Very slow day, but that was to be expected. I'm still feeling under the weather, although I do not have a fever. I guess I'm just congested with a cough. There was so much of that going around. The company had a pot-luck. It was not that great, but at least that stupid phone meeting for today was cancelled.

I go to the dentist tomorrow. I think that I should feel healthy enough to be there. Not looking forward to it. Well, who does? At least it will be early in the day.

I don't go back to work until next Thursday, so I have a five-day weekend. And then a two-day work week, and another five-day weekend. And two working days after that. I love that part of it!

[3rd rock]

I really don't want to be working on the fourth book in my series as they're the poorest selling of any books I've written. But since I've got no other ideas at the moment, i have no choice; it's either work on book 4 or don't work, and I can't stand not working.

Very busy day today and not a typical Saturday. I went to the dentist this morning. Not as bad as I thought it was but I'd rather have not gone to have that work done. I have a temporary crown put in so I have to be careful of what I eat for a while. That kind of sucks.

The rest of the day was shopping. No cleaning today. It felt like I was constantly on the go all day.

[3rd rock]

Reluctantly, I have started working on the fourth book in my war-story series. I don't want to work on it, but until and unless I can decide on something else worthwhile to work on, I have no choice. It's either work on the war-story series, or don't work. And I hate not having a project.

yesterday I watched the christmas bunny.

I get to watch this film once a year (just once), and yesterday was the day.

it is my favorite christmas movie, but I got quite emotional over it (I always do, it's an emotional movie) but I did enjoy it. it's still really good even after all these years.

it is now almost christmas. despite being really depressed and in a lot of pain (mainly my back), I am reallyooking forward to it- well that's a bit of a lie, I am looking forward to watching christmas carol on christmas day, more than the actual holiday itself, part of me just wants it to be over (the part of me that realises that the only person I'll be talking to on christmas day is myself)

hope you all have a good christmas

[OliverB]

Feeling hopelessness while wanting to cry but I have so much energy I just want to run. I end up paralized by so many feelings.

[Breaking Dawn]

@raging vortex , MERRY CHRISTMAS to you!!

[downandlonely]

Think I'm coming down with something. My throat is sore. Plus I have my period.

[Breaking Dawn]

@OliverB , PEACE to you.

[Breaking Dawn]

@downandlonely , I hope you feel better soon.

[Rose76]

Doing okay.

[downandlonely]

Thank you @Breaking Dawn. I am already feeling better.

[Breaking Dawn]

@downandlonely , I'm so glad you're starting to feel better. I'm sending you wishes filled with loving energy. Happy holidays!

Today was a fairly good day and very busy. I did some cleaning in the morning. Normally, that's what I do on Saturdays but I did it today because I went to the dentist yesterday.

My little cold that I got last week is about all over with. It was a small cold but a big nuisance. So many other people in my area came down with the same kind of thing. My friend called me this morning and he seems to be coming down with it now.

My sister called this morning. We had a pretty good talk.

It's supposed to rain in the next couple of days starting tomorrow. Today it was threatening to rain but it never came. I took a two and half hour bike ride today. Right now the skies are clear, so it's hard to believe that a lot of rain is coming. I'm off from work until Thursday, so I hope it doesn't rain much while I'm off.

I’m ok. I’m going home Tuesday night. My period is late and I’m feeling bloated. I’ve been stress eating more in anticipation so that doesn’t help. I’ll probably get my period at home which won’t be fun at all. My coworker told me to get over it. Sigh... I’ve really been working on boundaries and trying to sense when people aren’t safe to speak to. I think I’m getting better at it....

[mote.of.soul]

Been finding it difficult lately to maintain a positive, healthy attitude. It feels more and more to be a mask covering up, or perhaps keeping under control, my real authentic self who is like a negative, detached zombie. Bleh, I'm going to have a drink tomorrow, blow it. It's Christmas.

[Breaking Dawn]

Hmmmm...., a,....,well, um.....I'm a...?

Today is the first of many days off from work. Been raining most of the day. Pretty busy as I've been making a batch of spaghetti sauce in the morning. After that I went to visit my friend, but didn't stay very long. It was nice at first as his wife wasn't there. He's slightly under the weather. After about a half an hour, all kinds of people came. A casual acquaintance came unannounced as he dropped off some cookies; and, as expected, his son and daughter came. I left very shortly after that. I felt kind of bad about myself for not staying to socialize with them. I didn't know them very well and it seemed like there was too much going on for me.

I hope to go for an hour bike ride today. Right now it's stopped raining and looks like it's going to clear up a bit. But it's been that way all day, so far. It looks good and then the rains come.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by mote.of.soul

Been finding it difficult lately to maintain a positive, healthy attitude. It feels more and more to be a mask covering up, or perhaps keeping under control, my real authentic self who is like a negative, detached zombie. Bleh, I'm going to have a drink tomorrow, blow it. It's Christmas.

Hugs, I hope you enjoy your drink . My authentic self isn’t detached or a zombie I don’t think,.. but it’s hard to maintain a healthy and positive attitude sometimes for me due to ...

I and many of us will be with you in spirit when you’re having your drink (and in general too). Thanks for all the kind and thoughtful support you offer here and I love your posts about nature and other thought provoking posts

And the bear pictures you post

[Rose76]

I've been doing really well, moodwise. No depression. House looks clean, neat and pretty. I've been getting out of bed early and tackling things, catching up. But, today, my bf seems rather unwell. I just pray I get the wisdom to do what's best for him. I have sufficient reason to take him to the ER, but he really doesn't want to go. I don't have the heart to force him. We were there just a few weeks ago. I hope I'm not wrong in going along with him. Sometimes there just is no clear path forward. Sometimes logic doesn't yield a decision. You just have to guess and take a chance.

For now, I'm okay. I may be on the verge of my life changing drastically. I do have faith that I'll cope with being alone when that happens.

Kind of a dull day today so far. It least it's partly cloudy outside and not raining like yesterday. I sure hope that tomorrow will be like now. Nothing planned for today and tonight, except for a bike ride.

Feeling fairly bad about myself today. I guess it's because of the stigma of being "one of those" rare persons who are going to be alone for Christmas. It's like being a "loser" kind of feeling.

[giddykitty]

^Hugs

I'm just messing everything up! I can't even talk right! My priorities are whack! I should be focusing on this upcoming trip and enjoying my hubby s vacation time. Instead, I'm feeling lazy and wanting to be sucked in online. Maybe I should post in the internet addiction thread. I hate myself! Sigh!

I went on a three hour bike ride today. At least the weather held up. It was mostly cloudy. Feeling very blue right now. When I got back from the bike ride, I wanted to take a nap but couldn't because there seemed to be some kind of work going on in the next unit from me. It was annoying trying to sleep with grinding and some banging noise at the wall. I really hate apartment living. My friend called when I was out on my bike. But then he just called and had to rush off.

[Rose76]

I ended up bringing my bf to the hospital. He got admitted. I'm staying with him. He's doing fairly okay. I was doing good myself. But now I'm at a nearby restaurant having some food, and I got kind of upset. Have to go back now.

[mote.of.soul]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Hugs, I hope you enjoy your drink . My authentic self isn’t detached or a zombie I don’t think,.. but it’s hard to maintain a healthy and positive attitude sometimes for me due to ...

I and many of us will be with you in spirit when you’re having your drink (and in general too). Thanks for all the kind and thoughtful support you offer here and I love your posts about nature and other thought provoking posts

And the bear pictures you post

Aaw, yes. Thank you so much Fuzzy, I really appreciate that. Very heartwarming, my dear. I'm so happy for your presence here too, in many many ways. I had my drinks today and I was happy. I just hope I don't keep going down that path, day in and day out, haha. I love you dear Fuzzy, thank you so much and Merry Christmas to you and Papa Bear.