[AzulOscuro]

I’m sorry, Rose. Wish I could say something to help you. I have ears if you want to talk, ok?

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I feel bad.

And now, Christmas is coming although there, in the States, it already began, didn’t it, guys?
This time is really complicate for many people for different reasons.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

I’m sorry, Rose. Wish I could say something to help you. I have ears if you want to talk, ok?

Thank you. Right now all I can do is cry. Later I'll try to talk.

[will19]

I went to the Lab early this morning so that I can have my results for the upcoming annual physical exam next week. It ended up not being done because I went to the receptionist and stated that my doctor made the order. The receptionist could not find my doctor's name for the order. Later on, the doctor's assistant told me that another doctor had made the order for me. The receptionist had told me that doctor's name, who made the order, but I didn't know who it was. So I'll go back there again to have it done.

Also I'm having a problem with a tooth. It's loose, so I may see the dentist tomorrow. It just happened recently.

It seemed like this year was a bumpy ride for me with a lot of setbacks and takeaways; and now, so far, it looks like this month is going to be a bang. I hope next year will be better.

[Samicat]

I turned 55 yesterday, which was hard. I did go out with my husband and some family, and will see a few friends later this week. But overall I was pretty depressed about getting old. I had hoped to retire early by this age, but to be financially comfortable I will need to work again. But right now I have health issues that need investigating first, so I'm in a weird kind of limbo and semi-retired. I do feel glad that I don't have to be working right now just to survive.

My birthday gift to myself was attending a local new-and-used bookstore and buying myself some books. I had donated many of my books away thinking we wouldn't have space for them in our new apartment, but we ended up having space and I miss having them (I have tons of e-books but it's just not the same as physical books that you can hold and display and lend out). So I ended up getting myself 5 books - 3 are used but in great condition. 4 are fiction and 1 is a copy of Marcus Aurelius' _Meditations_.

[Albatross2008]

Therapy session in a little over an hour.

[will19]

I went to the Lab this morning and got my results. All good so far. I think there are still some items that are pending, so I'll get more either by tomorrow or Thursday. I made an appointment to see the dentist tomorrow morning. And there will the dermatologist on Thursday and a check up from my primary on Tuesday. This is such a big change for me with my routine. I prefer the old routine with no doctor appointments. Feeling anxious about the appointments.

[Rose76]

I failed again today to get anything done. I'll go start cleaning up in the kitchen now. Sometimes, just getting some things done turns the tide for me.

[Samicat]

Went for an ultrasound today so I'm glad that is done. I also need to get blood work done but they require an appointment so will have to go another day.


The doctor thinks I may have diverticulitis - which is bad but preferable to a cancer diagnosis so it does lift my spirits a bit.

[Samicat]

A woman from my live depression support group invited me to go for coffee - so I'm going to go. No expectations except for casual acquaintance but it was nice that she asked.

[hiddenaway]

Last night I had a nightmare that makes me not want to go to TPIR.

I dreamed I tried to slip Drew my number and got kicked out with no hope of returning to the show.

...and now my anxiety is making me feel like it would really happen that way if I did go.

[will19]

Tired today because I didn't get much sleep, feeling like I'm in the Twilight Zone. I was too wound up about going to the Dermatologist today for a full-body skin check up. It all turned out fine and I'm happy. I worry a lot before going to doctors, so that's why I couldn't sleep well last night. Also, I got up at 5 AM to do the laundry, so that I can have it finished before the appointment.

Lately, the only friend I have has been acting a little bit strange and weird. When I talk to him I feel down and depressed.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Samicat

Can you try to suspend judgment of yourself? Nobody deserves to be judged - we are all fallible and have flaws.

good I’ll try

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I failed again today to get anything done. I'll go start cleaning up in the kitchen now. Sometimes, just getting some things done turns the tide for me.

Little by little. 💖💖💖

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Samicat

A woman from my live depression support group invited me to go for coffee - so I'm going to go. No expectations except for casual acquaintance but it was nice that she asked.

I wish you luck with your medical tests and with your appointment with that woman. 👍 Enjoy yourself. You deserve it.

[AzulOscuro]

I feel very well lately. I’m very active, very sure of what I want. I have a great amount of energy. I think this latter is because I follow a good sleep pattern.
I say no when I want to say no and say yes, when I want to say yes.
I control my impulses that can be harmful.
I don’t have any problem if I have to interact with somebody.
I’m not having a lot of problem with my menopause other than a little heats that control with soja.
I feel pretty even when I don’t wear make-up now.
What else can I say? I have it all and I feel gratitude for every single second of it.

My only sad moments are when I recall my little piece of heart (my doggie Miky) who is not gonna be with us this Christmas, for the first time since my angel arrived home.
Somehow, he’s gonna be with us because his ashes are in the best place in the living-roon. On the chimney, next to the Christmas three. On the chimney nearby he likes to lay on, on the carpet. I never forget this picture.

I’d like to share with you all a little of this peace I’m feeling.

[Samicat]

I'm so sick of not being able to sleep through the night. So annoying and distressing.

I hope the coming year resolves my health worries. I'm 55 and have invested a huge amount of time and effort over the years to eating very healthy food and exercising but I've dealt with some major stresses. My family are not long lived and I'm really hoping to avoid serious physical illness anytime soon. My husband is disabled and I am afraid of what would happen to him without me. My younger brother has already had cancer (he is still in treatment but luckily they caught it early).


too many worries....

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Samicat

I'm so sick of not being able to sleep through the night. So annoying and distressing.

I hope the coming year resolves my health worries. I'm 55 and have invested a huge amount of time and effort over the years to eating very healthy food and exercising but I've dealt with some major stresses. My family are not long lived and I'm really hoping to avoid serious physical illness anytime soon. My husband is disabled and I am afraid of what would happen to him without me. My younger brother has already had cancer (he is still in treatment but luckily they caught it early).


too many worries....

I’m sorry a lot. Too much.
Is it pain or stress and worry what don’t let you sleep a little more?

[hiddenaway]

More weird dreams but not about Drew this time, thankfully.

[LadyShadow]

Feeling okay today, but have no idea how my husband would react to me during the day.