[hiddenaway]

God, I wish Drew would post. I'd give anything to know that him's okay and that nothing is wrong.

[Violetta75]

I slept a bit better last night. It's unusual to have above freezing weather for a bit. I got laundry done and some things back to their right place in my room. My back is hurting. Done for today.

[Rose76]

I'm not doing too good. At least the weekend is soon ended. I don't like weekends. It feels too quiet.

Feeling depressed today. I did some light shopping yesterday morning. I was going to do that shopping today, in which I preferred, but decided to do it yesterday because of work being done today at the next street over; which means that the parking on that street was not allowed. I was busy yesterday morning but not as busy today.

One good reason for feeling depressed lately is because I'm mauling over leaving where I live, which is not that great. I haven't slept well because of noise; and forget about mid-afternoon naps because it's way too noisy with construction and remodeling work going on nearby. Plus my neighbors don't seem to like me and I'm not friendly with any of them. I'm thinking of leaving for somewhere else that's a long way from where I am because I need a change. But I fear of going from the frying pan to the fire. It would be nice to know of someone in an area where I'd like to move to, but I don't know anyone for that.

[Rose76]

Today went a bit better. I had a doctor's appointment. That got me out of the house, which usually makes me feel a lot better. It did. It was a nice day out. I'm now cleaning up around my apt. Everything goes to heck when I'm depressed. Then the disorder makes me more depressed.

I better make a plan for tomorrow. Otherwise, I'll sleep late and fritter away the day doing next to nothing.

I told my new doctor I've been having a hard time with depression since November. He asked if I had suicidal ideation. I said, "Yeah, but no intent to self-harm." That ended that exchange. He showed no real interest in my emotional difficulty. They never do. Every medical provider I talk to thinks I'm just fine. I guess I look and sound fine. I wish inside my head matched. It doesn't. I keep feeling awfully distressed. Making myself do things seems to be the only way to feel better. It's so hard with so little motivation.

[LadyShadow]

Drowning, just drowning. Robbed of sleep and aching for this to go away.

[Buffy01]

awful due to making bad decisions financially which led to me being repeatedly yelled at which had been an honest mistake

[hiddenaway]

...well, my bathroom sink isn't draining like it should.

The little lever that you pull broke off so now the drain at the bottom is closed and water takes forever to empty.

Oh, the joys of apartment living. Not.

[Rose76]

I saw my new primary doctor yesterday. I mentioned being depressed since Nov. He was very thorough about discussing my various health issues, but he took little interest in my depression. He just asked if I was suicidal. Once I said "No" he moved on.

I never get taken seriously, when I mention depression at this clinic. I guess I come across as being okay. I am not okay. I don't get all dramatic about it. I wish I could talk to someone who would understand what I'm up against.

[rjdb]

Originally Posted by hiddenaway

...well, my bathroom sink isn't draining like it should.

The little lever that you pull broke off so now the drain at the bottom is closed and water takes forever to empty.

Oh, the joys of apartment living. Not.

At Home Depot they make these little plastic sticks you can stick down the sink and they grab onto hair and stuff if it’s clogging your sing. Very effective.

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Busy morning but the rest of the day was very boring. I did the laundry early in the morning and light shopping after that. It was very boring today because it rained all day; and hard at times. There's supposed to be more to come.

[Rose76]

I had a real good day. I had someone come by to help me with getting my apartment straightened out. She was a great help, and we got my place looking good again. Mentally, I feel so much better. When my place is messy, it makes my depression so much worse. This evening I actually feel pretty good. What a relief.

[hiddenaway]

I'm sleepy and sort of sad but I'll be okay once I put on SpongeBob. Him's become a balm for my soul, weird as that is.

[Violetta75]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I saw my new primary doctor yesterday. I mentioned being depressed since Nov. He was very thorough about discussing my various health issues, but he took little interest in my depression. He just asked if I was suicidal. Once I said "No" he moved on.

I never get taken seriously, when I mention depression at this clinic. I guess I come across as being okay. I am not okay. I don't get all dramatic about it. I wish I could talk to someone who would understand what I'm up against.

I think you should say what you need to. Tell him or her you are not okay. Make a list of what you do during the day, that you don't or do go out, track your moods, don't show up dressed to the nines if you know what I mean. My psychiatrist always started with ''well you look good'' i finally said just because I look put together doesnt mean i'm ok. If you wait too long who's going to help? I went to the er and needed help too. I wasn't admitted to hospital. But the crisis worker came and gave me a lot of papers of where to find help. I wish you the best

[Violetta75]

Awake almost on time. I realized I don't turn in bed which doesn't help my pain. Getting papers more organized today. Now it's time for coffee.

[Violetta75]

i've been awake for too long... what a long day. i don't think i'll sleep tonight, maybe exhaustion will make me give in to sleep

[hiddenaway]

I can't sleep, even with my plush Drew to snuggle with. Plus I just feel like crap in general.

[Violetta75]

Right now, I'm just tired and wating for the day to end.

[hiddenaway]

Could be worse, I suppose.

[Rose76]

I'm feeling very well. I just have to start planning my days, so I don't waste too much time, trying to decide what I want to do next. Getting my apartment straightened out, thanks to hiring someone to help me, really turned things around. This is the best I've felt since Halloween.

[Violetta75]

I want to just sleep in, days are cold and dark. Mood wise I'm ok, not depressed.

[hiddenaway]

Not quite awake but I haven't had enough coffee, either.

Was busy this morning with light shopping and I purchased a new phone. This afternoon, not much. Steady rain this afternoon and it's supposed to be more stormy tomorrow. It's kind of nice to see the rain and yet it's boring being unable to go outside.

[Rose76]

I had a pretty good day. I seem to get tired easily. Not depressed, which is a relief.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by will19

Steady rain this afternoon and it's supposed to be more stormy tomorrow. It's kind of nice to see the rain and yet it's boring being unable to go outside.

Rain is good, at least with some good rain gear and/or an umbrella... I personally attest to this! 👍