[pegasus]

Apparently you are not allowed to do a suicidal post here but what if that is how you feel?

I've got to the end of my tether, I've had enough.

I'm sick of feeling like this.

I'm sick of pretending everything is alright.

I'm sick of pretending I'm something I'm not.

I'm sick of trying...

[Fuzzybear]

PM me if you need to, thinking of you dear winged friend ((((((((((( pegasus )))))))))))

[ECHOES]

those kinds of thoughts are a way of saying just how very bad we're feeling.

what you seem to really want is to feel better.

[mrsmoggles]

I am sorry you are feeling so low. I am by no means a therapist or have any training...but from personal experience I have learned some things: 1) you can pull yourself up by the boot straps and say to yourself, I feel bad, now what can I do to feel better? 2) look to another source for some emotional support if you do it on your own 3) If all else fails, and it sometimes will, where you are in a funk and bogged down with no light of day shining on your soul, keep the thought 'this too shall pass', or find another mantra to cling to...

I know all about the pretend thing. Just a bit ago, I went out with hubby and mom and I was dying to stay home cause I didnt want to go out, but did to make them happy...'everything's fine' mode...

((((((((pegasus))))) Don't mean to ramble, which seems my mind keeps doing right now...sorry

mel

[kebsfroggy]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. Waking up each morning is a disappointment because you so don't want to make it through the night. Every day is an endless struggle just to survive and what for?

My heart cries for you my friend. I so wish I had the answer.

[chalmette70043]

((((((((pegasus)))))))))) Just wanted to give you a soft hug. I don't like that place either. Wishing you better thoughts to feel better.

[nowheretorun]

i feel overwhelmed sometimes too.. thats when i have to reach out or just wait it out... its one reason why i love PC... i can make connections to others who feel the way i have..

sometimes the S word is there on the tip of my tongue, but, Doc in his wisdom doesnt let me explore that option here...

whats to explore? i can lead myself to a dead end... why entertain the idea? it helps no one... if anything, it silences a voice and the world suffers because of the silence that replaces a beautiful person...

i will give you hugs and affection Peg, because its how i feel about you... not because i want to stop you from doing something... i dont have that power and i think its another reason the Doc made the rule...

if somebody came here, said they would, and then did... it would wage a huge hurt on those who tried but couldnt stop them...

that is just plain cruel to do to other humans imo...

Yes pegasus.... you are sick and that is why you feel like you do. You are also getting well. Getting better all the time. It is an up and down battle you wage and days like today make it harder to see the progress you've made. But you have made progress. You have learned new skills and acquired new understandings that you apply to your life.

You know when you post here that others will understand the depths of your pain. We encourage you to hang on because we know like you know that good days get thrown in now and then and they give us hope. We see each other getting better and we see each other struggle. We celebrate each others joys and we comfort each others sorrows.

A new day will dawn and the clouds will part and the sun will shine from the deepest places in your heart. You will know joy and that is reason to breath. Reason to care for your body, soul and spirit. Reason to be ready and able to face the good the bad and the ugly everyday.

The end comes soon enough.... I doubt anyone rushes it without regrete. I lost my mom to suicide and while I understand what drove her to it I've no doubt she'd have rather stayed if only she could have mastered the effects of her pain and sorrow.

I pray that we all retain the strength and determination to master the effects of our pain and sorrow. To not fall victim in our moments of weakness but to rise above the pain and sorrow to hope for all things to be made right in its perfect time. To patiently trust and believe and live in accordance to our own hopes and dreams.

Be the dream...... dance in the rain till the rainbow comes.

[Logden]

It's ok to feel that way Pegasas. I think we have all felt that way at times in our lives. That black hole is not a fun place to be in but I've learned something over the years. That hole has sides! I know you can't feel them right now but trust me...they are there. You aren't alone down there and you don't have to pretend to feel something you don't.

It will get better...might take more time than you want it to but it will.

I don't know if there is a hug icon here but I am sending you a hug. (((Pegasas)))

[jacq10]

(((((((((((((Pegasus)))))))))))
I'm sorry your hurting so
I'm only a PM away if you ever want to talk...

Gentle hugs

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{Peg O' My Heart}}}}}}}}}}}

I've been there twice, my friend. The first time, my oldest son walked in while I was gathering my "courage." The second time, the words "cigarette break!" intruded on my thoughts. When I walked out to the enclosure and was handed a cigarette, as I sat down, an angel smiled at me. That smile from a complete stranger was enough to carry me through for the next three days.

Look for a miracle, sweet friend. One is coming your way.

[wickedwings]

i get suicidal, but i don't get suicidal, because i've learned not to pay attention to suicidality. but, i will post my feelings and thoughts. and it doesn't mean i would follow through. of course, i'm careful, as it may be a trigger for others. if it's most triggering, i'd use a trigger icon.

[katheryn]

here is a rainbow to brighten your days sorry you are struggling

[Kellyann]

I am sorry, you are feeling so blue. I really understand where you are coming from. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think about it, but something gets me through those feelings. i am not sure what though. You will also get through these feelings. Yes every day is a struggle, but may you should know that people are there for you. If you need to chat. please contact me, Hang in there

(((((((peg)))))))))))))))
know I care and I really hope things begin to look up
you have made me smile many a day in games
A few times you have made me laugh so hard in the moring have spit coffee on screen
tc my friend
tc of yourself

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( pegasus )))))))))))))

[pegasus]

Thank you to all that replied.

[Perna]

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And you think that is going to stop us from continuing to reply and support you? Good luck with that!

[kebsfroggy]

We want you around full time.

[nowheretorun]

Pegasus

[jacq10]

((((((((((((Pegasus))))))))))))