[Rosi700]

I feel very tired.


I have understood that in this stage of my life (the after Christmas and New year time), I will need to be patient with myself.

I have different plans for the weekends than for the rest of the weeks.

My goals for the next week is to be able to go through my "stay healthy" morning rituals and to make dinner each day. If I can do that, that is progress.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Yesterday I went to the grocery store. It was a bad day to go there, a terrible experience. But I somehow managed. And I was so very glad to get out of there. Life can be so unpredictable. I'm not happy at the moment. But I know I'll feel better later.

I’m sorry that it was a bad day

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I don't think I'm depressed today. I'm mainly just very exhausted. There isn't much to be depressed about to be honest. I have another trip coming up in less then 2 weeks, and a couple things happening that are life changing in a good way. So I think today I am just totally drained of physical energy for some reason and I'm hoping I didn't catch anything from my last trip.

That is good that you’re not depressed.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Violetta75

Very lonely and depressed. If my past is any indication of my future, it looks like things will never get better, only worse. i guess i just have to accept whatever comes, there isn't a choice.

I’m very lonely and depressed too

[cool09]

Not depressed but can't get motivated. Can't get anything done. Feeling no enjoyment like I did before I started Saphris 2 mths ago. Saphris not working well now.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

At this moment I am doing a little bit better.

That is amazing

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I've been feeling exactly the same way. I feel like my head is in the dark clouds - that not much is going to happen except for doom and gloom. I don't foresee great things happening in the future; only bad.

My friend and I split up last night. We had an argument while talking on the phone. He hung up on me. I hate it when that happens.

I’m sorry hug: about the breakup

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Violetta75

i'm sorry you feel this way too Will, and that you lost your friend last night. Getting hung up on is hurtful and frustrating. Hopefully you can mend the friendship or make a new friend.

Loneliness and lack of friendships is a big part of my depression. I'm trying to learn to like being alone but I do need some kind of socializing in my life.

I agree loneliness and depression.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm feeling like things are not going well lately. I had let go two people in my life and they were all that I had. They were being annoying to me (long story). So now I have no one. I had a blood test this morning and got a result. I was not satisfied with the result. So I'm in a gloomy mood. For some strange reason, I knew that it was not going to be a great day today. I'm feeling like no one cares.

Sorry to hear that. I had to end a couple of friendships to help my mental health.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I am rewriting parts of my novel one more time, especially the early parts. I hope rewrites on the first few chapters will increase my chances of finding an agent or publisher. They typically require submissions to include a sample of the first 1-5 chapters, so rewriting these to make them better might increase my chances on any given submission. I expect these rewrites to be finished by the end of the labor day long weekend, after which time I'll resume submitting.

Not a bad idea. Keep sending your novel out someone might read and publish

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

I lost a lot of friends recently.

Possible trigger:

I spoke out publicly against child abuse, and found that many of them disagree and feel that children need to be beaten. It was quite shocking.

I’m sorry that you lost some friends. Keep speaking out against child abuse.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Felt alright after my routine of the Saturday morning cleaning. But overall feeling like I'm in a slump. It's like nothing is lining up well; and if some little nice thing were about to happen, then it would get blown out. It's one of those kind of days. Like being on a team who's constantly losing and can't do anything right.

I feel like that myself around family

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Violetta75

i wish i could just sleep away the next week.... it's the only good thing lately even though it's not enough

I wish that I could sleep

Today has been hit or miss. I had a mirror conversation with myself last night before bed, to try to see that not EVERYTHING is terrible in my life. It helped last night.

This morning I woke up and was pretty depressed about everything again. I had to go to the library to take things back (stuff that was just to distract myself), but I choose to pickup some books to help with my life. I really hope it will help. The one I'm most excited about is by Martin Seligman about optimism. I have very little optimism, even on good days, so I hope it helps. Hopelessness and very low self-esteem are probably the biggest issues for me. I'm not sure how to improve them, but the books should give me some guidance. I hope.

[Shaunie]

Struggling today. I feel awful

[Deilla]

I've had a good day today. I stayed busy.

[Rosi700]

My Saturday was not good. I felt down for most of the day. Woke up freezing. It had been cold the night before. I forgot to use my tools and all felt hopeless. I didn't go to the grocery store which I usually do at Saturdays. I even started to think that life was not worth living, but it never turned into real suicidal thoughts.

I have too few friends here. I need to do my job better (am thinking about how to be more socially active). May be to set up goals for how to continue in the groups I already am a member in and how to join some new groups, step by step plans, will help.

Sorry for ranting, but I needed to put my thoughts down. Thank you for listening!

[TheGal]

Hi Rosi700,

Hope your Sunday goes better.

I'm up in the wee hours of the morning, and not feeling too well either.

Hope my Sunday goes better as well... I'm just keeping my head above the waves right now and maybe that is good enough...

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by TheGal

Hi Rosi700,

Hope your Sunday goes better.

I'm up in the wee hours of the morning, and not feeling too well either.

Hope my Sunday goes better as well... I'm just keeping my head above the waves right now and maybe that is good enough...

Thank you for your concern! I feel better now. I could not sleep and have used the time to read about CBT. I understand that it was not due to cold weather that I felt so down. It was because that when I was still freezing, I read something that made me feel not appreciated. I should have callenged that thought!

Sometimes it can be really tricky to understand why one feels down/depressed and to find the right tools for it. I will rest for 1 1/2 hour, now. After that I will put the dishwasher to work and I will, really will, get rid of the rest of my Christmas decorations. I think I will visit a church as well, this day. I must remember to take a shower!

Tomorrow I plan to go out buying some new cloths.

I wish you a very good Sunday!

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Sometimes it can be really tricky to understand why one feels down/depressed and to find the right tools for it. I will rest for 1 1/2 hour, now. After that I will put the dishwasher to work and I will, really will, get rid of the rest of my Christmas decorations. I think I will visit a church as well, this day. I must remember to take a shower!

I took my rest and it did me good. I repeated CBT tools and printed out some CBT forms . "Things" went slowly and I used an aumont of time to make dinner. There was no time to put away the rest of the Christmas decorations, but I got my shower.

Hope to find time for the Christmas decoration tomorrow .

A very long and draggy day today. The weather hasn't been great lately. Feeling empty and guilty for not doing much. I feel like I have things coming up tomorrow and Tuesday that I'm dreading.

[Breaking Dawn]

Most of today has been difficult. And I'm too tired to believe my positive self talk.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Weird morning. I was busy making a batch of spaghetti sauce for the next four weeks, like I do. It appeared my sister called a couple of times but didn't leave a message. And then my friend from college called a couple of times and didn't leave a message either. So I'm wondering if there's a problem with my voicemail.

The last time I spoke to my sister I told her I didn't want to do the phone calls anymore because she's too upsetting to me. So I wonder if she had something to tell me or if her phone accidentally called. Around the same time my friend, whom I had split up recently, sent me a message saying that he's worried about me. I don't know why people upset me and then they want to get back together with me and not apologize. I don't get it. :

I had planned to call my college friend later today. I called him back but just left a message. I hope I can get through to him sometime today. I feel like I really need him or anyone else who can lend an ear.

Breaking Up is hard to deal with.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I fixed the voicemail problem. I had a nice neighbor who let me make a phone call to myself to test the voicemail. The voicemail was not coming on, so I unplugged my phone and internet connection and rebooted. VOICEMAIL WORKS NOW!

Wow! I never would have thought about that.m

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

Went out to a bar tonight for the first time since pre-Covid. I forgot how loud it gets. Had to scream to be heard.

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Did you enjoy yourself dancingchilli: while going partytime2: out