[Humpty Dumpty]

I currently see a Psychiatrist but he doesn't know I struggle with this. When I first started seeing him I lied and said I didn't think about it. I was worried he would call the cops & have me forcibly committed. (Wouldn't be the 1st time that happened to me) I've tried therapy but that doesn't help. Once again I won't talk about my feelings of suicide. Some days are better than others but the thought is always there. I just don't know what to do. I can easily lose my job over this. One of the qualifications of my job is to not suffer with depression. That's a 6 month lose of qualification, suicide is a 12 month lose. Think of it like this. You drive for a living & a qualification is to hold a driver's license. If you lose your license then you can no longer work.

I don't know what to do. I am so tired of feeling like this. I know I'm never going to follow through because I had a chance to once and chickened out. So I'm too much of a coward to follow through.

[rjdb]

I've done this too, but I don't think they'll take action unless you have an action plan. IMO therapy is useless unless you're 100% honest.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by rjdb

I've done this too, but I don't think they'll take action unless you have an action plan.

With the way my mind works I'm always thinking of ways to kill myself. Many consider that a plan(s). If asked I could quickly rattle of 4 or 5 ways I could kill myself. Given a little time I could think of more.

IMO therapy is useless unless you're 100% honest.

And that's 1 reason why therapy is useless for me because I can't be 100% honest.

[CANDC]

HD have you considered telling your psych doc that your meds are not keeping you stable and try to have them adjust them some meds have side effects of producing suicidal ideation. It is worth asking your pharmacist.

[Fuzzybear]

Humpty Dumpty

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by CANDC

HD have you considered telling your psych doc that your meds are not keeping you stable and try to have them adjust them some meds have side effects of producing suicidal ideation. It is worth asking your pharmacist.

My meds more or less work. I'm not as depressed as I used to be but I've been dealing with suicide thoughts in varying degrees since I was probably around 12. I'm over 40 now. I've just accepted it as a part of life that I'll always have to deal with. Much in the same vein of having bad knees. Nothing can be done about it.

[MtnTime2896]

sending thoughts your way and hope you feel reprieve from the si. haven't talked in a while, but if you remember me, you know i struggle very similarly. here if ya need hd.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by MtnTime2896

sending thoughts your way and hope you feel reprieve from the si. haven't talked in a while, but if you remember me, you know i struggle very similarly. here if ya need hd.

I haven't been around nearly as much either. Thanks though

[Free Butterfly]

Hi, Have you tried change of diet (cut out junk food and eat fresh fruit and vegetables as much as possible), don't drink soft drinks, only pure water or herbal teas, take supplements and particularly Vitamin B12 daily? Also try really hard to take yourself out for a walk every day as much as possible. Walking relieves stress. Call up a friend and have a nice chat, put on your favourite music, get lost in a beautiful movie or good book. All things that take your mind off over-thinking and dark thoughts. Do you believe in God? Do you pray for strength and guidance? I always pray and I believe this really does help me. We all experience feelings of depression and suicide ideation sometimes, we just have to be strong and fight these feelings and thoughts off the best we can. Just know you are not alone and that I am sending you good energy and wish you stay safe always.