[Taonuviel]

I can't even get any more homework done... I've had all day, I oughta do more than I have. But I can hardly concentrate on it in my room, and when I do get at it where I can concentrate I have to fight off sleep - like my brain's too tired for real thought. Doesn't help it's dreary out - talk about an extra kick for depression.
So I really need to do something with myself. But I can't go looking for something... I can't tolerate the idea of trying to be outgoing at this point, or even social, really, and I've done all there is to be done in my room. I hate it when there's no structure and nothing to do.
I need to find some way to be around people. This thought pattern is not going to be healthy. I just wish I knew how... which is another thing, someone at the hospital brought up Asperger's Syndrome, she isn't so sure I actually have this, but that I think that way as a result of how I grew up. Eh, but what do I care. The only thing I really want anymore is to feel like I belong in this world and am loved. I'm sick of feeling like some strange, socially incompetent pathetic creature.

[Wants2Fly]

Really can't say much -- pretty down myself

(((((((Taonuviel))))))

[(JD)]

Aw gee sorry you are feeling so low... tired can be remedied, but happens again, and you have to address so many different issues (like a good diet, good sleep at night...) lonely is a tough one too when you just aren't feeling like being with ppl.. but bored? Ah, bored you can fix! Are you sure you are bored? If so, you must find something to do. You must.

Something you like (or used to like) to do... and push yourself to engage in it again. If it was all with others, then maybe you do need to find some activity you will do alone... don't be bored, it adds to your depression.

(I forget.. and won't remember in the future... you need to take meds to help with depression. Well, not really, but therapy plus meds help big time!)

[shakes]

You sound like me... I really am starting to think that the change of season is affecting so many people. Seeing the sunlight go away sooner and sooner really dips my mood down.
I know the feeling of having stuff to do including homework and just not having the energy (or want) to do it.
It is so hard to feel alone...but you are not because you have us here. While I realize that it is not the same I hope that it helps.

Jessica