[Mountaindewed]

I’m pretty depressed right now but I can’t pinpoint the exact cause of it. But I do know it’s not my transference T for once.

Fairly busy today. Just worked out in the morning. In the afternoon I went out for a little bit. It seemed like that made me feel better. Having anxiety about the blood/urine test tomorrow morning.

[Kelly68]

Pain is keeping me from sleeping. The doctor is testing my patience, I really need the stuff. One day without it and everything hurts. I can try to distract myself, but phsyical pain is something I often see no solution for. He gave me arthritis pills, but a blood test said no I don't have that. I know what hurts and it hurts.

[Deilla]

I feel a little sad and disappointed this morning. Things are a little difficult. I'm trying to do the best I can.

[regretful]

Not getting much better...keeping up with the morning exercise routine, though...so that's a plus.

Today was a very nice day. It seems like I don't have many real nice days but I tried to bask in it for today. It was because I went to have a blood test for an annual physical and got my results. I pretty much "aced" it this time. The results were seemingly the best I had in a good while. I hope it keeps up. The results have always been good, but this time it was the best. I will have an appointment with my Primary Care Physician nine days from now.

Also I was very busy today so there wasn't as much sitting around as in other days. I"m still restricted but the bike riding restriction will be lifted by next week.

[Deilla]

I have a med appointment today. I'm sleepy and ready for bed. But my appointment is after 5 pm. I guess I'm going to bed once it's done.

[regretful]

Overwhelmed...I have an appointment with a primary MD on Monday and may discuss meds with him...I've been down that road before, and I didn't like it due to so many side effects...Not sure what to do. Depression is paralyzing at times...Wishing all of you well in your personal battle against this invisible monster.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by regretful

Overwhelmed...I have an appointment with a primary MD on Monday and may discuss meds with him...I've been down that road before, and I didn't like it due to so many side effects...Not sure what to do. Depression is paralyzing at times...Wishing all of you well in your personal battle against this invisible monster.

I can somewhat understand this since I have had many horrible side effects from multiple meds. Intolerable in fact. I also wish you well in your personal battle against the invisible monster.

[regretful]

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Originally Posted by regretful View Post
Overwhelmed...I have an appointment with a primary MD on Monday and may discuss meds with him...I've been down that road before, and I didn't like it due to so many side effects...Not sure what to do. Depression is paralyzing at times...Wishing all of you well in your personal battle against this invisible monster.
I can somewhat understand this since I have had many horrible side effects from multiple meds. Intolerable in fact. I also wish you well in your personal battle against the invisible monster.

Thank you for saying that. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one with side-effects. I had some success with Cymbalta, but after some monster weight gain and perhaps some medication induced mania, I stopped it. The withdrawal was horrible. So, I'll probably just end up grinding my way through this. And thank you for the well wishes.

I got out of the hospital yesterday. been feeling pretty good sicne I have been out- yesterday was a little stressfull unpacking things and getting re-aquainted with my rooteen, but today I'm okay- slighlty annoyed that my new lion king dvd is blue-ray, and my dvd player can't play those, but I re-ordered it on prime and the new one's coming tomorrow.

I made sure it was the regular one this time

[Deilla]

I feel a little upset. But the person I'm upset with just isn't worth it.

Was busy this morning. I got a renewal notice from my auto insurance company. I decided to do a search for other carriers and look at their rates. I decided to make a switch, since the other company's policy is much less than what I have now.

Lately the days seem to be nicer to me. Things have been going OK and people seem nicer to me than before. I hope this keeps up.

[Breaking Dawn]

Difficult at the moment.

[regretful]

I am fortunate in some ways, as I think we all are...so today, despite the depression, I'm counting my blessings and doing what I can to focus on positive thoughts - this is due to my wife telling me yesterday that I am always jumping to catastrophic conclusions...so I'm taking her suggestion to heart. It all stemmed from me lamenting some of the regrets that I've had, like not spending more time with my dad when he was alive. And when I shared that thought with her, she said, so astutely, realize that some day these days will be gone too, so appreciate the time we have right now. It was an important lesson for me. So, positive thoughts - avoiding those thinking errors that I'm prone to (mostly catastrophizing and fortune-telling). And, as always, wishing all of you well in you personal battle with this unwelcome monster.

Originally Posted by regretful

I am fortunate in some ways, as I think we all are...so today, despite the depression, I'm counting my blessings and doing what I can to focus on positive thoughts - this is due to my wife telling me yesterday that I am always jumping to catastrophic conclusions...so I'm taking her suggestion to heart. It all stemmed from me lamenting some of the regrets that I've had, like not spending more time with my dad when he was alive. And when I shared that thought with her, she said, so astutely, realize that some day these days will be gone too, so appreciate the time we have right now. It was an important lesson for me. So, positive thoughts - avoiding those thinking errors that I'm prone to (mostly catastrophizing and fortune-telling). And, as always, wishing all of you well in you personal battle with this unwelcome monster.

Very good post here! I feel like it's so true to me about the catastrophic thinking. Thinking about my health is what's catastrophic thinking is for me. I always worry about it, even though doctors have assured me that I'm alright (physically, that is, but not emotionally!). That kind of thinking, I guess, comes from me being alone and worrying that if something goes wrong, I'll have to deal with it by myself (I had a post about that on the Premier Poo-Bah forum). Also, some years ago, my sister had put pressure on me to move in with her because of that possibility. It made perfect sense to me of what she had been implying, but moving in with her or being in her area is the very last thing I want to do.

[Deilla]

I didn't sleep well last night so I'm very depressed today.

[Buffy01]

Lately my family and their friends has been putting me down a lot. It causing me to feel depressed all the time.

Originally Posted by regretful

I am fortunate in some ways, as I think we all are...so today, despite the depression, I'm counting my blessings and doing what I can to focus on positive thoughts - this is due to my wife telling me yesterday that I am always jumping to catastrophic conclusions...so I'm taking her suggestion to heart. It all stemmed from me lamenting some of the regrets that I've had, like not spending more time with my dad when he was alive. And when I shared that thought with her, she said, so astutely, realize that some day these days will be gone too, so appreciate the time we have right now. It was an important lesson for me. So, positive thoughts - avoiding those thinking errors that I'm prone to (mostly catastrophizing and fortune-telling). And, as always, wishing all of you well in you personal battle with this unwelcome monster.

May be you should google for some self help books on keeping your focus on the here and now. Your wife is right, some day these days are gone as well. The only thing you really have is the "now-moment".

Originally Posted by will19

but moving in with her or being in her area is the very last thing I want to do.

You are probably right. Google for books about how to get rid of health anxiety and stick to it when you have found the right book for you.

[Kelly68]

I'm grateful to have a place to share things here. I'm having more downs than ups... I don't see a lot of ups. I listen to an interesting podcast on youtube every other day or so. I'm stressed out and feel depressed. Since my car broke down, I lost the job but I was aching so badly I realized it's again not realistic to think I can work. But, some make think it fortunate to at least have disability income, but I may lose that soon. And where I live is temporary and also my one son is about to lose his housing too.

[xIxAmxSadx]

This week has been bad depression wise... last week was great... this week... pretty awful. Numb, no motivation, heavy, tired, low, exhausted, drained... I hope things look up next week....

[Breaking Dawn]

I had a successful day yesterday, though very difficult. Today started out very emotional but I'm feeling better now.

[Deilla]

I'm tired and it's late but I might have to clean litter boxes. I hope I have the energy.

Today was another pretty nice day for me. It seems like the times have been fairly nice to me lately. I did cleaning in the morning. The real good news I got was a note from my doctor (I had asked) saying that I can resume my activities. I sent him a picture of the area on my face where I had the procedure. I personally thought that it looked good from the self-care I did for it. But I was surprised that I could resume my activities so soon.

Also I got some money in the mail that I was expecting and a little booklet from my sister that I was anxious to read.

It's nice to have some great days like I've been having lately after I had been though a lot of cruddy times since I left my job last June.