Invisible

I feel invisible. Nobody seems to hear me or see me, whether online or offline, whether I am typing something like this, talking on the phone, or talking face to face. I am just invisible.

They see and hear the people and things speaking or going on around me, but not me.

I feel just as invisible here as I do everywhere else .. I write this knowing it will likely be ignored, yet in desperate hopes it will not.

I'm like a lost woman stripped of everything she once had, trapped in a world made entirely of windows - able to watch others, hear others, but they cannot see or hear me. I'm just trapped here, in a silent suffering, unable to do anything to help myself. Screaming at this soundproof window at the top of my lungs, "HELP ME!!', slamming my fists against it, trying so hard to be noticed .. yet everyone just carries on as if I am not here. Am I a ghost? Did I already die and just don't know it? If not, why can't I stop feeling so invisible?

It must be so soul destroying to feel the way you describe. I’m not sure I can offer you any advice, but I did want to respond to say I read your post.

How long have you been feeling this way? Have you sought help from your doctor or a therapist?

I’ve not experienced what you describe to the same degree, although I have had periods where I’ve felt as though I’m there for all the other people in my life but they were not there for me. Your situation sounds desperately severe.

I hope others on here respond to you with some useful advice. I would imagine your post will resonate with someone who has experienced or is currently experiencing similar feelings.

Jeff.

Crypts it is so good to hear from you. I have long wondered if you are okay. If you would like to share more about what is happening. I would be so happy to listen.

I went through a long bout in my life (over thirty years) of straight depression, anxiety, suicidal attempts and ideations, PTSD, and problems with borderline personality disorder. During that time, I did psychotherapy - both psychologist and psychiatrist as well as social workers and home health care nurse. I came to understand that while they were able to teach me skills and techniques to manage my symptoms, the medications were slowly causing me more physical troubles than I could deal with, adding to my psychological traumas, and none of those "professionals" ever truly took the time to understand me. They would tell me my psychological issues were my own fault, or that I simply was over reacting to my traumas, etc. Eventually, I went to natural remedies .. and that worked well for five years, until I was diagnosed with diabetes, and my body chemistry changed again. Doctors - even regular medical doctors - are again refusing to help me balance things, which means I once again need to try to figure it out on my own.

So even though I have tried asking for help, I get no response. Now that my mental health is starting to decline again due to it, because of the inaction and seeming inability of doctors to listen in the past, I am even more reluctant to seek mental health care - especially if all they want to do is take what little money I have and push more pills at me.

Thank you for hearing me and responding. ❤️

I've missed you so much ❤️❤️❤️

When I talk to people, they just continue doing what they are doing, without any reaction (even facial) or saying anything. When I type out things on platforms like Facebook or message apps, I get very little responses - most are just laughter icons .. or they say they need to go now and never respond to what I said when they return, etc.

I thought all my friends on here were gone. I have missed you all. Thank you for reaching out and responding. ❤️

Feeling invisible is a horrible thing. I'm sorry people don't take notice of you. Please feel free to message me any time. For what it's worth...I see you and I hear you.

Thank you, that means a lot ❤️

Crypts you deserve so much better treatment! Is there another mental health clinic or hospital that you could try? Its bad enough to have depression and all but adding physical issues to it is very hard.
I'm going through the physical stuff too and it seems like no one wants to help me.

Unfortunately, no .. the ones I have gone to in the past are all that is offered here that my insurance accepts and I cannot afford to pay out of pocket with no insurance .. thank you for saying I deserve better - it sounds like you do too .. neither physical nor psychological issues should be ignored by others. I'm sorry you can relate. *hugs*