I feel really really bad now

I am 48, almost in constant pain no cure, dying for some sleep but can not sleep. My body is betraying me. I can' t sleep it's 5am still awake, however I lie something hurts. I am so alone, no one likes me, no one loves me. I am old and ugluer by day, in more pain (phyisical) each year. Doctors can not help me, maybe if I had a lot a lot of money for some expensive treatments, I don't.
No one ever loved me. I can't sleep. I really need sleep. My neck hurts so bad, my leg hurts, i feel sick all the time. I can't cope with this. It would be eadier if I could jzst sleep. If this pain goes away at least for some time. Realky tired.
Ypu lnow this is one way to torture people? No sleep, alone, tired, in pain, poor, no hope...
I don't think there is anything anyone can say to meke me feel better. No hope.

Do something nice for yourself. Maybe try sitting meditation while working muscles in your back, light stretches to open up your core and drink a cold drink to refresh yourself. Pain sucks. My body sees daily pain too. If it’s not one thing it’s another thing. Nothing too bad, some throbbing, tingling or general irritation. I’ve recently been getting light rashes too. Daily changes, as small as they can be, make a difference over time. There really is no need for expensive treatments when you take your own time to work on your “problem areas”. Chances are other people focus on the good they see and focus more on who you are as a person. I always feel better after a good meal and rest.