[Rose76]

I managed to get dressed. That seemed like a big improvement. But now I want to go lie down. I keep wanting to sleep. I've been so depressed.

[3rd rock]

I bought the stuff to make some mushroom pork chops at Walmart today. Along with a few other grocery items, it cost me about $62. The extreme price of food and other basic necessities makes me upset, because I know if prices continue to climb then I might not be able to feed myself. It's very depressing to go to the grocery store and every time it now costs me $45-60 per bag of groceries. And I'm just a single, childless adult who knows how to live cheaply. I shudder to think about what it costs to feed a typical family in this day and age. And no one in our government seems to really care about it at all. They brag about bringing inflation down, but I need prices not to just increase at a slower rate, but to actually decrease. It's deeply depressing to know I can't save for the future when the now is just so expensive.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by will19

Today was a nice day. I got up at 5:30 AM to do the laundry and it all went well. After doing the laundry I went to get a smog check on my car. That went well. I was the only one there - no waiting! I passed, so that was great. The man who did it was nice . Last Monday, as I had said on here at that time, I went to that smog check place and the computer wasn't working. I hated to have to go back but it went well, so I was pleased.

I did some light shopping afterwards and got some good deals. I felt like I got what I needed and saved quite a bit. That was needed!

In the afternoon my old friend from college called me. It went OK. He's a nice guy and a good friend; but it seems like he doesn't talk very well. Something seems off with him.

Glad you had a good day at last, much deserved. Everyone here deserves it on that note:

I’m always afraid my car won’t pass the smog inspection.

I hope your friend gets better.

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[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I bought the stuff to make some mushroom pork chops at Walmart today. Along with a few other grocery items, it cost me about $62. The extreme price of food and other basic necessities makes me upset, because I know if prices continue to climb then I might not be able to feed myself. It's very depressing to go to the grocery store and every time it now costs me $45-60 per bag of groceries. And I'm just a single, childless adult who knows how to live cheaply. I shudder to think about what it costs to feed a typical family in this day and age. And no one in our government seems to really care about it at all. They brag about bringing inflation down, but I need prices not to just increase at a slower rate, but to actually decrease. It's deeply depressing to know I can't save for the future when the now is just so expensive.

The government is out of touch and lives in a different universe!

I hate the word inflation and other fancy words to describe high prices! I see you’re in Canada and not the USA but I think it’s global, like the climate crisis.

The government also has inaccurate data on things like the number of unemployed or homeless. Since they just count claims, the unemployment rate is much higher because people don’t get counted when dropped from the system. This happens when they run out of benefits.

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Originally Posted by nonightowl

I hope your friend gets better.

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I don't think my friend will get better. He was much better in the past than he is now. He's not getting worse, but he's been the way he is now for a good long time unfortunately. Thank you for your concern for him. I feel concerned for him

[Buffy01]

I am still trying to figure out how to heal trauma in my family system

[Rose76]

This has been a painful day. I wish I was dead.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Rose76

This has been a painful day. I wish I was dead.

I'm sorry you feel that way. I hope you'll get through the night. Just take it one day at a time.

I'm feeling very depressed and hurt now. I feel like I got snubbed and I don't understand it. Here's the story:

I didn't mention it on here but last Saturday, I felt like I was instrumental in saving someone's life. It was a neighbor. What happened was that she collapsed and it happened outside of my bedroom window. I was the only one responding to her and she was unresponsive to me because she had a seizure.

I called 911 and got other neighbors to help out because I didn't know how to handle it A couple of women helped her out and I felt like they did a great job. She was taken to the hospital.

Now she's fine as of today, but I only saw her in the distance. It appeared that she gave a couple of the women (who helped her out) a small gift box with a "thank you" card. I never got one. I feel really hurt by this. I feel like I don't deserve all of the credit, but at least a little something.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm feeling very depressed and hurt now. I feel like I got snubbed and I don't understand it. Here's the story:

I didn't mention it on here but last Saturday, I felt like I was instrumental in saving someone's life. It was a neighbor. What happened was that she collapsed and it happened outside of my bedroom window. I was the only one responding to her and she was unresponsive to me because she had a seizure.

I called 911 and got other neighbors to help out because I didn't know how to handle it A couple of women helped her out and I felt like they did a great job. She was taken to the hospital.

Now she's fine as of today, but I only saw her in the distance. It appeared that she gave a couple of the women (who helped her out) a small gift box with a "thank you" card. I never got one. I feel really hurt by this. I feel like I don't deserve all of the credit, but at least a little something.

I would feel hurt, if that happened to me. Perhaps, the lady who collapsed was confused as to the role you played. When you attempted to rouse her, she was unconcious, so she didn't realize what you were doing.

Still, when she conversed with the ladies who helped, they might have filled her in on you summoning first responders. If it were me who passed out, I'd ask questions to know exactly how aid got to me. So she seems remiss in not getting the story straight, or she just felt like buddying up to these ladies for some reason. If so, that's not very nice.

[Rose76]

I woke up this morning feeling like I snapped out of depression. What a relief. Have to clean my house now. Place is a mess.

[nonightowl]

Oh gosh Will, that sucks! I agree with Rose. Still you are a kind person and deserve thanks. I know what it’s like to do nice things for neighbors or anyone really and get no acknowledgement.



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[Rose76]

I feel so much better. Had a good sleep.

[unaluna]

Will, that is not nice at all. Maybe she is friends with the women and doesnt know your name?

I hope she wasnt peeping in your window when she collapsed.

[Calla lily12]

Will, I'm sorry that happened. You should have been thanked for helping her.
I've been very tense, scared and depressed. I had a very hard therapy session today and haven't been able to stop crying. My analyst is on vacation till next week but he said he'll answer e mails. I just want the panic and crying to stop. Its wearing me out.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by Calla lily12

Snip: You should have been thanked for helping her.

I agree. Those women should have given you the credit for being the first to help and not take all the glory for themselves. People suck.

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[Buffy01]

I feel very hurt by what my two sisters said

[Rose76]

I was down with tummy sickness today. I'm better now. 3rd day without depression.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Depressed.

me too

[3rd rock]

I actually wrote 1,000 words today, in one day, for the first time in several weeks. I'm trying to radically alter my style of writing by forcing myself to work within certain confines in terms of word counts so as to produce something much more readable and accessible to the average reader, with an eye towards getting this book published when I'm finished. I have a timeline of the end of the year for a first draft, and then a final draft by the end of June next year. That will mean about a year I'll have spent writing this thing overall. To be honest, it's only the delusional fantasy of becoming a successful author that really gives me any hope for the future. I choose to cling to that fantasy because without it, there's no hope, and all I'd be doing is just waiting away the days until I inevitably pass. And that's too gruesome a future to really contemplate seriously.

[Rose76]

Still not depressed. The heat does take away my energy. Tummy pain was bugging me this morning, but gone now.

Nothing much has been going on with me lately. This is the time of year when I tend to feel the most depressed and anxious. It can be a challenge to get out of bed in the mornings because of it. I have three appointments coming up that I'm dreading within the next month. It seems like bad things tend to happen to me at this time of year; along with putting up with the heat and noise.

I personally want to thank all of you who replied to me last week. I was very touched with the nice replies and care for me for what had happened for me at that time.

[Rose76]

Very depressed.

[Calla lily12]

Is it ok if I give safe hugs to all who feel depressed?

[3rd rock]

I'm going into treatment on Wednesday, so I've been cleaning my apartment. I'm only doing this in case my landlord needs to enter my suite for some reason during my absence. He's already done annual inspections earlier this year, which passed without incident. But I still need to make sure my suite is adequately presentable in case he enters for other reasons. I drew up a task list and schedule a few days ago, and I've been working it as it's written. I've allowed myself plenty of time, considering that my suite was already in basically presentable condition. Today, I cleaned the floors in the bathroom and kitchen, and I cleaned the toilet bowl and shower. Tomorrow, I'll vacuum, take out the garbage, and tidy up in the bedroom.

I've completed a chapter on my novel, and now it's on to the next one. I hope to have a draft finished within the next 8-10 weeks. If so, I can probably finish a rewrite by the end of the year. Then I have to find readers who will be willing to read a copy and give me critical feedback, which I can incorporate into the third draft. I hope to have the novel finished by the end of June, 2025. After that, I can begin the arduous attempt at getting published.

My mood is more or less stable. I haven't had any crying spells for about a week. I've been sleeping okay. I'm apprehensive about going into treatment, mainly because it involves being surrounded by a group of new people. We'll see what happens. I intend to work on my novel while I'm in treatment, during my downtime. I hope to be able to write an average of 1,000 words per day. I think that's possible, given the schedule at treatment. There's lots of time given for what they label 'client free time.' I can use that time to write on my phone.