[MimiBhaduri0]

Too depressed. I am unemployed and stay with my parents. I have food and shelter but there is no love. My dad wanted to have me as his girlfriend and my mom refused to stand by me. My other people are mean to me as well. My ex American boyfriend dumped me while the ex before him is an anti-social, in fact a terrorist, and is threatening to kill me. He and his people physically torture me every day. They hold high positions in the Indian defense department and I camnot go to the police to complain against them.

I wrote to the usa government several times asking for refuge but have not received any response. Im currently stuck in India, dying a little every day. I would have killed myself had I not had 3 cats who are completely dependent on me. If I die they will die. Is there no help for me?? I will not survive if I cannot get out of India.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear MimiBhaduri0, Your post sounds unbelievable, but I believe you. Your situation is tragic. I will keep praying that officials here will allow you to come here or that you will be able to find another good place where you can be free & live a safe life.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Dear MimiBhaduri0, Your post sounds unbelievable, but I believe you. Your situation is tragic. I will keep praying that officials here will allow you to come here or that you will be able to find another good place where you can be free & live a safe life.

Thanks for believing me.

[little turtle]

i am so sorry that you are suffering...
sending love for you...

[Thirty shades]

I am sending you hugs Mimi.

It is never easy to sit in a powerless situation.

I very much hope that some good fortune will come your way.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by little turtle

i am so sorry that you are suffering...
sending love for you...

Thank you

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Thirty shades

I am sending you hugs Mimi.

It is never easy to sit in a powerless situation.

I very much hope that some good fortune will come your way.

Thank you

[MimiBhaduri0]

At the moment I am surviving on painkillers and benzos. Im in a lot of pain and have too much fatigue and depression throughout the day. I wish to God this situation changes soon.

MimiBhaduri0,

I am so sorry to hear about your troubles. I don't know if it helps, but I will try to remember you in my prayers!

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by GoGo2

MimiBhaduri0,

I am so sorry to hear about your troubles. I don't know if it helps, but I will try to remember you in my prayers!

Thank you

[TunedOut]

I said a prayer for you MimiBhaduri and others like you stuck in abusive situations. The painkillers and benzos (I still take a benzo occasionally and when I have been prescribed painkillers, I finish the bottle, in part, because they do feel good short term so I know from experience) help us feel better in the short term but actually make us less able to cope longer term if we get in a situation where we are using them all of the time. So I said a prayer that you could also escape your addiction to them if you are using them to cope with the emotional (rather than physical) pain. IMO, using painkillers to deal with our emotions is how we get addicted--don't know it this is happening to you but I just wanted to put it out there for your information. And I do understand you are in a hopeless situation that makes it tempting to use because you need comfort from intense anxiety and pain. Emotional pain can be worse than physical pain. Do you have physical pain too?

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by TunedOut

I said a prayer for you MimiBhaduri and others like you stuck in abusive situations. The painkillers and benzos (I still take a benzo occasionally and when I have been prescribed painkillers, I finish the bottle, in part, because they do feel good short term so I know from experience) help us feel better in the short term but actually make us less able to cope longer term if we get in a situation where we are using them all of the time. So I said a prayer that you could also escape your addiction to them if you are using them to cope with the emotional (rather than physical) pain. IMO, using painkillers to deal with our emotions is how we get addicted--don't know it this is happening to you but I just wanted to put it out there for your information. And I do understand you are in a hopeless situation that makes it tempting to use because you need comfort from intense anxiety and pain. Emotional pain can be worse than physical pain. Do you have physical pain too?

Thanks for praying for me.
I take the painkiller bc of physical pain not for emotional pain. I take the benzo(xanax) for panic attacks.
I try not to abuse them.

[Amethyst_Stargazer]

Originally Posted by MimiBhaduri0

Too depressed. I am unemployed and stay with my parents. I have food and shelter but there is no love. My dad wanted to have me as his girlfriend and my mom refused to stand by me. My other people are mean to me as well. My ex American boyfriend dumped me while the ex before him is an anti-social, in fact a terrorist, and is threatening to kill me. He and his people physically torture me every day. They hold high positions in the Indian defense department and I camnot go to the police to complain against them.

I wrote to the usa government several times asking for refuge but have not received any response. Im currently stuck in India, dying a little every day. I would have killed myself had I not had 3 cats who are completely dependent on me. If I die they will die. Is there no help for me?? I will not survive if I cannot get out of India.

Omg, I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. Please know that I believe you and I support you. Nobody should have to go through something like this.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Amethyst_Stargazer

Omg, I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. Please know that I believe you and I support you. Nobody should have to go through something like this.

Thank you

[Breaking Dawn]

So many of us have been through stuff that can't even be talked about. And it never leaves us, but we can learn how to navigate, in spite of the obstacles. We, each of us, need to find our way, whatever that is, as long as we don't hurt someone else, right? That's what I feel. But I keep learning & I sometimes make adjustments in my thinking & feelings, ever since my CBT therapy, which changed me.

[LiamW]

I feel sorry for you! Stay strong, I'll pray for you!

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by LiamW

I feel sorry for you! Stay strong, I'll pray for you!

Thank you.

[MimiBhaduri0]

I pray every day that this ordeal ends and the usa government takes me in.

[TunedOut]

This thread reminds me to pray for you everyday! Hang in there.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by TunedOut

This thread reminds me to pray for you everyday! Hang in there.

Thanks much.

[Breaking Dawn]

[MimiBhaduri0]

Is there any hope for me? Will I be able to get out of here ever??

[TunedOut]

Originally Posted by MimiBhaduri0

Is there any hope for me? Will I be able to get out of here ever??

I will keep praying for you and said one when I saw this. It is not a perfect solution, but sometimes when it gets to be too overwhelming (and I am not in as bad of a situation so I cannot image how hard it is ), I detach partially in my mind and try to focus on work and distractions. I hope you can find strategies that help you hang on to your hope and sanity.

[Breaking Dawn]

Life is sometimes too much!! It can be too cruel, so much so that nothing seems worthwhile. But we have to keep trying, in spite of all of that! Why? Because we know, deep within ourselves, that's the right way to go. I wish you, & all sufferers, a safe way out!!

[MimiBhaduri0]

Do I tell myself ... stay strong and hang in there, this too shall pass...there is always hope??