Depression Vent Room for Misfits

Hi. I too would love a misfit category. Been diagnosed with bi-polar & Anxiety for years, meds don’t seem to help nor does therapy. This makes me very angry because I can’t find a way to fix myself. Exercise used to work but effect doesn’t last that long anymore & no I haven’t stoped trying. It feels like I’m bashing my head against the wall. I hate asking for help & not knowing how to fix my own problems. Sorry for the rant. I wish there was a place where I could vent some of the anger at myself for feeling like S#%t!

I had a hard time with my depression this morning. I've been struggling to sleep tonight. And I just told myself, "Enough is enough!" I wanted to call it quits and just evaporate into nothingness. But I kept on keeping on. That's all I have. My will to try to improve my circumstances. I think today I will go easy on myself and just rest when I can. I will try to do nice things for myself. And I will make the best of a difficult situation. Wishing everyone here the best.

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time, @Deilla. I'm praying for you. God bless you!

Grrrrr. I wish they would stop screaming at me

I'm also wishing, @Fuzzybear, that they will stop screaming at you!

Sometimes, it seems, all there is left is to just keep putting one foot in front of the other. As my father always used to say many years ago: "You're not required to like it. You're just required to do it." I've taken that as my mantra.

I am definitely a misfit. All my life I have felt like I was on the outside looking in at people living their lives and having a good time. I can feel lonely in a crowded room. I have been through several therapists and shrinks. I have been diagnosed as Schizoid, Anti-Social Personality Disorder, Dystymic Depression, Reactive Attachment Disorder, Asperger, just to name a few. So I am definitely a misfit since no one can figure out what I am.

For the last few months I have been feeling depressed about getting old. My birthday is coming up and I will be 70. I look at all the young people, especially the young women and realize that at my age I will never ever have a relationship with them. One another forum I wrote about this and was told I would just have to have relationships with women my age.


Good idea but there is a problem. Back when I was 42 I met a 19 year old Bi Goth Witch and she got me into the Goth Scene, and into Pagan religions and current music. She about killed me trying to keep up with her, but ever since, I find that women my age are sticks in the mud. They are stuck in the 60's and early 70's and would rather die than go to a Goth Club. And since I am into Goth Music, Folk Metal, Death Metal Viking metal and pretty much everything but most Rap although there were a few Rap artists I like finding a woman my age with my taste in music and lifestyle is impossible.

Plus most women my age are my age. Old, wrinkled, and most women my age are fat and stuck in their ways. I miss the young adventurous girls I used to have relationships with. They were pretty much open to try everything and anything.

But that is all over now and has been for the last 10 years. Back in the middle 2000's I finally bit the bullet and met a woman online, she was 5 years younger than me. I was 60 at the time and she was 55. She was not the typical woman I would have wanted but I figured I would stick it out. The biggest thing about her she wasn't fat. She had a fair figure. Not particularly pretty but OK. We got married so she could have health insurance. Our sex life was good, up until I got sick and ended up with ED which totally blew our sex life.


We talked it over and she told me that she was actually tired of sex and just put up with it for me. She told me she started having sex at 14 and by 18 had over 50 different partners and by the time she got with me she had close to 200. She figured settling down with one guy would give her a break. So...that sucks.

Anyway so here I am now, with no sex, looking at all the sweet young things and wishing.... So that is what my depression is about...mostly....

I've been exceptionally busy the past couple of days. I'm just so tired it's difficult to even think straight or focus on threads here on PC. Hope everyone is well though. Please keep the misfits thread going!

Hugs and respect to all

I am not my best self lately. I also have practically no energy. I'm feeling very sad right now, & emotionally, mentally, & physically exhausted. I have so many things to do that I'm neglecting, so I feel extremely disappointed in myself. But I do believe I'm going to be all right. The pandemic is probably part of it. I'm sorry. And I know you go through a lot. So I don't want to complain. I try very hard. But I fail sometimes. Thank you for wanting to post here. It helps me, too. Hugs to you!

The ********

It is almost driving me ''insane''

I come to pc to get away from ''it''

But i ''fail'' at that too

lIstening to MUSIC

and STAYING AWAY FROM ''THE NEWS''



keeps me as sane as I sometimes am



Hugs, love and respect to all

Dancing helps me too

And did i say

DO NOT LISTEN TO ''THE NEWS''
GGGGrrrrrr


I am a misfit in this ****ed up world, fer sure

I'm so sorry, @Fuzzybear!! I worry about this! God bless you, dear friend!

much love to you @Breaking Dawn

I was in a group for ''christian ladies'' once

I did not comply ''well enough'' with the very strict rules

I was only kicked out for one week. Then I was allowed back

In the end the deputy founder deleted the whole group

and...

IT WAS NOT MY FAULT

love and respect to all

Hugs to all!

I agree with Skeezyks that this is a great thread! Hugs to all who are struggling. With Christmas season around the corner, a fact about some of my favorite misfits:

In the original script, while Rudolph, Hermey and Yukon Cornelius promise to visit the Island of Misfit Toys and bring them back, they never do so. After the special aired, Rankin-Bass were inundated with angry letters from kids demanding that the Misfit Toys be helped. To console the children, they produced a short scene where Rudolph, Santa, and the rest of the reindeer arrive on the Island and deliver the Misfits to new homes. This scene has shown on TV since 1965. Power to the little ones!

(10 Things You Didn't Know About 'Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer' | 10 Things You Didn'''t Know About '''Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer''')

Thank you & God bless you, @TunedOut!!

I feel angry and hurt. I just found out that my sister J is spending Thanksgiving with my mom. I asked both of them what they were doing for the holidays. My sister J didn't mention my mom. She just said she's going hiking and she will eat rice and tuna. Well, when I asked my mom, my mom said that J is coming over and they're going hiking. She's going to cook her rice and tuna. So, J lied to me. I'm not invited. And to make matters worse, neither one asked about my plans. I have a ****** family!

''the ugly duckling''

that is me

The ugly duckling grew into a beautiful swan.

Love and hugs to all

I just saw this thread. Thank you for starting it Breaking Dawn. I’m definitely a misfit as my diagnosis is in question. This is great!

Love and hugs to you. I love the pic!