[Breaking Dawn]

I've been able to do a few things today that will help me. I hope the best for you guys too.

[hvert]

I'm trying to get outside for walks or just fresh air to see if that helps.

[SlumberKitty]

Depression has been kicking my butt lately. I tried to see if I could get an earlier appointment with my Pdoc but to no avail. He only works three days a week and he is booked. Oh well. I see him next month. I hope for a better day today. Yesterday sucked and was really draining. I am determined to cope better.

I didn't sleep well last night. No one was to blame, it was just me who kept myself up. I was busy this morning and it all went alright. Last Tuesday I went to the medical lab to have my blood drawn and urine sample. I haven't received my results yet. It seems like it's been a long wait for it. I contacted the doctor about it and got a message back saying my results will be posted after he reviews it himself. I feel alright physically but I hope there's nothing wrong.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really awful about myself

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I been feeling really awful about myself

Dear Buffy, please never feel awful about yourself. You, dear one, are very special. You are a giver! I thank God for people like you. It's so sad how your family treats you. Unfortunately the bully types can make us feel unworthy of anything good. Can you find a friend who will support & nurture your better feelings about yourself?

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by D-a-n

Thanks for the info, TheGal. I don't have a therapist or psychiatrist right now, but I'm in the process of finding one. Hopefully soon. I'll ask about this when I get in to see someone.

it always hard to find a good psychiatrist and therapy

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Dear Buffy, please never feel awful about yourself. You, dear one, are very special. You are a giver! I thank God for people like you. It's so sad how your family treats you. Unfortunately the bully types can make us feel unworthy of anything good. Can you find a friend who will support & nurture your better feelings about yourself?

Just my online friends and I am trying to get a waiver to get into day program as well as finding a place.

I was busy this morning. I finally got my results from the Lab (blood & urine samples taken last Tuesday) and it's looking pretty good. Not perfect but OK.

I felt fairly good in the morning but my good feeling sunk in the afternoon. It started to rain around 2 and it hasn't stopped since then. I wanted to go out in the afternoon but couldn't. Also during the afternoon, I was feeling bad about myself.

[3rd rock]

I had an okay week. I woke up late on Wednesday and couldn't sit with my birds before leaving for work because I didn't have time. That's an important part of my routine, so it made me feel bad to have to skip it. Otherwise, my week was uneventful. I got back my vacation request approved for the first week of April, so I can use that week to work on my novel all day long instead of just in the little time I have after work during the week most weeks.

I have been working on my young adult novel. To get myself into the mood (of a moody teenager) I've been listening to certain songs that were released when I was a teenager, and which are appropriately moody. I think it's working, heh. In any case it's helping me write a little better, though I'm still on the first draft of my current project. I hope to have the first draft finished in 3 months or so. If I can use my upcoming vacation to get a lot of work done, that may be as little as 2 months. I'll have to just keep at it and see what happens.

[waldeinsamkeit]

I had a pretty good day today. I got to spend a lot of time talking with my brother who lives out of state. I've been off this past week from school but I start back on Monday. I've been really tired because I spent most of my time off running a lot of errands and doing doctor's visits in preparation for a trip I have to take in a couple of weeks. I crammed everything into this week because it was my only time off for the semester. I got some bloodwork done too and thankfully all was well. I'm not ready to go back to class but I am hoping I get some decent sleep tonight and tomorrow so that I can be somewhat prepared for Monday.

[Rose76]

I'm feeling pretty good. Been catching up on housekeeping chores. I-m glad the weather is changing. I'm glad it isn't dark so early.

[3rd rock]

Unfortunately, I had to delete my draft so far. I had to do this because the story became unworkable, and because it's too similar to another book I've read. I'll try and come up with notes and restart it next weekend. I only made it about 9,000 words into the draft, so it's not like I'm turning back on months of work.

[Breaking Dawn]

I've had a hard time recently, but I haven't given up. I had a tantrum this morning but got over it. Full of wishes, & trying to override sadness.

[Buffy01]

One of my sister and one of my brother has been irritated me today.

Not a good day today. I went out to go shopping and, just when I was near the store, my car broke down. I called for service and it had to be towed. As of now it looks like the car will be tied up for at least three days. It maybe tied up for two weeks. My car is 15 years old.

Another thing that went wrong (it doesn't affect me directly though) was that my friend had a colonoscopy this morning and it ended up not done because he was "too full". Just after the colonoscopy, he called me but it was a bad time for me to talk because I was waiting for the service for my car. When I got home, I've called him a few times but no answer.

And now it's raining and cold, so no bike riding. And now I'm mauling over what I should do now that my car is gone. I can't believe all of this. It feels like I'm living in a bad dream.

It's another rainy day here. It has rained non-stop since mid-afternoon yesterday.
I woke up this morning around 3 AM and just told myself, "you don't have your car now!". No word on what's going on with my car so far but I was told it will be a while when it will be repaired. So now, I'm mauling over what option should I do while waiting - order groceries online, rent a car, or go shopping by using either Uber or Lyft. It all seems overwhelming and an adjustment that I'm not used to. It's going to cost about $10 - $30 more to eat than usual. It (or ick) sucks!

[Breaking Dawn]

My cell phone has been giving me problems, but I'm able to use it at the moment so I can be here, thank goodness.

[3rd rock]

I'm extremely depressed tonight. I'm on the verge of tears for the first time in, well I can't remember. There's no particular reason for it, save my difficulties getting this current novel off the ground. I've had to call in sick for the second time in two weeks; the earlier of the two times was the first since August of last year. I hope to feel better tomorrow so I can go into work on Thursday to try and salvage this week.

Today I ordered groceries online for the first time. It went OK but I felt like I flubbed it up a little and there were items I wanted and the store didn't have it. I was trying to get used to working with it. I may or may not have to order online again; it depends on what's going on with the service of my car.

I miss my car a whole lot. I feel like my life is a lot different. There's a nice store I shop at but they don't do deliveries. Also it seems like the quality of food I got isn't as good as where I go shopping. But, I'll live with it for a while.

I'm feeling depressed because of the new routine for now and I didn't get much sleep last night. I was wound up about the car and how the online grocery shopping would go.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Today I ordered groceries online for the first time. It went OK but I felt like I flubbed it up a little and there were items I wanted and the store didn't have it. I was trying to get used to working with it. I may or may not have to order online again; it depends on what's going on with the service of my car.

I miss my car a whole lot. I feel like my life is a lot different. There's a nice store I shop at but they don't do deliveries. Also it seems like the quality of food I got isn't as good as where I go shopping. But, I'll live with it for a while.

I'm feeling depressed because of the new routine for now and I didn't get much sleep last night. I was wound up about the car and how the online grocery shopping would go.

That is amazing to shop online and get some groceries.

Originally Posted by Buffy01

That is amazing to shop online and get some groceries.

I guess so, but I didn't think it was that great. There are extra charges for delivery and they don't have everything on stock as much as going to the store itself. The particular store I shop at doesn't do deliveries and that's too bad because the quality of the food is much better than where I'm getting my groceries online. Well, as soon as I get my car back, I'm going back to my old ways. I wouldn't trade in the experience I had today for what I have been doing all along. I really miss it.

[3rd rock]

I'm feeling very depressed. Every time I try and start this novel, I realize what I write is too similar to a book I've read, one of my favorite novels of all time. So I get a few thousand words in, only to delete everything I've written and declare to start over again. It's extremely frustrating, to be so unable to get this thing off the ground.

[Rose76]

I'm still enjoying being on an upswing. I've started spring cleaning, and my apartment is coming along nicely. I bought some baby tulips to replant in a pot for my front patio. I want to have a patio garden. I love that the days are much longer now. My car is running good. I heard from a cousin yesterday. Everything is going quite well.

[TheGal]

I am feeling better the last couple of days which feels like a miracle.