapist.

I am completely alone.

[T4bbyCat]

Awaiting the next hammer to drop on the ongoing crisis. I would guess home confinement and prohibition on coming to work.

I need my ISP to come over and fix things at home, or I'll be cut off. As would be expected, they can't at this point. All Internet cafes, libraries, and other places with WiFi are shut down, so I may be SOL.

I feel OK (strangely enough in these corona times). I had an early morning walk in a park, windy, was almost blown down. I had to rest when I was home again. The fight with the wind had been so hard.


I have cancelled my vaccation in July. I had looked very much forward to it, but since everything is turned up side down after the spread of the Covid-19, I feel relief.


This day I am in some sort of fighting spirit: "We shall overcome this!"

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Super down tonight. Going to bed early to reset. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I am so sorry that you are feeling down! Hope you feel better soon. We are all in this corona crisis together. Everything becomes harder to cope with!

When you wake up and are eating your breakfast, please remember that this is a time when we have to fight harder than usual. So it is for all of us. Try the STOPP technique".

STOPP skill

How much tired are you? If very tired, please make a shedule for the day that is easy to overcome. If you feel OK (enough) make a harder plan to make yourself buzy.


Please don't self-blame! Only consentrate on making it through the crisis one day at the time!

expecting to be laid off. too afraid to ask questions. honestly ready to kill myself

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by the walls

expecting to be laid off. too afraid to ask questions. honestly ready to kill myself

Please don't do that. We'll all get through this together. Is there unemployment payments in your area?

[puzzclar]

Originally Posted by the walls

expecting to be laid off. too afraid to ask questions. honestly ready to kill myself

The feeling of fear, anxiety and sadness can create that feeling. You will get through this crisis. We all will! Please do something to care for yourself that is free, like watching/working out to a YouTube video. Kickboxing may be helpful to get the frustration out. We are here for you. If you need anything that I can help with feel free to pm me.

[jmariah001]

A little down tonight I am just hunkered down at home for now. There is a shelter in place order where I live. I've been doing a lot of journaling and listening to music. I sleep most days and am up most nights. Thanks to a 3rd shift job I had years ago. I was supposed to see my pdoc on Thursday but that will probably be cancelled or done by phone. I hope that it's done by phone. I really need to tell her about my anger going up. Now that I think about it I haven't gotten a confirmation text saying about my appointment. I bet it's cancelled. Darn this virus. I hope that this doesn't last through summer. That would really stink. Now to go turn on prime for a distraction from all this virus crap. Good night all.

[Rose76]

I'm doing pretty well . . . I'm happy to say.

I have one of my stomach aches today.

last 2 days I have been severely overeating (gotta suck when it happens)

also feeling suicidal (standard), and annoyed because I don't have disney plus (can't aford it)

[Breaking Dawn]

Just taking it one day at a time. I try to find ways to lift my spirits & motivation. I think about all of you, wishing the best for you, even when I can't post. Hang in there everybody.

[puzzclar]

I'm trying to ignore how I feel. Which really isn't good as it gives more problems when I ignore what I feel. I have been procrastinating my studies. HMMM let's think about it.... I don't know what I am doing and it is leading to behaviors of I don't want to think about it. But things are going to be due soon. I need to get off my butt and do something.

I'm OK, but tired. A bit procrasttiation with the home work, but have used a large amount of time to keep myself updated about the corona virus. The weather is bad. Hope it will be possible to take a walk outside (with appropriate distance to others) tomorrow.