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Thanks to whatever2013 for responding. I am deleting this because it's too difficult for me to deal with and I don't want to bother anyone else with my pain.

I hope all of you get the help and support you need.

@AgentQ9A:

Just chiming in to say that i get it. I also find life purposeless. I guess the truth is: there IS no point. I'll just keep stumbling along and one day i'll die. Incidentally, we have some stuff in common: i am also 55, my dad also died at 54, i also live in an apartment and i also live for my dog.

Thanks @whatever2013, I appreciate your input and response. I've been checking in on your posts because I'd noticed we were 55 around the same time. I hope you're well.

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((((((AgentQ9A))))))

Thanks to everyone showing support. I'm in a very dark place at the moment and I am not seeing a way out. I'll leave it at that because I know each of you have your own battles. But thank you again for your support.

I asked my brother for a little help, which is a big deal for me as I hate asking others for help. I doubt he will, but stranger things have happened.

Edit: Brother's response is basically "maybe."

[Aviza]

I hope your brother helps you. I feel the point of life is to create experiences. So I'm always striving for more. I figure out what I want to try and go for it. I'm very goal oriented.

[moodyblue83]

Life does seem pointless now. I’m in my 60’s and am a physical and mental wreck. I can’t enjoy anything.
Have no zest for life. I know with the right circumstances it can get better. I just live for those moments in a day when
it feels like it’s good to be alive. But the moments are brief. How do I get out of this pit of despair ?

[Pinny]

Originally Posted by AgentQ9A

Thanks to everyone showing support. I'm in a very dark place at the moment and I am not seeing a way out. I'll leave it at that because I know each of you have your own battles. But thank you again for your support.

I asked my brother for a little help, which is a big deal for me as I hate asking others for help. I doubt he will, but stranger things have happened.

Edit: Brother's response is basically "maybe."

Hi @AgentQ9A
How are you doing today? Im so sorry youre having such a difficult time. I just wanted to send you some positive thoughts and hugs

And to say well done in reaching out for help, thats a huge accomplishment! You should be very proud, even if you dont get the help you need, you took a step to try and help yourself.

I hope things are getting better for you!

[Pinny]

Originally Posted by moodyblue83

Life does seem pointless now. I’m in my 60’s and am a physical and mental wreck. I can’t enjoy anything.
Have no zest for life. I know with the right circumstances it can get better. I just live for those moments in a day when
it feels like it’s good to be alive. But the moments are brief. How do I get out of this pit of despair ?

Im so sorry youre having such a difficult time @moodyblue83
Thats really rough, and Im sorry youre feeling like this.
Do you have anyone you can reach out and talk to?

I think its important to remember that this feeling passes, but youve got to keep going. I just wanted to send you some positive thoughts and hugs

Originally Posted by Pinny

Hi @AgentQ9A
How are you doing today? Im so sorry youre having such a difficult time. I just wanted to send you some positive thoughts and hugs

And to say well done in reaching out for help, thats a huge accomplishment! You should be very proud, even if you dont get the help you need, you took a step to try and help yourself.

I hope things are getting better for you!

Thanks Pinny.

Things are really pretty bad, but I'm trying to not burden everyone with my life. I'm shrinking my life and world, so that when I'm gone it won't be a problem for people.

I'm dealing with troubling mental and physical issues, my dogs are both having troubles, my brother is backing off and I'm OK with that because I've been sh!tty for years and don't want him to feel burdened any further by me, and I had a chance to meet my friend and have been putting them off. I'm just trying to get through each day as best I can. I really think this time, I am done.

Thanks everyone, I do know you're hurting too and I hope you get support.

[MuseumGhost]

Dear AgentQ9A,

I hope you will reach out to a counselling hotline for support. There are very good people who want to help.

I know how hopeless things can feel at times. Some days are just harder than others. I sincerely hope you will have a meaningful talk with someone, soon.

MG

-911 is the national emergency number in the United States.

-211 is a phone number in the United States for people in crisis who need emergency referrals to social and community services but are not experiencing an immediate life-threatening emergency. Services available vary by state.

-The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (Lifeline) is a 24-hour, toll-free, confidential suicide prevention hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress. It provides Spanish-speaking counselors, as well as options for deaf and hard of hearing individuals. It is only available in the United States. A 24-hour Online Chat in partnership with Contact USA is also available.

-The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline can be reached at 1-800-273-8255. In July 2022, 988 will become the national three-digit dialing code for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline alongside the current phone number of 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

-T-Mobile US and Verizon Wireless customers can dial 988 to reach to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.

-Nacional de Prevención del Suicidio: 1-888-628-9454
Deaf or Hard of Hearing: Use your preferred relay service or dial 711 then 1-800-273-8255

-The Veterans Crisis Line (Home) is a 24-hour, toll-free hotline that provides phone, webchat, and text options available to military veterans and their families. It provides options for deaf and hard of hearing individuals.
The Veterans Crisis Line can be reached at 1-800-273-8255, followed by Pressing 1.

-The hotline will be available to be reached by dialing 988 by July 2022. The 988 number is currently activated on T-Mobile US. Like calling the other phone number, the Veterans Crisis Line can be reached by pressing 1 after calling the 988 phone number.
The hotline can also be reached by texting to 838255.

-IMAlive Crisis Chatine (IMAlive – Free and confidential online crisis chat) is a non-profit, worldwide 24/7, anonymous chatline to help anyone in crisis via instant messaging.
-
-The Crisis Text Line (crisistextline.org) is the only 24/7, nationwide crisis-intervention text-message hotline.
The Crisis Text Line can be reached by texting HOME to 741-741.

-Samaritans USA (Samaritans USA) is a registered charity aimed at providing emotional support to anyone in distress or at risk of suicide throughout the United States.[9]

- The Trevor Project (The Trevor Project | For Young LGBTQ Lives) is a nationwide organization that provides a 24-hour phone hotline, as well as 24-hour webchat and text options, for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and questioning youth.
The TrevorLifeline can be reached at 1-866-488-7386.
TrevorChat can be found at https://www.thetrevorproject.org/get-help-now/
TrevorText can be reached by texting START to 678-678

-Trans Lifeline (https://www.translifeline.org/) is a nonprofit organization that is created by and for the transgender community, providing crisis intervention hotlines, staffed by transgender individuals, available in the United States and Canada.
The Trans Lifeline can be reached at 1-877-565-8860.]

[Pinny]

Originally Posted by AgentQ9A

Thanks Pinny.

Things are really pretty bad, but I'm trying to not burden everyone with my life. I'm shrinking my life and world, so that when I'm gone it won't be a problem for people.

I'm dealing with troubling mental and physical issues, my dogs are both having troubles, my brother is backing off and I'm OK with that because I've been sh!tty for years and don't want him to feel burdened any further by me, and I had a chance to meet my friend and have been putting them off. I'm just trying to get through each day as best I can. I really think this time, I am done.

Thanks everyone, I do know you're hurting too and I hope you get support.

Youre absolutely not a burden and youre not burdening us with anything.
Im so sorry youre feeling so bad, its awful, but it will pass. Youve got through this before, you can do this again.
Thats a great idea to call a helpline, or someone else in your life?
It sounds like you have a friend in your life who is reaching out to you, maybe you could reach back a little?
Just keep going, this will pass.

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by MuseumGhost

Dear AgentQ9A,

I hope you will reach out to a counselling hotline for support. There are very good people who want to help.

I know how hopeless things can feel at times. Some days are just harder than others. I sincerely hope you will have a meaningful talk with someone, soon.

MG

-911 is the national emergency number in the United States.

-211 is a phone number in the United States for people in crisis who need emergency referrals to social and community services but are not experiencing an immediate life-threatening emergency. Services available vary by state.

-The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (Lifeline) is a 24-hour, toll-free, confidential suicide prevention hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress. It provides Spanish-speaking counselors, as well as options for deaf and hard of hearing individuals. It is only available in the United States. A 24-hour Online Chat in partnership with Contact USA is also available.

-The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline can be reached at 1-800-273-8255. In July 2022, 988 will become the national three-digit dialing code for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline alongside the current phone number of 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

-T-Mobile US and Verizon Wireless customers can dial 988 to reach to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.

-Nacional de Prevención del Suicidio: 1-888-628-9454
Deaf or Hard of Hearing: Use your preferred relay service or dial 711 then 1-800-273-8255

-The Veterans Crisis Line (Home) is a 24-hour, toll-free hotline that provides phone, webchat, and text options available to military veterans and their families. It provides options for deaf and hard of hearing individuals.
The Veterans Crisis Line can be reached at 1-800-273-8255, followed by Pressing 1.

-The hotline will be available to be reached by dialing 988 by July 2022. The 988 number is currently activated on T-Mobile US. Like calling the other phone number, the Veterans Crisis Line can be reached by pressing 1 after calling the 988 phone number.
The hotline can also be reached by texting to 838255.

-IMAlive Crisis Chatine (IMAlive – Free and confidential online crisis chat) is a non-profit, worldwide 24/7, anonymous chatline to help anyone in crisis via instant messaging.
-
-The Crisis Text Line (crisistextline.org) is the only 24/7, nationwide crisis-intervention text-message hotline.
The Crisis Text Line can be reached by texting HOME to 741-741.

-Samaritans USA (Samaritans USA) is a registered charity aimed at providing emotional support to anyone in distress or at risk of suicide throughout the United States.[9]

- The Trevor Project (The Trevor Project | For Young LGBTQ Lives) is a nationwide organization that provides a 24-hour phone hotline, as well as 24-hour webchat and text options, for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and questioning youth.
The TrevorLifeline can be reached at 1-866-488-7386.
TrevorChat can be found at https://www.thetrevorproject.org/get-help-now/
TrevorText can be reached by texting START to 678-678

-Trans Lifeline (https://www.translifeline.org/) is a nonprofit organization that is created by and for the transgender community, providing crisis intervention hotlines, staffed by transgender individuals, available in the United States and Canada.
The Trans Lifeline can be reached at 1-877-565-8860.]

Thank you very much for sharing those links @MuseumGhost

[MuseumGhost]

I know very well the emotions around what we're discussing. We can become mired, and unable to think rationally, rather quickly.

Sometimes it just helps to have a reminder that there are multiple, meaningful options for someone in this kind of distress.

Massive ((((huggs)))), AgentQ9A.

[moodyblue83]

I’m just gonna share what I did when I was at that point , ( and I’ve been there more than once ).
I started watching YouTube a lot and learned a great deal. I didn’t have the strength to read a whole
book so I watched videos on this very subject. I listened to what the great philosophers had to say about
this subject. and psychologists and just regular people. I immersed myself into the existential question
of “ Why “? It got me out of myself and “ into the moment” , ( which I believe is the secret to carrying on ).
There is such SO MUCH to learn. Hoping you pull through…..

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks again everyone. I do appreciate your input and there is some relief that others know how I feel. Still the feeling is persistent. I get a few moments to breathe and feel some relief and then it all hits me again. All I can do is appreciate the good moments and get through the bad. But getting through the bad is taking a lot more out of me than I seem to have lately. Living each day just to put one foot in front of the other is getting old.

I started eating a little better because I know some of my mental issues is related to how I treat myself. But now I feel deprived of the few things that I know make me feel better. Well, better for a few moments and then I feel terrible later. Now, other than some snuggles with my dogs, I don't have much that makes me smile or even just feel relief.

I'll give it one more day.

[Bill3]

[atreyuh]

Originally Posted by moodyblue83

Life does seem pointless now. I’m in my 60’s and am a physical and mental wreck. I can’t enjoy anything.

Have no zest for life. I know with the right circumstances it can get better. I just live for those moments in a day when

it feels like it’s good to be alive. But the moments are brief. How do I get out of this pit of despair ?

I can relate to this so much. My depression Is heavy. I hope you'll have more uplifting moments. Hugs

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[moodyblue83]

Originally Posted by atreyuh

I can relate to this so much. My depression Is heavy. I hope you'll have more uplifting moments. Hugs

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Thank you atreyuh………My depression Is also very heavy. Wish I could just lift it out of me and throw it in the garbage ! PM me anytime if you want to talk about your experiences. It’s hard when you just have no joy or happiness about life.
Does it mean anything to have lived at all ? Maybe I should go to the philosophy forum ! What I do is pick and choose. I take what I need and leave the rest.
But I digress , I guess. Good luck ateyuh. Sometimes I feel like that’s what it’s all about. CHANCE ……..