[Rose76]

Thank you so much @Breaking Dawn. This was such a breakthrough. The bed was getting to be a magnet. I got to make a goal for tomorrow.

in quite a bit of pain from my shower today

body hurts all over

so.. not help with my all ready depressed mood caused by not having a good meal, not having any sleepp, and not having anything to do for the last week or so.

[Pinny]

Im so sorry @raging vortex that sounds awful!

I hope the pain eases, even just a little, for you.
Sending lots of warm wishes and hugs your way

[Pinny]

I think things are continuing to improve for me, Im feeling increasingly anxious but less low, suicidal and less "not giving a ****".
The anxiety is pretty bad, especially about work. Im going to do some work on Sunday when Im back home to try and ease my anxiety a little. Just respond to emails and write/ forward some notes etc.

Hopefully things continue to improve.

I am sending everyone warm wishes and hugs

[Yzen]

I feel down this morning. I didn't sleep well. We had heavy winds that woke me a few times and then I woke up another time with a sensation that the right side of my face was burning. I guess I was dreaming because when I got up later, my face was ok although I did have a headache.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm sort of ok right now.

[Pinny]

Thats positive @Breaking Dawn , I hope it continues and I hope it gets even better!

Im hyper anxious just now, Im so tired but my mind is in overdrive. Im going to try some yoga to calm down a bit.
Its probably about the wedding show Im going to tomorrow (and work, of course).
Im so worried I will see someone I know or I will make a fool of myself or someone will judge me. Why do I even care?!

Today was a pretty good day emotionally, though a couple of my lingering problems have not been solved yet. One problem is on the way being solved and that's the W-2. I called this morning and was told that it was mailed out yesterday and, this time, it's going to my home address instead of the former work address like before. Unfortunately this coming Monday is a holiday so no mail delivery, which would have been possible to get it. Gosh darn!

I went shopping this morning and ended up not spending as much as I thought I would. But the store didn't have a couple of items I wanted. That's the way it is these days with the shipment problems we're having.

And I spoke to the Oncologist after shopping. It went well and he's very nice. However, he had suggested I still take a drug that I'm not crazy about.

yesterday it was mcdonalds day, and it was quite enjoyable

so what if it's not the healthiest thing in the world. I've not eaten properly all week so don't really see it as junkfood. plus: my week has been crap, so Ineed a break, an if that comes in the form of food in a plastic box, well..

[Breaking Dawn]

I've been trying to figure things out. Not much sleep.

Kind of a nothing day so far. Feeling slightly under the weather as for some things that happened to me early today. I didn't sleep well (about 2 hours of sleep), have a headache, and a sore spot on the mid-back section. About the mid-back pain, it just happened suddenly and out of the blue when I walked over to the table with a breakfast plate in my hand and about to sit down. It was very painful at first, but now the pain subsided. It's weird how I didn't do anything strenuous and out of the ordinary. It just happened quickly and I panicked thinking it was something serious. Well it's happened before.

I got up very early and finished the cleaning very early. So a lot of day left with nothing much to do .

[Cocosurviving]

Ups and downs

Downs
I was symptomatic for three weeks. Chronic Illnesses flare up. I attended three medical appointments last week… my primary care, endocrinologist and immunologist. I started another medication to control Hashimotos.

Fibromyalgia
I experienced a week of increased Fibromyalgia pain. I usually have a lot of pain in my legs, arms and tender points in my feet.
I have an appointment in two weeks with my Rheumatologist.

Depression
My depression is usually triggered by my chronic illnesses. I definitely have days I’m so frustrated with being symptomatic. I get upset about having a crapload of medical bills…..so much is not covered by insurance. I’ve applied for Medicaid multiple times and apparently I’m not poor, poor. I keep getting denied.

Venting
In a society that attempts to push toxic positivity on womxn, I’m glad groups and forums exist.
It helps to clear my head and frustrations. It’s a process to brainstorm and figure out solutions.
I really do get exhausted from chronic illnesses, health insurance bs, medical bills and out-of- pocket expenses not covered by health insurance.
It was hard receiving phone calls, letters and e-mails about multiple medical bills. They do not care if you make payments. Most hospitals don’t seem to relate to people who are on a fixed income and want medical bills paid off in 3-4 payments. They definitely fail to comprehend a lot of people with medical bills have several medical bills. I had medical bills sent to collections while I was making payments. I noticed that one hospital
listed the same medical bill twice. I did contact the credit bureaus.

Ups

I decided to space my medical appointments out more. I had appointments with specialists weekly and every two weeks. I started making detailed notes to get the most out of my appointments and having my provider check that I have refills.

When I’m symptomatic I sleep a lot. I took naps and went to bed a lot earlier than usual. I ate a lot of fresh vegetables and fruits.

I enjoy functional paper planning and attending virtual workshops. I use money management sheets to track my medical bills and the payments I make. I include the account numbers.

I pick workshops that interest me and align with the personal growth that I seek.
I popped in last week the last 30 minutes for two workshops (Monday and Thursday). Friday I participated in a full healing *🩹 gathering that lasted about 45 minutes.

I’m still going to bed early. My teenager school district is out of school this week. Parent Teacher conference is next week.

I’m excited that Feb 28th is Rare Disease Day. I have several autoimmune diseases but also have two rare diseases.

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[Cocosurviving]

Morning!

I took a long hiatus from Psych Central.
Does Tapatalk no longer give the option to give hugs ?

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[Rose76]

I'm doing much better.

today has been completely wasted, only reason I'm not asleep is A- I can't because of my imsomnia, B- the storm is loud too.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm in a down phase at the moment.

Dull day today. I've expecting my W-2 to come; and I had it confirmed last week that it should come to my home address this time. As soon as I get it, I want to take it to a (a well-known) tax service immediately since I had my rough draft done weeks ago. There's no mail delivery today because it's a holiday. I needed this holiday like a hole in the head! Back when I was working, I never got President's Day off.

[Pinny]

I felt a bit upset earlier after speaking to my work and occupational health about taking a bit longer off. But Ive calmed down a lot and I think its for the best (at least, thats what Im trying to tell myself).

I have a lot of support around me but I also lack certain types of support that would be hugely beneficial. For example, I have a fiance who is very supportive and who I can talk to about everything, but I have a mum who is emotionally stunted who doesnt want to know anything about my mental health.

I am also managing to keep up my morning and evening routine of cleansing/toning/moisturising my face, along with brushing my teeth, getting dressed, showering etc, which often goes out the window when I feel low.
I got fancy cleanser and moisturiser from tkmaxx with a huge discount

I hope you are all having more ups than downs!

Not a good day today. It's been cold and damp outside for most of the day. I may not do any bike riding at all today. And my W-2 still hasn't arrived. I checked the mail and haven't received it. They told me that it was mailed out last Thursday. I've been waiting a long time for it. I thought today would be the day it would come.

[T4bbyCat]

Not the best of days right now, given the war. Anyone else have family roots in the Ukraine region? It's sort of astounding that war broke out just like that. My grandfather fought in WW2, which is the closest thing to what's happening now, from what I'm hearing. Stay strong, everyone.

[Rose76]

Aches and soreness keep me from doing as much as I would like. But I'm not too discouraged, which is important.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed and down again. I tried distracted myself.

[Sunflower123]

Going through a bad break up. Really struggling. I don’t know how I’ll get through it. My therapist and others warned me that there would be no happily ever after and that I dodged a bullet but still it hurts.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Going through a bad break up. Really struggling. I don’t know how I’ll get through it. My therapist and others warned me that there would be no happily ever after and that I dodged a bullet but still it hurts.

I'm so sorry, Jennifer. I hope the pain will get easier soon. Hugs & love to you.

A busy day. I went to the dentist at 8:45 AM and it didn't take long for the work to be done, so that was nice. I had a filling and a permanent crown put in. I wished that it could have been done on Tuesday because it was a raining all day. Normally I am busy on Fridays with my routine. I am pleased with my dentist.

I didn't workout today because of having the dental procedure. I waited until after 12 to have lunch, which is normally late for me. By then the numbness on my mouth wore off.

In the afternoon I called the company that I used to work for to ask about my W-2, since it still hasn't arrived. I hated to make the call but fortunately I spoke to a nice woman who was very helpful. The headquarters is located in Dallas; and I was told that last week on the day when they sent out my W-2, the area had a severe ice storm, and that could have held things up. Plus the holiday. She verified that it was being sent to my home address this time. Well, maybe tomorrow it will come.