Today felt like a Friday. Well, it kind of is as I will off work tomorrow and the weekend. I felt OK but thoughts seem to come in to my mind about how people have not treated me well.

[Rose76]

got discharged. home now. felt good all day.

I had an okay morning, started the day in very little pain so showered, painted my nails, did my hair, (self-care activities), but then even though I did all that, it then dawned on me that I had no reason too, and the pain level started to creep back up from the shower, and I just felt bad (still not has bad as yesterday, yesterday it was so bad I was even unable to eat!)

then someone emailed me if I had any weekend plans and I'm like, nope. just sat here

so basically wasted my day, though the shower was needed lol

[Breaking Dawn]

God bless you @Rose76 & @raging vortex!

I had the day off today. But this morning when I was out and about, I saw the US Mail trucks delivering; and I thought I may have mistaken today for a holiday. This morning I had my car serviced and a smog check. Nothing much else after that.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed again.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm glad that Friday is over. This morning seemed to be weird as there were some confusion as to where and when to wear a mask at work. At where I work they just started to have guidelines about mask wearing. Also, I had kept the masks in a cabinet in the room I work in and it's with some reams of paper. The maintenance man had come in the room before I got there to get some masks. He noticed that some mice had gotten into the cabinet. They had chewed up some paper. I didn't notice that when I had put the masks in a couple of weeks ago.

It seems pretty noisy tonight at my place. I think there's one guy who is talking on a cell phone. He's pretty loud and I don't like him that much.

I'm sorry about your mask.

I am finally going to make that birthday card today

I have said I'll do it this evening. I have all the stuff in the house so no excuse

I think she'll love it, especially when she realises that it's all me, their's no standard messages or anything like that, all my idea.

pirate themed- ahar!

[Breaking Dawn]

Just a few moments ago I fulfilled another goal! I have many more ahead of me. Onward & upward!

Got up a little bit earlier this morning. I went to the store where I normally shop at and it was closed. I felt like an idiot when I got there. So I went to another store just to pick up a few things that I need for tonight. I feel like I've had to pay extra money to get what I need just for today because of my store being closed.

Very busy with cleaning and laundry. All of the work is all over now and nothing much else for the rest of the day. I have to go shopping tomorrow morning. I had initially planned to do nothing for tomorrow morning, but forget it now! I'll have to get up early tomorrow morning to beat the crowds. I didn't want to get up early tomorrow morning for anything but now I have to. Damn it!

doing nothing today apart from watching tv.

boring, boring, boring, boring

[Breaking Dawn]

Well, I'm like the little engine going up the hill, I think I can, I think I can....

I got up early to go shopping this morning. It was nice that there were no lines to get in and the store was very well stocked. The workers at that store told me that it was the first time they have ever closed on the 4th.

As of now, it's early, so not much to do. I plan on a longer bike ride after lunch. It's pretty hot outside now.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I am finally going to make that birthday card today

I have said I'll do it this evening. I have all the stuff in the house so no excuse

I think she'll love it, especially when she realises that it's all me, their's no standard messages or anything like that, all my idea.

pirate themed- ahar!

That sound awesome.

[Buffy01]

Everything feel horrible today. I been feeling really down.

[88Butterfly88]

My anxiety is causing depression today, it's like I am beginning to get depressed about being anxious so often.

[3rd rock]

I think I've finally realized why my books don't sell. It's because my stories are boring, poorly written, and basically unreadable. Too bad I can't write any other way.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear @3rd rock, You have to write! You know that! There are readers who want your kind of writing. And you're growing & learning all the time. Please keep writing. I feel you are meant to do that. God bless you!

emotionally empty.

I am about to start another week with absolutely nothing going on, and it really sucks

plus side today is that as yet I've not been in severe physical pain, and it makes so much diffrence when you can start the day and not scream in agony

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I think I've finally realized why my books don't sell. It's because my stories are boring, poorly written, and basically unreadable. Too bad I can't write any other way.

what are your stories about?

[shovelhead]

I remember being happy & having hope, at one point, consistently. Feels like 100 years ago. I don't think its ever going to come back.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

what are your stories about?

Mostly they are literary fiction, stories about people who are struggling to find their way in life or have difficult relationships. I also write some war stories.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Dear @3rd rock, You have to write! You know that! There are readers who want your kind of writing. And you're growing & learning all the time. Please keep writing. I feel you are meant to do that. God bless you!

Thank you for your encouragement.

Back to work after a very busy weekend. Very slow and it's going to be that way for a very long time, it looks like. It can even look like I'll be in "cruise control" with my job until I retire. The contract is supposed to end either by this September or December. The contract has gone to another company; but we don't know if any of us will be hired by that company. It feels like the company I work for now is going to just bleed itself out.

Slow boring day at work again, though the morning was just fairly busy. I got upset this afternoon when I was walking by the security area; and as I was walking by, I had my hand in my pocket. Just a habit of mine, I guess, that I don't realize that I do. The woman guard saw me and said, "guys who put their hands in their pockets do it because they want to be taller". I don't know why she would say that to me. I'm not a real tall guy, but I'm not short either. Some people have said that I was short and it hurts me. I'm confused about that woman because she can be very nice to me and has helped me when I was in a crisis. But sometimes she'll say a joke that can be hurtful.

[3rd rock]

I had to get up at 5 this morning. I'm very tired. Seeing as I'm not the napping type, I'll have to wait until the sun sets after 9 tonight to get some sleep.