Fairly busy today but nothing much to report about. I went grocery shopping just as it opened at 9 AM and it was crowded for the second time in a row. The parking lot was almost full. What's going on? Since I've retired last June, I've been picking the time to go shopping at 9 AM on Fridays and it had always been easy. Now it's different. At the store I over bought and forgot a couple of items. So in the early afternoon I returned the items not needed and picked up what I forgot. They were very nice to me about it.

I'm still not feeling great emotionally. I recently let go of my only friend that I had. I got a message from my old college friend and he mentioned that he's going to his sister's place for Thanksgiving. It seems like everyone I know are going to be with others, except for me. It doesn't make me feel good about this.

One nice thing about not working now is that I don't have to field questions about what I'm going to do on the holidays.

[Deilla]

Went to the food bank and got a turkey. My mom's going to cook it. I'll go to her house for Thanksgiving. We got some other nice things. It was a good trip. I got lots of fruit. So I feel pretty good. I gave my mom the stuff I can't eat because of my diabetes.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Went to the food bank and got a turkey. My mom's going to cook it. I'll go to her house for Thanksgiving. We got some other nice things. It was a good trip. I got lots of fruit. So I feel pretty good. I gave my mom the stuff I can't eat because of my diabetes.

@Deilla, I am so happy for you!!!

Was busy with cleaning this morning and then did some light shopping in the early afternoon. That's it. I was surprised that it wasn't busy at the store I went to. I got in and out quickly. I always feel pretty good on Saturday mornings when I clean because my mind is on doing something and I play some great music while doing it. After that, I always feel let down.

I'm having some remorse about letting my only friend go. I've let him go before but ended up taking him back. And when I took him back, I had always ended up sorry that I did. I'm feeling guilty because he's probably feeling bad. But he has a lot more going for him socially than I do. That seems to be the way it is; whenever I lose someone, the other person always ends up doing well while I end up not well.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm having a real struggle at this moment. But I'm working on it in every way I can think of.

[Deilla]

@Breaking Dawn, I hope you find a good solution. I'm sending positive thoughts your way. Best wishes to you.

[Deilla]

I'm a little anxious this morning. It's been one thing after another. Now I want to go on a drive. I'm anxious about getting out. Maybe I didn't get enough sleep last night. My Klonopin isn't helping. I have nothing else to try. I did EFT Tapping. That helped some but it's not enough. Maybe I will just relax this morning and take a nap.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm a little anxious this morning. It's been one thing after another. Now I want to go on a drive. I'm anxious about getting out. Maybe I didn't get enough sleep last night. My Klonopin isn't helping. I have nothing else to try. I did EFT Tapping. That helped some but it's not enough. Maybe I will just relax this morning and take a nap.

Thank you, @Deilla, for your kind wishes! And I'm sending you my wishes for relieving your situation too!

Not much of a day today. My sister called me this morning. We didn't say much to each other and it didn't take much time for her to drift off into sleep while on the phone with me. Why does she have to call me when she's not really up for it? It doesn't do me a favor. This happens a lot with her. She's always telling me that she's busy and tired. I get sick of it.

Other than that I worked out, did some light errands, and went on a short bike ride. My left side from the rear end to knee hurt. I went into the Jacuzzi at where I live tonight and it helped the pain out a lot.

[Deilla]

I just did my grocery shopping for the week. I feel good that I got everything I wanted. I'm going to rest now. I might take a nap.

[Rose76]

I've been feeling very upbeat for quite awhile now, like a few weeks. That's a pretty good run for me. I need to work on physical fitness. If I improve on that, I'll really be doing the best I've done in 2 years.

[Deilla]

I'm relaxing this morning. I was listening to an Audible book on anxiety, but now I'm posting and drinking iced coffee. I'll go back to bed soon.

Been feeling blue all day. I don't think it's going to be better by tomorrow.

[T4bbyCat]

Thanksgiving almost here. At this point, unfortunately, I already see the drudgery of the new year starting up again. The longer you live, the more you realize that things just repeat themselves and you might as well skip through them.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed lately. I’m trying to fight the depression which has been hard. My family keep leaving me out on vacation as well as other activity.

[Deilla]

I had a nice day with my family today. I even got to chat on the phone with one of my sisters. It was great!

I survived this Thanksgiving alone this year and now it's over. It turned out to be a pretty good day for me after all. I was very depressed this morning and part of the afternoon. Some people made it nice for me. My brother called this morning and I had not heard from him in about three months. My sister called in the middle of the afternoon. It went alright. I took a one hour bike ride after talking to me sister. And when I got back, my old college friend called and we had a nice chat. I didn't expect to hear from him, but deep down in my mind I was hoping he would call me, and he did!

For the first time in three years I prepared a Thanksgiving dinner for myself this time. In the other three years previously I got take-outs. It seemed like getting the take outs were a hassle. I was unsure how my dinner would come out, but it came out great. I wasn't too focused on preparing the dinner because my friend had called and we talked while I was cooking it. I had a Cornish game hen, by the way! The only drawback was that I didn't make stuffing because I didn't have any bread on hand. There wouldn't have been much stuffing anyways because that bird was so small.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I had a nice day with my family today. I even got to chat on the phone with one of my sisters. It was great!

I'm so glad for you, dear Deilla!

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by will19

I survived this Thanksgiving alone this year and now it's over. It turned out to be a pretty good day for me after all. I was very depressed this morning and part of the afternoon. Some people made it nice for me. My brother called this morning and I had not heard from him in about three months. My sister called in the middle of the afternoon. It went alright. I took a one hour bike ride after talking to me sister. And when I got back, my old college friend called and we had a nice chat. I didn't expect to hear from him, but deep down in my mind I was hoping he would call me, and he did!

For the first time in three years I prepared a Thanksgiving dinner for myself this time. In the other three years previously I got take-outs. It seemed like getting the take outs were a hassle. I was unsure how my dinner would come out, but it came out great. I wasn't too focused on preparing the dinner because my friend had called and we talked while I was cooking it. I had a Cornish game hen, by the way! The only drawback was that I didn't make stuffing because I didn't have any bread on hand. There wouldn't have been much stuffing anyways because that bird was so small.

I felt glad for you while reading this. I felt that you have more than you think you want. And I can relate. I spent my blessed holiday alone with my voices, who are not my friends, but I got to be myself, alone, so to speak.

[Deilla]

I'm a little stressed today. I have chores and I don't have the energy for them. I am trying my best. I hope to relax soon.

Yesterday was a typical day. One thing that happened that was odd was my ex-friend's son called me suggested that I should at least send my ex-friend an email saying how I'm doing. According to him, my ex-friend feels really bad that we split up. It was hard talking to the son about all of this since I've never spoken to him before.

Nothing much planned for today. I'll see what unfolds for today. Lately things seem to be going on more than before, so that's kind of exciting.

[Deilla]

I had a good day but it's late now. This is when I get sad. I guess I can take my nighttime meds and go to bed.

[Buffy01]

I have been feeling really down. Lately people have been taking their anger out on me which has been hurting my feelings lately.

[Deilla]

I feel okay. It's late. I haven't slept much. I feel like being active now while I feel good and then I'll sleep later.

I really want people to stop going on about, I'm spending christmas with family, I'm going round a friends, I'm going to have lots of gifts and a big party

woop dee doo. I'm spending christmas alone, with no gifts and no party. sooo