Nothing much happened to me today. It seemed like the first time since I retired that it was an easy day. Got news from the dermatologist that didn't turn out so great. Well, it was kind of what I expected. But it's still a disappointment. I'll have to meet sometime to see how the treatment will be taken care of. DONG GONG IT!

Originally Posted by will19

Nothing much happened to me today. It seemed like the first time since I retired that it was an easy day. Got news from the dermatologist that didn't turn out so great. Well, it was kind of what I expected. But it's still a disappointment. I'll have to meet sometime to see how the treatment will be taken care of. DONG GONG IT!

At the time I had put that post up, I just got an email message about my result. This morning I got a call from an assistant to the dermatologist (I guess she was in that position). She couldn't speak very clearly, I thought, and seemed a little bit flaky. She told that the the dermatologist has referred me to a Nose, Ear, and Throat specialist and they will call me to set an appointment. I wonder why I'm being referred there? I've never had that happen before when I was seeing other dermatologists. They haven't called yet.

Other than that, today was a pretty sucky day. I got into a fight with my sister when she called me. She seems to have a way to antagonize me a lot. I took a long bike ride today and didn't feel much better afterwards. I took a nap after the ride and got roused from the sleep with the phone ringing. And then tonight, my favorite shows were not on because of a stupid golf game!

[Buffy01]

I been having a lot of bad days lately especially in this pass days. People had been yelling at me a lot lately in this passed week. It has made me feel really depressed.

[Mountaindewed]

I just wish my Pdoc hadn’t brought up possibly meeting with my old T again. I was getting really good at forgetting about her until he mentioned it. I kind of feel like that Lady Gaga song that goes “I’ve gotten a hundred million reasons to walk away, but I just need one good one to stay.” I don’t think I’ve ever felt this confused about someone who really isn’t good for my mental health.

I just cleaned my place today and that's it. But I also went to the store where I went shopping yesterday to pick up something that I needed and forgot to get yesterday. Very busy in the morning, but I seem to have a lot of time on my hands in the afternoon.

Early this morning (around 1:30 AM) there was some kind of commotion going on at my small apartment complex. I don't know what it was about. There was a guy near my unit on the phone, maybe he was talking to the police. I asked him what was going on. He told me that there's a guy after him. The guy after him was pounding on the front gate, making a lot of noise. Up to now, I haven't heard what happened. There's been some strange things going on at my apartment complex lately.

[Rose76]

I have felt pretty good all day.

[Deilla]

My life is pointless. I'm physically disabled and I can't get anyone to help me. No matter how many doctor appointments I have, nothing gets better.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

My life is pointless. I'm physically disabled and I can't get anyone to help me. No matter how many doctor appointments I have, nothing gets better.

I'm so sorry things are this way right now, Deilla. Maybe pretty soon things will start to change for the better. I hope.

I have not thought about father's day as much as I thought I would do, so that's a positive about today. it's almost over, and I've not thought of it once (accept for when I just talked about it on here.)

feel like the whole world's against me though and certain things in my life, people are just not on my side.. it sucks and makes me feel abandoned and I've been struggling with the feeling of abandonment a lot

[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, @raging vortex, how about it's ok to think about our celestrial Father? And also, don't forget that many of us here ARE on your side.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Hi, @raging vortex, how about it's ok to think about our celestrial Father? And also, don't forget that many of us here ARE on your side.

I'm not sure why, but you just made me think of how long will I love you- the song by ellie goulding (children in need single). their's a line in that song that goes, how long will I love you, as long as your father told you, it's nice...

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I'm not sure why, but you just made me think of how long will I love you- the song by ellie goulding (children in need single). their's a line in that song that goes, how long will I love you, as long as your father told you, it's nice...

Yes, she's singing to her children, whom she loves very much. Very sweet. Take care, @raging vortex.

Fairly busy today but nothing too exciting. My sister called but we just briefly talked. Took a long bike ride. My friend told me that he spoke to someone that we both know and inquired with him about skin cancer. That other man has had quite a few of them like I've had. The other man said that he had one spot near his ear and he had to go to an ear, nose, and throat specialist to have it done. The reason for him going to the EN&T specialist was because the procedure had to be careful, being near the ear, so that a nerve would not be cut off and cause damage to his hearing. My spot is near the chin, but there may be a reason I have to go to a EN&T specialist.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m doing pretty good depression wise. I haven’t been dwelling on therapy as much as I did Wednesday- Saturday. I wonder if my increase in lamictal is helping.

I did do a bit of retail therapy but I never let it get out of control. I spent about $56 on stuff today and I got dinner too. But I had the money and I used debit instead of credit.

My mom wants me to get out more and I don’t know what to do besides go to stores. Maybe go on a walk or something. In about 12 days I can start doing heavy workouts.

[Deilla]

I feel okay. I have been busy all night. I'm getting ready to go to bed.

[Rose76]

Felt calm and peaceful today. Cooking now.

[jmariah001]

I've been struggling with insomnia and I think it's making me feel depressed. I haven't slept a regular night in weeks. I'm exhausted. I do have a phone appointment with my pdoc in a week. I can tell her about my sleeping problems. Just been rough.

[Deilla]

I feel tired and my stomach is upset. I think I will take some medicine and go to bed.

I rely so much on tv, I really do

today, a nikilodion show that I liked (spyders) came to the end of it's second season, and while they've left it open for a third season (in fact they ended on a cliffhanger), I was really sad and broke down crying- it's about some people who solve a mystery, that's all it is for half an hour a day) but I miss it. all ready

I want spyders back blah!

I am getting my baby box on friday, but I am no longer looking forward to it. I suppose with all the poor eating, lack of sleep, abandonment,, seeing a baby doll with a bottle in her mouth isn't exactly the solution to all my problems

but I have wanted this for so long, so hopefully when it does come I will actually use it and not throw it in a corner

[Mountaindewed]

I’m a bit down in the dumps regarding losing my insurance. Although there are quite a few providers who take my new insurance. I thought I’d have about 10 to choose from or just be assigned someone. Some on the list look pretty good too. Just starting over with everything is a pain.

But I am super happy with how things are turning out after my surgery.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am definitely dealing with some challenges, & there are moments when it feels like way too much to handle. I cry & plead to my brain for assistance. Then other moments give me a break for a while & I find myself in a good mood, even enjoying those moments. Ups & downs, like this thread's title.

[Mountaindewed]

I seem to have moved on by being ghosted by 2 therapists at one time. I don’t know. Maybe that last one really did take it personally. I ate kinda healthy today. At least food wise. I had a lot of vegetables. So maybe that’s why I wasn’t completely up the wall. Also my favorite show started a new season.

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be doing better today.

[Rose76]

Yesterday was pretty good. I had no motivation today.

[Deilla]

I have a doctor's appointment today. I'm nervous about getting ready. It's taking me some time. I can only do a little bit at a time. Now I have to find my new socks. They're in one of the new packages that arrived this week.