[Breaking Dawn]

I hope you will feel better soon, Kumy. Maybe don't need to fight.Just take it easy? Hugs & love to you!

[mote.of.soul]

Aaw, what happened to Lilly2, everybody??? I see it says her account has been suspended.

Her posts, like a lot of others here too, were always positive and encouraging and empowering and I liked reading Lilly2's posts. But now I'm depressed!

I have to have a coffee now...

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by mote.of.soul

Aaw, what happened to Lilly2, everybody??? I see it says her account has been suspended.

Her posts, like a lot of others here too, were always positive and encouraging and empowering and I liked reading Lilly2's posts. But now I'm depressed!

I have to have a coffee now...

I agree. I don't know what happened.

i'm also depressed now

and its too late in the day for more coffee not that that would help much

I did not cut enough this morning.

[mote.of.soul]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I agree. I don't know what happened.

i'm also depressed now

and its too late in the day for more coffee not that that would help much

Aw, yes (((Fuzzy))). Coffee isn't the ultimate solution, very true...

Maybe Lilly2 will come back when the time is right, as well. Fingers crossed.

Have a lovely night good Fuzzybear, thank you.

[mote.of.soul]

Originally Posted by the walls

I did not cut enough this morning.

Keep fighting and keep the hope alive @the walls. We'll overcome these inner difficulties eventually, don't you worry.

Big hugs to you!

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by mote.of.soul

Aw, yes (((Fuzzy))). Coffee isn't the ultimate solution, very true...

Maybe Lilly2 will come back when the time is right, as well. Fingers crossed.

Have a lovely night good Fuzzybear, thank you.

It was fairly busy at work today. But I got mad at myself because, once again, I blew another paid day off I could have had. First it was Veterans Day that I could have had off, but didn't. And now it's the Friday following Thanksgiving that I won't have off. It's so senseless to come in because there will be nothing to do. Someone else put in for that day off, so I have to fill in for him.

After work, I got thinking about my existence. I'm realizing that my job is very dull and boring and so is the place I live at. I'm feeling like I can't go on with it. But I it's going to be a tremendous risk to chuck it all and move on. So I don't know.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling pretty good tonight. I've been keeping busy with fun activities.

[sky457]

I dont know what to do about her....I keep looking for texts....I regret ending things...but the distance was too much for both of us

[jrae]

what's the point of even talking anymore if no one talks back!?!?! just wanna crawl back into the hole and forget about everything..... too back my head hurts too much to sleep decent

[Sunflower123]

Hello all! Checking in. I feel increasingly overwhelmed and unable to fulfill the responsibilities and functions of my daily life. I don’t FEEL anxious or depressed. In fact, I feel nothing at all. Just increasing periods of numbness. It’s disheartening and I’m struggling to find a solution before things get out of hand. Sigh. SAD presenting differently?

Warm wishes to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

The weekend has just started for me. Felt pretty sad when I got home today. Feeling very alone and wondering where my life is going? I got my exercise equipment today, so maybe by Tuesday I'll get going on it and get back into a workout routine. I hope this will work out since this is something different from before.

Nothing planned socially for the next couple of days. I'll be doing my usual cleaning and shopping tomorrow. I love doing those things, but when it's over that's when I really start to feel bad.

[Deilla]

I am a little tired this morning. I'm up early but I went to bed yesterday around 3 pm. I feel Okay emotionally today. I have plans to stay busy.

[mote.of.soul]

Had to come home and close the door on the world, yet again. I really don't cope well sometimes - or maybe that is coping. *sigh*

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear mote.of.soul, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I know what you mean. Maybe you can just watch the birds through a window. Lots of hugs to you!!

[Sunflower123]

Today makes the third time I couldn’t make the trip to see M. I asked if we could meet in a town much closer to me tomorrow morning. Just really not functioning. Hopefully, I can make it tomorrow and things will turn around. It’s supposed to be a beautiful day.

Warm wishes to all.

I am really sinking this time. Taking day off. Not going to class. I think it is a reflection day. I am thinking about jobs, my upcoming course, updating my resume, calling places to get quotes for my car.

I feel so burdened by the journey of growing up alone. I feel empty. Others speak about family, traditions, what their mom cooks, how their parents feel about dating, etc. I have nothing in regard to that and it seems like I am isolated by a lack of experience with others. people interpret this as coldness, and perhaps I have really grown into it. I am really struck by the amount of people who say they like people because they are outgoing or bubbly. seems if you have a quieter personality or are shy it means you are unfriendly. I am really struck by the fact that when someone is maybe shy or too awkward to say hello, it is interpreted as rudeness and being stuck up. I had this conversation with people and said I think it is due to awkwardness--I have experience feeling too awkward to speak to people! It is not due to being stuck up. I am just so terrified that people jump to the worse conclusion that an action is out of malice, rather than something else.

In general, people at work trigger me.

On the practical side, I have no advice to follow about cars, rent, money, career. I feel alone. My car needs an oil change and new tires and my supervisor at work told me that I can get all my fluids checked by the oil people. I am overwhelmed by this, I don't even know if the car I bought was good. It seems fine, but I don't know. Maybe it was a rip off and it will die in a few short years.

Luckily I got my deposit and utility deposit back so I can afford all this.

Also, I won't lie, I am not going to class because I'm afraid I will have a tire blow out on the highway and my college is very far from where I live.

Typical Saturday once again. Busy in the morning and then nothing much after that. It gets dark pretty early now and I'm still not used to it yet. I got a movie for tonight, like always. One I had seen years ago that I liked, I guess.

I'm feeling bad about my friend. He didn't come over to my place today. I sent him a message asking about "where are we going?". Stuff like that. I'm sure he doesn't appreciate it. It's not just about not coming over. It's other things. He's negative about things and is corrective with me a lot, which is annoying for me. I can take criticisms OK but it seems like he's always doing it. He makes me feel depressed a lot more than he makes me feel better. It's pretty hard to let go an only person in my life.

Also I spent a few minutes getting acquainted with my new exercise equipment. I feel like I need a little more time for it but I have a lot to do tomorrow. So I'll try to squeeze in some time tomorrow.

[3rd rock]

You know, I just don't know.

[jrae]

wishing tomorrow I don't feel as sick as I did today (tonight) - that was not fun

[Sunflower123]

Today was the fourth time I couldn’t make it to see my daughter. I think it’s time to go see my pdoc and to possibly get a traditional tdoc since I’ve almost completely stopped functioning.

Warm regards to all.

A fairly eventful morning for me. Started off doing the laundry. Then I decided to go to a church for the first time in months, although I went to one just less than a month ago when I went away on vacation. I didn't like it right away because the music was too loud. So I ended up not going in. Someone told me about that particular church. I don't know why it was recommended since I had stated that I didn't want to go to one with loud music.

My friend called a couple of times this morning, only to leave messages. He doesn't want to let go. I feel like there's some issues to iron out and I don't know if it's ever going to get better between us. I spoke with my sister also. It went good but she sounded tired.

[kumy]

I'm neutral right now.

[3rd rock]

I've gotten badly out of shape over the past few months. And I eat too poorly. Also book sales have never been so dead. I've got a lot of work left to do.